{"id":835,"date":"2025-02-16T21:21:28","date_gmt":"2025-02-16T21:21:28","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/?p=835"},"modified":"2025-02-16T21:21:28","modified_gmt":"2025-02-16T21:21:28","slug":"ben-ve-esim-bir-cok-ilde","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/ben-ve-esim-bir-cok-ilde\/","title":{"rendered":"Ben ve E\u015fim Bir \u00c7ok \u0130lde"},"content":{"rendered":"\n\t\t<style>\n\t\t\t#gallery-1 {\n\t\t\t\tmargin: auto;\n\t\t\t}\n\t\t\t#gallery-1 .gallery-item {\n\t\t\t\tfloat: left;\n\t\t\t\tmargin-top: 10px;\n\t\t\t\ttext-align: center;\n\t\t\t\twidth: 33%;\n\t\t\t}\n\t\t\t#gallery-1 img {\n\t\t\t\tborder: 2px solid #cfcfcf;\n\t\t\t}\n\t\t\t#gallery-1 .gallery-caption {\n\t\t\t\tmargin-left: 0;\n\t\t\t}\n\t\t\t\/* see gallery_shortcode() in wp-includes\/media.php *\/\n\t\t<\/style>\n\t\t<div id='gallery-1' class='gallery galleryid-835 gallery-columns-3 gallery-size-thumbnail'><dl class='gallery-item'>\n\t\t\t<dt class='gallery-icon landscape'>\n\t\t\t\t<a href='https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/ben-ve-esim-bir-cok-ilde\/ben-ve-esim-bir-cok-ilde\/'><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"150\" height=\"150\" src=\"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/02\/Ben-ve-Esim-Bir-Cok-Ilde-150x150.jpg\" class=\"attachment-thumbnail size-thumbnail\" alt=\"\" aria-describedby=\"gallery-1-836\" \/><\/a>\n\t\t\t<\/dt>\n\t\t\t\t<dd class='wp-caption-text gallery-caption' id='gallery-1-836'>\n\t\t\t\t\u201cE\u015fimle ben belirlemelerle \u00e7o\u011fu il il\u00e7e dola\u015ft\u0131ktan sonra, 2000 senesinde belirlemele Manisa\u2019ya geldik.\n\n\u00c7ocuklar\u0131m\u0131z liseye gidiyordu. \u0130lk defa geldi\u011fimiz Manisa\u2019y\u0131 \u00e7ok sevdik. \u00d6nce kirada oturuyorduk, nas\u0131l olsa di\u011fer bir \u015fehre belirleme ihtimalimiz vard\u0131. Fakat seneler ge\u00e7tik\u00e7e, Manisa\u2019dan ayr\u0131lamayaca\u011f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 anlay\u0131p, buraya yerle\u015fmeye karar verdik Krediyle ev ald\u0131k, \u00e7ocuklar \u00fcniversiteye ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131, bizim de emeklili\u011fimiz yakla\u015fm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. E\u015fim polis, ben \u00f6\u011fretmendim. \u00d6nce ben emekli oldum, birka\u00e7 sene sonra da e\u015fim\u2026\n\nBu arada o\u011flumuz evlendi, k\u0131z\u0131m ni\u015fanland\u0131, her \u015fey \u00e7ok g\u00fczeldi.\u0130\u015fleri gere\u011fi \u00e7ocuklar ayr\u0131 \u015fehirlere gittiler. Tatillerde, bayramlarda bir araya gelip, \u00f6zlem gideriyorduk.Bu sevin\u00e7 \u00e7ok uzun s\u00fcrmedi. Hani d\u00fcnya bir s\u0131nav sahnesidir ya, benim pay\u0131ma da o k\u00f6t\u00fc hastal\u0131k d\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc. Halsizlik, i\u015ftahs\u0131zl\u0131k, tez yorulmalarla ba\u015flayan \u015fik\u00e2yetlerim, ger\u00e7ekten bedenimi saran k\u00f6t\u00fc urun i\u015faretleriymi\u015f.\n\nEge \u00fcniversitesinde ba\u015flayan tedavi ve bende y\u00fckselen korku ya\u015fam\u0131m\u0131 alt \u00fcst etmi\u015fti. \u00d6yle \u00e7aresiz, \u00f6yle halsizdim ki\u2026 Ne yapaca\u011f\u0131m\u0131 bilemiyor, benli\u011fimi saran bu berbat durumdan biran evvelce kurtulmak istiyordum. Tedavimle u\u011fra\u015fan doktor, temiz haval\u0131, natural bir ortam\u0131n bana iyi gelece\u011fini, toprakla u\u011fra\u015fmam gereklili\u011fini s\u00f6yledi. \u0130lerlemi\u015f hastal\u0131\u011f\u0131 fakat bu \u015fekilde zay\u0131flat\u0131p, normale d\u00f6nebilirdim, aksi halde\u2026\n\n\n\t\t\t\t<\/dd><\/dl><dl class='gallery-item'>\n\t\t\t<dt class='gallery-icon portrait'>\n\t\t\t\t<a href='https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/ben-ve-esim-bir-cok-ilde\/fcvbf\/'><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"150\" height=\"150\" src=\"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/02\/fcvbf-150x150.jpg\" class=\"attachment-thumbnail size-thumbnail\" alt=\"\" aria-describedby=\"gallery-1-837\" \/><\/a>\n\t\t\t<\/dt>\n\t\t\t\t<dd class='wp-caption-text gallery-caption' id='gallery-1-837'>\n\t\t\t\t\u00c7evreye \u00e7ok duyurmadan bu hastal\u0131ktan kurtulmak istiyordum, kimsenin benim amac\u0131yla \u00fcz\u00fclmesini, hastal\u0131\u011f\u0131mla kimseyi me\u015fgul etmek istemiyordum. Hastal\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131n alt\u0131nc\u0131 ay\u0131nda , tahlil neticelerini al\u0131p eve geldi\u011fimde\u2026., koridorda valizler g\u00f6rd\u00fcm. E\u015fime sordu\u011fumda neye u\u011frad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 \u015fa\u015f\u0131rd\u0131m. K\u0131sacas\u0131 e\u015fim \u00f6l\u00fcmc\u00fcl hastal\u0131\u011f\u0131 olan bir kad\u0131nla u\u011fra\u015fmak istemiyordu.\n\nMarmaris\u2019teki yazl\u0131\u011fa gidece\u011fini, bir ay i\u00e7ersinde bo\u015fanma davas\u0131 a\u00e7aca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 s\u00f6yledi. Oturdu\u011fumuz ev bana Marmaris\u2019teki ev ona kalacakt\u0131. Ben daha hastal\u0131\u011f\u0131n \u00f6nemiyetini hazmedememi\u015fken bu haber y\u00fcre\u011fime kur\u015fun gibi sapland\u0131. S\u00f6yleyecek bir \u015fey yoktu, e\u015fim bo\u015fanmaya kararl\u0131yd\u0131.\n\nBir ay i\u00e7ersinde ge\u00e7imsizlik vs gibi bahaneler bulmal\u0131yd\u0131m. Hasta oldu\u011fum amac\u0131yla bo\u015fanmak mecburiyetinde kalmak \u00e7ok a\u011f\u0131r\u0131ma gidiyordu.\n\n28 senelik e\u015fim, bana hi\u00e7 beklemedi\u011fim a\u011f\u0131r bir vuru\u015f vurup gitti.\n\nBirinci katta oturuyorduk. Apartman\u0131n ufak bah\u00e7esine bakarken, ya\u015fad\u0131klar\u0131m\u0131n bir k\u00e2bus olmas\u0131n\u0131 diliyor, sessiz g\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131m\u0131 ak\u0131t\u0131rken, deva ve dayanma kuvveti versin diye Tanr\u0131\u2019a yalvar\u0131yordum.\nO an Tanr\u0131\u2019\u0131n izniyle iyile\u015fip normal ya\u015fam\u0131ma d\u00f6nebilece\u011fime dair i\u00e7ime m\u00fcthi\u015f bir inan\u00e7 doldu. Apartman\u0131n ufak bah\u00e7esi, tohumlar, \u00e7i\u00e7ek ve sebzeler benim hayata sevincim olacakt\u0131. \u00d6yle de oldu.\n\nBu arada e\u015fim giderken kom\u015fulara, yazl\u0131ktaki evi tadilat amac\u0131yla gitti\u011fini s\u00f6ylemi\u015f.\n\nBen ufak bir \u00e7apa al\u0131p i\u015fe ba\u015flad\u0131m.\n\n\u0130lk g\u00fcnler on dakikada nefessiz kal\u0131yordum, vakit i\u00e7ersinde bu vakit uzamaya ba\u015flad\u0131.\n\nOn be\u015f g\u00fcn i\u00e7ersinde \u00e7apa i\u015fini bitirdim, g\u00fcbre ald\u0131m, topra\u011f\u0131 ekilecek duruma getirdim.\n\nKom\u015fular da heveslenip, bana yard\u0131m etmeye ba\u015flad\u0131lar. Bah\u00e7eyi, tohumlar ve saks\u0131 \u00e7i\u00e7ekleriyle doldurduk. Nisan ay\u0131nda tohumlar \u00e7\u0131kmaya ba\u015flay\u0131nca ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m mutlulu\u011fu ya\u015fam\u0131m vakitsince unutmayaca\u011f\u0131m.\nBir aydan \u00e7ok bir vakit ge\u00e7mi\u015fti, bu vakit i\u00e7ersinde kendimi bo\u015fanmaya, ya\u015fam\u0131 bir ba\u015f\u0131na hayataya al\u0131\u015ft\u0131rmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yordum.\n\nArada bir, hastal\u0131\u011f\u0131 y\u00fcz\u00fcnden e\u015fi do\u011frultusundan terkedilen var m\u0131d\u0131r, diye d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyordum.\n\nBah\u00e7em ye\u015ferdik\u00e7e ben de iyile\u015fiyordum sanki\n\nMay\u0131s ay\u0131n\u0131n ortalar\u0131nda telefonla hastaneye \u00e7a\u011fr\u0131ld\u0131m. Tahlillerle alakal\u0131d\u0131r diye gitti\u011fimde, ya\u015fam\u0131m\u0131n \u015fokunu ya\u015fad\u0131m.\n\nE\u015fim Manisa\u2019ya gelir iken Sabuncubeli\u2019nde trafik kazas\u0131 ge\u00e7irmi\u015f, yo\u011fun bak\u0131ma al\u0131nm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.\n\n2010 senesi May\u0131s ay\u0131n\u0131n \u0131l\u0131k bir per\u015fembe g\u00fcn\u00fc benim ya\u015fam\u0131m\u0131n d\u00f6n\u00fcm noktas\u0131 oldu.\n\nDoktorlar e\u015fimin durumunun a\u011f\u0131r oldu\u011funu, her \u015feye haz\u0131rl\u0131kl\u0131 olmam\u0131 s\u00f6ylediler.\n\nBu arada telefonunu bana verdiler.\n\nAk\u015fam\u00fcst\u00fc saat be\u015f sular\u0131nda e\u015fimin telefon \u00e7ald\u0131.\n\nArayan avukatt\u0131, e\u015fim bo\u015fanma vek\u00e2leti vermeye gelece\u011fini s\u00f6ylemi\u015f, gecikince avukat merak etmi\u015f o y\u00fczden aram\u0131\u015ft\u0131. E\u015fi oldu\u011fumu s\u00f6ylemedim. A\u011f\u0131r bir kaza ge\u00e7irdi\u011fini, hastanede oldu\u011funu s\u00f6yleyip telefonu kapatt\u0131m. Ama allak bullak olmu\u015ftum.\n\nE\u015fim benimle bo\u015fanmak amac\u0131yla vek\u00e2let vermeye gelir iken bu kazay\u0131 ge\u00e7irmi\u015fti.\n\nSadece \u201cTakdiri ilahi \u201d dedim.\n\nBir \u015fey d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnemiyordum. Bo\u015fanaca\u011f\u0131m\u0131zdan kimsenin haberi yoktu.\n\nO y\u00fczden e\u015fim iyile\u015finceye kadar bunu kimseye s\u00f6ylemeyecektim.\n\nE\u015fim yo\u011fun bak\u0131mdan \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131ktan sonra da \u00e7o\u011fu ameliyat ge\u00e7irdi, fakat tekerlekli sandalyeye mahk\u00fbm oldu. Omurili\u011fi zedelendi\u011fi, beyin kanamas\u0131 ge\u00e7irdi\u011fi amac\u0131yla fel\u00e7 olmu\u015ftu.\n\nHastaneden \u00e7\u0131k\u0131nca eve getirdim, ona bakmaya ba\u015flad\u0131m. Konu\u015fam\u0131yor ama hareketleriyle derin bir pi\u015fmanl\u0131k i\u00e7ersinde oldu\u011funu s\u00f6ylemeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yor, vakit vakit g\u00f6zlerinden pi\u015fmanl\u0131k ya\u015flar\u0131 d\u00f6k\u00fcyor.\n\nNe \u00e7ocuklar\u0131m, ne de yak\u0131nlar\u0131m e\u015fimin bo\u015fanma davas\u0131 a\u00e7mak amac\u0131yla gelir iken kaza ge\u00e7irdi\u011fini bilmiyor.\n\nE\u015fime Tanr\u0131 r\u0131zas\u0131 amac\u0131yla bak\u0131yorum.\n\n\u015eimdi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyorum da e\u015fimi affettim mi? Bilmiyorum, ama k\u0131rg\u0131nl\u0131\u011f\u0131m hi\u00e7 ge\u00e7medi\u2026\n\nE\u015fime her bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131mda ya\u015fam\u0131n nas\u0131l ibretlerle dolu oldu\u011funu g\u00f6r\u00fcyor, deva versin diye Tanr\u0131\u2019a yalvar\u0131yor dua ediyorum.\n\nBeni t\u00fcm\u00f6rlerden, k\u00f6t\u00fc hastal\u0131ktan kurtaran Rabbim; hastay\u0131m diye benden bo\u015fanmak isteyen e\u015fimi yata\u011fa mahk\u00fbm etti.\n\nAnlayana bundan b\u00fcy\u00fck ibret olur mu?..\u201d\n\nTanr\u0131 hasta kullar\u0131na deva, bakanlara da sab\u0131r ve ac\u0131ma versin.\n\nTanr\u0131 kimseyi di\u011fers\u0131n\u0131n umuduna b\u0131rakmas\u0131n\u2026 Amin \u2026\n\n\n\t\t\t\t<\/dd><\/dl>\n\t\t\t<br style='clear: both' \/>\n\t\t<\/div>\n\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":836,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[9],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-835","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-foto-galeri"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/835","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=835"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/835\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":838,"href":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/835\/revisions\/838"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/836"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=835"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=835"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=835"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}