{"id":797,"date":"2025-02-16T20:13:42","date_gmt":"2025-02-16T20:13:42","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/?p=797"},"modified":"2025-02-16T20:13:42","modified_gmt":"2025-02-16T20:13:42","slug":"hayatimda-yedi-yil-boyunca-yanimda-olan-esim","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/hayatimda-yedi-yil-boyunca-yanimda-olan-esim\/","title":{"rendered":"Hayat\u0131mda yedi y\u0131l boyunca yan\u0131mda olan e\u015fim"},"content":{"rendered":"\n\t\t<style type=\"text\/css\">\n\t\t\t#gallery-1 {\n\t\t\t\tmargin: auto;\n\t\t\t}\n\t\t\t#gallery-1 .gallery-item {\n\t\t\t\tfloat: left;\n\t\t\t\tmargin-top: 10px;\n\t\t\t\ttext-align: center;\n\t\t\t\twidth: 33%;\n\t\t\t}\n\t\t\t#gallery-1 img {\n\t\t\t\tborder: 2px solid #cfcfcf;\n\t\t\t}\n\t\t\t#gallery-1 .gallery-caption {\n\t\t\t\tmargin-left: 0;\n\t\t\t}\n\t\t\t\/* see gallery_shortcode() in wp-includes\/media.php *\/\n\t\t<\/style>\n\t\t<div id='gallery-1' class='gallery galleryid-797 gallery-columns-3 gallery-size-thumbnail'><dl class='gallery-item'>\n\t\t\t<dt class='gallery-icon landscape'>\n\t\t\t\t<a href='https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/hayatimda-yedi-yil-boyunca-yanimda-olan-esim\/hayatimda-yedi-yil-boyunca-yanimda-olan-esim\/'><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"150\" height=\"150\" src=\"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/02\/Hayatimda-yedi-yil-boyunca-yanimda-olan-esim-150x150.jpg\" class=\"attachment-thumbnail size-thumbnail\" alt=\"\" aria-describedby=\"gallery-1-798\" \/><\/a>\n\t\t\t<\/dt>\n\t\t\t\t<dd class='wp-caption-text gallery-caption' id='gallery-1-798'>\n\t\t\t\tHayat\u0131mda yedi sene vakitsince yan\u0131mda olan e\u015fim, bir g\u00fcn birdenbire kar\u015f\u0131ma ge\u00e7ti ve bo\u015fanmak istedi\u011fini s\u00f6yledi, o an, d\u00fcnyam alt \u00fcst oldu. \u00c7ocu\u011fumuz vard\u0131 ve hayat\u0131m\u0131zda hi\u00e7bir mesele yoktu. Ama o an, kalbimde \u00f6yle bir ac\u0131 hissettim ki. \u201cBa\u015fka biri var, a\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131m,\u201d dedi. \u0130\u00e7imdeki ac\u0131, bir anda b\u00fcy\u00fcy\u00fcp b\u00fct\u00fcn bedenimi sard\u0131. Gece g\u00fcnd\u00fcz d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmekten, uyuyamaz oldum. E\u015fim, bo\u015fanma i\u015flemleri amac\u0131yla beni ikna etmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yordu. En yak\u0131n dostum Zeynep, her \u015feyi biliyormu\u015f gibi dinledi ama yaln\u0131zca \u201cB\u0131rak gitsin,\u201d dedi. Bir \u015feyin hatal\u0131 gitti\u011fini hissediyordum. Kimdi bu bayan\u0131n pe\u015finden ko\u015ftu\u011fu? Benden ve \u00e7ocuklar\u0131m\u0131zdan vazge\u00e7ebilecek kadar nas\u0131l birine a\u015f\u0131k olabilirdi? Herhangi birisi degildi bu bayan hissediyordu.Ne olursa olsun bunu \u00f6\u011frenmeliydim. Kendime bir hafta vakit tan\u0131d\u0131m. E\u015fime, \u201cBir hafta daha bekle, sonra bo\u015fanma dilek\u00e7esini verelim,\u201d dedim. Kabul etti, ama i\u00e7imdeki karamsarl\u0131\u011f\u0131 saklamak zorundayd\u0131m. E\u015fimin d\u0131\u015far\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 s\u00f6yledi\u011fi ak\u015fam, i\u00e7imde bir k\u0131p\u0131rt\u0131 vard\u0131. \u0130\u00e7g\u00fcd\u00fclerim bana onun birisiyle bulu\u015faca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 f\u0131s\u0131ld\u0131yordu. Kalbim s\u00fcratle \u00e7arparken, taksi \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rd\u0131m ve onu takip etmeye karar verdim. E\u015fimin arabas\u0131na bindi\u011fini g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcmde, kan\u0131m\u0131n dondu\u011funu hissettim. E\u015fim, \u015fehrin en dinamik caddelerinden birine do\u011fru yola \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131. Her virajda, kalbimdeki kayg\u0131 daha da b\u00fcy\u00fcyordu. Bir apartman\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcnde durdu\u011funda i\u00e7imden bir ses, \u201cBurada durma!\u201d diye hayk\u0131r\u0131yordu. Hay\u0131r olamaz diye ba\u011f\u0131rd\u0131m, taksici sakin ol abla dedi, dur kardesim burada indir beni dedim taksiden indim. E\u015fimin girdi\u011fi evin \u00f6n\u00fcne gittim Zile bast\u0131m. Kap\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131nda, hayat\u0131m karard\u0131\n\n\n\t\t\t\t<\/dd><\/dl><dl class='gallery-item'>\n\t\t\t<dt class='gallery-icon landscape'>\n\t\t\t\t<a href='https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/hayatimda-yedi-yil-boyunca-yanimda-olan-esim\/cvd\/'><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"150\" height=\"150\" src=\"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/02\/cvd-150x150.jpg\" class=\"attachment-thumbnail size-thumbnail\" alt=\"\" aria-describedby=\"gallery-1-799\" srcset=\"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/02\/cvd-150x150.jpg 150w, https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/02\/cvd-300x300.jpg 300w, https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/02\/cvd-768x768.jpg 768w, https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/02\/cvd.jpg 1024w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 150px) 100vw, 150px\" \/><\/a>\n\t\t\t<\/dt>\n\t\t\t\t<dd class='wp-caption-text gallery-caption' id='gallery-1-799'>\n\t\t\t\tZeynep! En yak\u0131n arkada\u015f\u0131m, beni en savunmas\u0131z an\u0131mda arkamdan b\u0131\u00e7aklam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. E\u015fim ve Zeynep, birbirlerine sevgi dolu g\u00f6zlerle bak\u0131yorlard\u0131; sanki bu an, senelard\u0131r bekledikleri bir anm\u0131\u015f gibi g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcyordu. \u0130\u00e7imde bir \u015feylerin k\u0131r\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 hissettim. Zeynep\u2019in g\u00fcl\u00fcmsemesi, b\u00fct\u00fcn dostlu\u011fumuzun \u00fczerine bir g\u00f6lge gibi d\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc.\nKalbim s\u00fcratle \u00e7arp\u0131yor, soluk almakta zorlan\u0131yordum. O an ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m deh\u015feti tan\u0131m edemezdim. Kendimi taksinin arka koltu\u011funda buldum, g\u00f6zlerimden ya\u015flar s\u00fcz\u00fcl\u00fcyordu. \u201cNeden?\u201d diye hayk\u0131rmak istedim ama sesim bo\u011faz\u0131mda d\u00fc\u011f\u00fcmlenmi\u015fti. \u0130\u00e7imdeki \u00f6fke, k\u0131rg\u0131nl\u0131k ve \u00e7aresizlik, b\u00fct\u00fcn bedenimi sarm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.\nDaha \u00e7ok orada kalmak istemedim. \u201cBeni evime g\u00f6t\u00fcr,\u201d dedim taksiciye. Evin kap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7t\u0131\u011f\u0131mda, sanki d\u00fcnyam y\u0131k\u0131lm\u0131\u015f gibiydi. Bu ac\u0131y\u0131 kabul etmek zorundayd\u0131m; ama nas\u0131l? E\u015fimle Zeynep\u2019in y\u00fcz\u00fc, g\u00f6zlerimdeki karanl\u0131kta devaml\u0131 dans ediyordu. Bu ihanetin alt\u0131ndan kalkmal\u0131yd\u0131m; hem \u015fahs\u0131m hem de \u00e7ocuklar\u0131m amac\u0131yla\u2026\n\n\n\t\t\t\t<\/dd><\/dl>\n\t\t\t<br style='clear: both' \/>\n\t\t<\/div>\n\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":798,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[9],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-797","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-foto-galeri"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/797","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=797"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/797\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":800,"href":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/797\/revisions\/800"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/798"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=797"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=797"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=797"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}