{"id":7392,"date":"2026-06-02T08:25:45","date_gmt":"2026-06-02T08:25:45","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/?p=7392"},"modified":"2026-06-02T08:25:45","modified_gmt":"2026-06-02T08:25:45","slug":"kirik-kemikleriyle-hastane-yataginda-yatan-anne-oglunun-bizim-tatilimiz-daha-onemli-dedigini-duyunca-sessizce-her-ay-gonderdigi-500-bin-lirayi-kesti","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/kirik-kemikleriyle-hastane-yataginda-yatan-anne-oglunun-bizim-tatilimiz-daha-onemli-dedigini-duyunca-sessizce-her-ay-gonderdigi-500-bin-lirayi-kesti\/","title":{"rendered":"K\u0131r\u0131k kemikleriyle hastane yata\u011f\u0131nda yatan anne, o\u011flunun \u201cBizim tatilimiz daha \u00f6nemli,\u201d dedi\u011fini duyunca sessizce her ay g\u00f6nderdi\u011fi 500 bin liray\u0131 kesti\u2026"},"content":{"rendered":"\n\t\t<style>\n\t\t\t#gallery-1 {\n\t\t\t\tmargin: auto;\n\t\t\t}\n\t\t\t#gallery-1 .gallery-item {\n\t\t\t\tfloat: left;\n\t\t\t\tmargin-top: 10px;\n\t\t\t\ttext-align: center;\n\t\t\t\twidth: 33%;\n\t\t\t}\n\t\t\t#gallery-1 img {\n\t\t\t\tborder: 2px solid #cfcfcf;\n\t\t\t}\n\t\t\t#gallery-1 .gallery-caption {\n\t\t\t\tmargin-left: 0;\n\t\t\t}\n\t\t\t\/* see gallery_shortcode() in wp-includes\/media.php *\/\n\t\t<\/style>\n\t\t<div id='gallery-1' class='gallery galleryid-7392 gallery-columns-3 gallery-size-thumbnail'><dl class='gallery-item'>\n\t\t\t<dt class='gallery-icon landscape'>\n\t\t\t\t<a href='https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/kirik-kemikleriyle-hastane-yataginda-yatan-anne-oglunun-bizim-tatilimiz-daha-onemli-dedigini-duyunca-sessizce-her-ay-gonderdigi-500-bin-lirayi-kesti\/sa-5\/'><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"150\" height=\"150\" src=\"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/06\/sa-150x150.jpeg\" class=\"attachment-thumbnail size-thumbnail\" alt=\"\" aria-describedby=\"gallery-1-7393\" srcset=\"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/06\/sa-150x150.jpeg 150w, https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/06\/sa-300x300.jpeg 300w, https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/06\/sa.jpeg 768w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 150px) 100vw, 150px\" \/><\/a>\n\t\t\t<\/dt>\n\t\t\t\t<dd class='wp-caption-text gallery-caption' id='gallery-1-7393'>\n\t\t\t\tB\u00d6L\u00dcM 1\n\nKal\u00e7as\u0131 k\u0131r\u0131lm\u0131\u015f, omuzlar\u0131 morluk i\u00e7inde hastane yata\u011f\u0131nda yatan Sevim Y\u0131lmaz\u2019a o\u011flu g\u00f6zlerinin i\u00e7ine bakarak \u015f\u00f6yle dedi:\n\n\u201cAnne, seninle ilgilenemeyiz. Tatilimizi aylar \u00f6ncesinden planlad\u0131k.\u201d\n\n\u0130stanbul\u2019un Ni\u015fanta\u015f\u0131 semtindeki \u00f6zel hastane odas\u0131nda, cihazlar\u0131n hafif bip sesleri bile birka\u00e7 saniyeli\u011fine durmu\u015f gibiydi. D\u0131\u015far\u0131da ya\u011fmur damlalar\u0131 camdan s\u00fcz\u00fcl\u00fcyor, i\u00e7eride ise 68 ya\u015f\u0131ndaki Sevim yaln\u0131zca kendi nefesinin a\u011f\u0131rl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 hissediyordu. Mahalle marketinin \u00f6n\u00fcnde kay\u0131p d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f, le\u011fen kemi\u011fi \u00e7atlam\u0131\u015f, omzu ciddi \u015fekilde zedelenmi\u015fti. Doktorlar net konu\u015fmu\u015ftu: Haftalar boyunca yard\u0131ms\u0131z y\u00fcr\u00fcyemeyecekti.\n\nYata\u011f\u0131n yan\u0131nda o\u011flu Emre duruyordu. Sevim\u2019in, e\u015fini kaybettikten sonra tek ba\u015f\u0131na b\u00fcy\u00fctt\u00fc\u011f\u00fc o\u011flu\u2026 \u00dcniversite harc\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6deyebilmek i\u00e7in d\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn bileziklerini bozdurdu\u011fu \u00e7ocuk\u2026 K\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck tekstil d\u00fckk\u00e2n\u0131n\u0131 haftan\u0131n yedi g\u00fcn\u00fc a\u00e7\u0131k tutarak hayallerinden vazge\u00e7irmedi\u011fi evlad\u0131\u2026\n\nYan\u0131nda ise gelini Derya vard\u0131. \u015e\u0131k elbisesi, pahal\u0131 \u00e7antas\u0131 ve y\u00fcz\u00fcndeki huzursuz ifadeyle, sanki bu hastane odas\u0131 Antalya tatillerinin \u00f6n\u00fcne \u00e7\u0131kan can s\u0131k\u0131c\u0131 bir engeldi.\n\n\u201cDoktor evde yard\u0131ma ihtiyac\u0131m oldu\u011funu s\u00f6yledi,\u201d dedi Sevim k\u0131s\u0131k bir sesle. \u201cSadece birka\u00e7 hafta\u2026\u201d\n\nEmre derin bir nefes ald\u0131.\n\n\u201cAnne, bizi de anlamaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f. \u00c7ocuklar\u0131n tatili ba\u015flad\u0131. Otele verdi\u011fimiz para yanacak. U\u00e7ak biletleri de al\u0131nd\u0131.\u201d\n\nDerya hemen ekledi:\n\n\u201cHem a\u00e7\u0131k konu\u015fal\u0131m\u2026 Bu ya\u015fta b\u00f6yle kazalar olur. Bunun i\u00e7in b\u00fct\u00fcn hayat\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 durduramay\u0131z.\u201d\n\n\u201cBu ya\u015fta b\u00f6yle kazalar olur.\u201d\n\nBu s\u00f6z Sevim\u2019in i\u00e7ine buz gibi bir han\u00e7er gibi sapland\u0131. Sessizce onlara bakt\u0131. Belki \u015fimdi Emre pi\u015fman olur diye d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc\u2026 Belki elini tutar\u2026 Belki \u201cAnne korkma, bir \u00e7\u00f6z\u00fcm buluruz,\u201d der\u2026\n\nAma Emre telefondan otel rezervasyonlar\u0131na bak\u0131yor, Derya ise havaalan\u0131na gidecek arac\u0131n \u00fccretini hesapl\u0131yordu.\n\nSon iki y\u0131ld\u0131r Sevim her ay onlar\u0131n hesab\u0131na d\u00fczenli olarak 500 bin lira g\u00f6nderiyordu. Emre\u2019nin dekorasyon i\u015fleri durmu\u015ftu. Derya ise \u00e7ocuklarla ve evle ilgilenmek istedi\u011fini s\u00f6ylemi\u015fti. Sevim inanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc ona g\u00f6re aile, zor zamanda birbirine omuz verirdi. Torununun \u00f6zel okul masraflar\u0131n\u0131 kar\u015f\u0131lam\u0131\u015f, araba kredilerini \u00f6demi\u015f, ev bor\u00e7lar\u0131na yard\u0131m etmi\u015fti. Emre her seferinde ayn\u0131 \u015feyi s\u00f6yl\u00fcyordu:\n\n\u201cSadece biraz daha zaman anne.\u201d\n\nAma bug\u00fcn o\u011flunun y\u00fcz\u00fcnde anne sevgisi de\u011fil, y\u00fck hissi vard\u0131.\n\nSevim g\u00f6zlerini kapatt\u0131. Ne a\u011flad\u0131 ne de \u015fik\u00e2yet etti. \u0130\u00e7inde bir \u015fey sessizce k\u0131r\u0131ld\u0131 ve sustu.\n\n\u201cPeki,\u201d dedi yaln\u0131zca.\n\nEmre rahatlam\u0131\u015f gibi nefes verdi. Derya ise memnuniyetini gizlemeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131.\n\nSevim hem\u015fireden telefonunu istedi. \u00d6nce y\u0131llard\u0131r tan\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131 avukat\u0131 Kemal Bey\u2019i arad\u0131. Sonra hastanenin \u00f6nerdi\u011fi \u00f6zel bak\u0131m \u015firketiyle g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc. Eve 24 saat kalacak profesyonel hem\u015fire, medikal yatak, fizik tedavi hizmeti ve g\u00fcnl\u00fck yard\u0131mc\u0131 deste\u011fi ayarlad\u0131.\n\nEmre ile Derya, ya\u015fl\u0131 kad\u0131n\u0131n durumu kabullendi\u011fini sand\u0131lar.\n\nSonra Sevim mobil bankac\u0131l\u0131k uygulamas\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7t\u0131. Her ay\u0131n birinde otomatik g\u00f6nderilen 500 bin liral\u0131k transfer h\u00e2l\u00e2 aktifti.\n\nHi\u00e7 teredd\u00fct etmeden talimat\u0131 iptal etti.\n\nEmre ile Derya hi\u00e7bir \u015fey fark etmedi. \u00c7oktan Antalya u\u00e7u\u015funu, \u00e7ocuklar\u0131n valizlerini ve deniz kenar\u0131ndaki oteli konu\u015farak odadan \u00e7\u0131km\u0131\u015flard\u0131.\n\nO gece onlar havaalan\u0131na vard\u0131\u011f\u0131nda, Sevim yast\u0131\u011f\u0131na yaslanm\u0131\u015f sessizce uzan\u0131yordu. Yan\u0131nda oturan \u00f6zel hem\u015fire Ay\u015fe, \u015fefkatle battaniyesini d\u00fczeltti.\n\n\u00dc\u00e7 saat sonra telefon ekran\u0131 s\u00fcrekli yan\u0131p s\u00f6nmeye ba\u015flad\u0131.\n\nEmre.\n\nDerya.\n\nEmre.\n\nDerya.\n\nSabaha kadar ekranda 87 cevaps\u0131z \u00e7a\u011fr\u0131 vard\u0131.\n\n\u0130\u015fte o an Sevim \u015funu anlad\u0131:\n\nAs\u0131l felaket d\u00fc\u015fmekle de\u011fil, ger\u00e7e\u011fi g\u00f6rmekle ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131.\n\nB\u00d6L\u00dcM 2\n\n\u0130lk sesli mesaj Emre\u2019dendi. Sesindeki panik, Sevim yere d\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnde bile duyulmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131.\n\n\u201cAnne, bankadan \u00f6deme gelmedi. Herhalde bir hata oldu. Hemen beni ara.\u201d\n\n\u0130kinci mesajda sesi de\u011fi\u015fmi\u015fti.\n\n\u201cBunu bize haber vermeden nas\u0131l yapars\u0131n?\u201d\n\nAlt\u0131nc\u0131 mesajda ise Derya a\u011fl\u0131yordu.\n\n\u201cAnneci\u011fim, \u00e7ocuklar\u0131n okul taksitleri var, ev kredisi var\u2026 \u0130nsan b\u00f6yle b\u00fcy\u00fck bir karar\u0131 bir anda vermez.\u201d\n\nHem\u015fire Ay\u015fe, Sevim\u2019e bir bardak su uzatt\u0131 ve telefona bakarak hafif\u00e7e g\u00fcl\u00fcmsedi.\n\n\u201cGaliba \u015fimdi sa\u011fl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z\u0131 hat\u0131rlad\u0131lar.\u201d\n\nSevim dudaklar\u0131nda belli belirsiz bir tebess\u00fcm olu\u015fturdu ama kaburgalar\u0131ndaki a\u011fr\u0131 y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc buru\u015fturdu.\n\nErtesi sabah Emre hastanenin sabit hatt\u0131n\u0131 arad\u0131.\n\n\u201cAnne\u2026 Havale talimat\u0131n\u0131 sen mi iptal ettin?\u201d\n\n\u201cEvet,\u201d dedi Sevim sakin bir sesle.\n\n\u201cBizim tonla masraf\u0131m\u0131z var.\u201d\n\n\u201cBenim de k\u0131r\u0131k kemiklerim var.\u201d\n\nEmre birka\u00e7 saniye sustu, sonra al\u00e7ak sesle konu\u015ftu.\n\n\n\t\t\t\t<\/dd><\/dl><dl class='gallery-item'>\n\t\t\t<dt class='gallery-icon landscape'>\n\t\t\t\t<a href='https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/kirik-kemikleriyle-hastane-yataginda-yatan-anne-oglunun-bizim-tatilimiz-daha-onemli-dedigini-duyunca-sessizce-her-ay-gonderdigi-500-bin-lirayi-kesti\/sa-6\/'><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"150\" height=\"150\" src=\"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/06\/sa-1-150x150.jpeg\" class=\"attachment-thumbnail size-thumbnail\" alt=\"\" aria-describedby=\"gallery-1-7394\" srcset=\"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/06\/sa-1-150x150.jpeg 150w, https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/06\/sa-1-300x300.jpeg 300w, https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/06\/sa-1.jpeg 768w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 150px) 100vw, 150px\" \/><\/a>\n\t\t\t<\/dt>\n\t\t\t\t<dd class='wp-caption-text gallery-caption' id='gallery-1-7394'>\n\t\t\t\t\u201cKonu bu de\u011fil.\u201d\n\nSevim tavandaki beyaz \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011fa bakt\u0131.\n\n\u201cAs\u0131l konu tam da bu, o\u011flum.\u201d\n\nTelefonu Derya ald\u0131.\n\n\u201cBiz sadece \u015fu an ilgilenemeyece\u011fimizi s\u00f6yledik. Bu, bizi ortada b\u0131rakman\u0131z gerekti\u011fi anlam\u0131na gelmez.\u201d\n\n\u00d6\u011flene do\u011fru Avukat Kemal Bey hastaneye geldi. Elindeki dosyalar\u0131 Sevim\u2019in \u00f6n\u00fcne dikkatlice koydu.\n\n\u201cBug\u00fcne kadar verdi\u011finiz para bir destekti, yasal bir zorunluluk de\u011fil,\u201d dedi sakin bir sesle. \u201cBundan sonra sizden hi\u00e7bir hak talep edemezler.\u201d\n\nSonra \u00f6n\u00fcndeki ikinci zarf\u0131 yava\u015f\u00e7a a\u00e7t\u0131.\n\n\u201cBir de Emre\u2019nin oturdu\u011fu daire var\u2026\u201d dedi Kemal Bey. \u201cTapu h\u00e2l\u00e2 sizin \u00fczerinize kay\u0131tl\u0131.\u201d\n\nB\u00d6L\u00dcM 3\n\nKemal Bey bunlar\u0131 s\u00f6yledikten sonra Sevim o g\u00fcn ilk kez g\u00f6zlerini tamamen kapatt\u0131. Ac\u0131 h\u00e2l\u00e2 bedenindeydi ama i\u00e7indeki y\u00fck hafiflemi\u015fti. O daireyi asl\u0131nda Emre i\u00e7in de\u011fil, torunlar\u0131n\u0131n gelece\u011fi g\u00fcvende olsun diye sat\u0131n alm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Emre defalarca tapunun kendi \u00fczerine ge\u00e7irilmesini istemi\u015f, kredi i\u015flemlerinin daha kolay olaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 s\u00f6ylemi\u015fti. Derya da her zamanki tatl\u0131 g\u00fcl\u00fcmsemesiyle, \u201cAnneci\u011fim, sonu\u00e7ta her \u015fey aile i\u00e7inde,\u201d diyerek onu ikna etmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Ama Sevim her seferinde konuyu ge\u00e7i\u015ftirmi\u015fti. Belki de i\u00e7inde bir yerlerde, y\u0131llar\u0131n verdi\u011fi sessiz bir sezgi onu koruyordu.\n\nKemal Bey dosyalar\u0131 toparlay\u0131p sakin bir sesle konu\u015ftu:\n\n\u201cArt\u0131k karar sizin. \u0130ster onlar\u0131n orada kalmas\u0131na izin verirsiniz, ister \u015fart koyars\u0131n\u0131z. Ama \u015funu unutmay\u0131n\u2026 Bu hayat boyunca kazand\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z para da, m\u00fclkleriniz de, bak\u0131m\u0131n\u0131z da \u00f6nce sizin sorumlulu\u011funuz.\u201d\n\nSevim pencerenin d\u0131\u015f\u0131na bakt\u0131. Hastanenin otopark\u0131nda ya\u015fl\u0131 bir adam, tekerlekli sandalyedeki e\u015finin yan\u0131nda \u015femsiyeyi onun \u00fczerine tutuyordu. Ya\u011fmur adam\u0131n omuzlar\u0131n\u0131 \u0131slat\u0131yordu ama \u015femsiye e\u015fini koruyordu.\n\nSevim uzun zaman sonra rahmetli e\u015fi Mehmet\u2019i d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc. O ya\u015fasayd\u0131, Emre\u2019ye o gece hastane odas\u0131nda \u00f6yle s\u00f6zler s\u00f6yletti\u011fi i\u00e7in b\u00fcy\u00fck bir \u00f6fkeyle kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131na dikilirdi. Sonra da muhtemelen Sevim\u2019in elini tutup \u015f\u00f6yle derdi:\n\n\u201cArt\u0131k biraz da kendini koru Sevim.\u201d\n\nD\u00f6rt g\u00fcn sonra Sevim hastaneden taburcu edildi. Hem\u015fire Ay\u015fe onunla birlikte eve geldi. \u0130stanbul\u2019daki eski evinin alt kat\u0131ndaki oda hastane odas\u0131na d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcr\u00fclm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc. Medikal yatak kurulmu\u015f, k\u00f6\u015feye y\u00fcr\u00fcy\u00fc\u015f destek aparat\u0131 yerle\u015ftirilmi\u015fti. Duvarda Mehmet\u2019in foto\u011fraf\u0131 as\u0131l\u0131yd\u0131. Sevim y\u0131llard\u0131r her ak\u015fam \u00f6n\u00fcnde k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir mum yakard\u0131. \u015eimdi ayn\u0131 masada ila\u00e7 kutular\u0131, su \u015fi\u015feleri ve fizik tedavi \u00e7izelgeleri duruyordu.\n\nEv sessizdi.\n\nKimse y\u00fcksek sesle \u015fik\u00e2yet etmiyordu.\n\nKimse ila\u00e7lar\u0131n pahal\u0131 oldu\u011fundan s\u00f6z etmiyordu.\n\nKimse onu kald\u0131r\u0131p oturtman\u0131n zaman kayb\u0131 oldu\u011funu hissettirmiyordu.\n\nAy\u015fe ila\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 saatinde veriyor, sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 topluyor, hafif \u00e7orbalar haz\u0131rl\u0131yor ve her ak\u015fam verandaya \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131yordu. Oradan bah\u00e7edeki \u00e7\u0131nar a\u011fac\u0131na konan ku\u015flar\u0131 izliyorlard\u0131.\n\n\u0130lk iki g\u00fcn Emre durmadan arad\u0131.\n\nSevim telefonu a\u00e7mad\u0131.\n\n\u00dc\u00e7\u00fcnc\u00fc g\u00fcn k\u0131sa bir mesaj g\u00f6nderdi:\n\n\u201cEvlat, sen \u00f6nceli\u011finin ne oldu\u011funu g\u00f6stermi\u015ftin. \u015eimdi ben de kendi \u00f6nceli\u011fimi se\u00e7iyorum. Sa\u011fl\u0131\u011f\u0131m, onurum ve huzurum \u00f6nce geliyor.\u201d\n\nMesajdan sonra uzun s\u00fcre sessizlik oldu.\n\nSonra Emre yazd\u0131:\n\n\u201cAnne, sen \u00e7ok de\u011fi\u015ftin.\u201d\n\nSevim cevap vermedi.\n\n\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc ger\u00e7ekten de\u011fi\u015fmi\u015fti.\n\nBelki de y\u0131llar \u00f6nce olmas\u0131 gereken ki\u015fiye ancak \u015fimdi d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f\u00fcyordu.\n\nEmre ve Derya Antalya\u2019dan alt\u0131 g\u00fcn sonra d\u00f6nd\u00fcler. Ayn\u0131 ak\u015fam Sevim\u2019in evine geldiler. Arabalar\u0131 soka\u011fa sert\u00e7e yana\u015ft\u0131. Kap\u0131 zili uzun uzun \u00e7ald\u0131; h\u00e2l\u00e2 bu ev \u00fczerinde haklar\u0131 varm\u0131\u015f gibi davran\u0131yorlard\u0131.\n\nKap\u0131y\u0131 Ay\u015fe a\u00e7t\u0131.\n\nEmre\u2019nin elinde aceleyle al\u0131nm\u0131\u015f belli olan bir \u00e7i\u00e7ek buketi vard\u0131. Derya\u2019n\u0131n y\u00fcz\u00fc \u015fi\u015fmi\u015f gibi g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcyordu ama \u00e7ocuklar\u0131 yanlar\u0131nda getirmemi\u015flerdi.\n\nSevim verandada oturuyordu. Dizlerinin \u00fczerinde ince bir battaniye, yan\u0131nda y\u00fcr\u00fcy\u00fc\u015f aparat\u0131 vard\u0131. Y\u00fcz\u00fcnde hastal\u0131\u011f\u0131n yorgunlu\u011fu duruyordu ama g\u00f6zleri art\u0131k \u00e7ok daha net bak\u0131yordu.\n\nEmre \u00f6ne \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131.\n\n\u201cAnne\u2026\u201d\n\nSevim elini kald\u0131r\u0131p onu durdurdu.\n\n\u201cSandalyeyi \u00e7ek ve otur.\u201d\n\nEmre \u015fa\u015fk\u0131nca yerine ge\u00e7ti. Derya ise Ay\u015fe\u2019ye rahats\u0131z olmu\u015f gibi bakt\u0131; evde yabanc\u0131 bir kad\u0131n\u0131n bulunmas\u0131 onu huzursuz ediyordu.\n\n\u201cBiz \u00e7ok endi\u015felendik,\u201d diye ba\u015flad\u0131 Emre. \u201cTelefonlar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 a\u00e7mad\u0131n.\u201d\n\n\u201cBen hastane yata\u011f\u0131nda yatarken siz benim endi\u015femi ta\u015f\u0131mad\u0131n\u0131z,\u201d dedi Sevim sakin bir sesle. \u201cBenim neden acelem olsun?\u201d\n\nDerya derin bir nefes ald\u0131.\n\n\u201cAnneci\u011fim, konuyu bu kadar b\u00fcy\u00fctmeyin. Hepimiz \u00e7ok stresliydik. \u00c7ocuklar, tatil plan\u0131, her \u015fey \u00fcst \u00fcste geldi. Her ailede bazen yanl\u0131\u015f s\u00f6zler s\u00f6ylenebilir.\u201d\n\nSevim g\u00f6zlerini ona \u00e7evirdi.\n\n\u201cYanl\u0131\u015f s\u00f6zler, i\u00e7inde do\u011fru duygu olup dil s\u00fcr\u00e7t\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnde s\u00f6ylenir. Sizin s\u00f6yledikleriniz do\u011frudan kalbinizden geldi.\u201d\n\nEmre hemen araya girdi:\n\n\u201cBiz seni yaln\u0131z b\u0131rakmad\u0131k anne. Sadece o anda zor durumda oldu\u011fumuzu s\u00f6yledik.\u201d\n\n\u201cBenim i\u00e7in ayakta durmak zordu,\u201d dedi Sevim. \u201cSizin i\u00e7inse birka\u00e7 g\u00fcn durup beklemek.\u201d\n\nOdan\u0131n i\u00e7ine a\u011f\u0131r bir sessizlik \u00e7\u00f6kt\u00fc. Duvar saatinin tik taklar\u0131 bile duyuluyordu.\n\nEmre sesini yumu\u015fatt\u0131.\n\n\u201cTamam, hata yapt\u0131k. Ama \u015fimdi s\u00f6yle\u2026 \u00d6demeler ne zaman tekrar ba\u015flayacak? Bu ay durumumuz \u00e7ok k\u00f6t\u00fc. Banka s\u00fcrekli ar\u0131yor. \u00c7ocuklar\u0131n servis \u00fccreti bile duruyor.\u201d\n\nSevim ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 hafif\u00e7e e\u011fdi. \u0130\u00e7inde h\u00e2l\u00e2 bir ac\u0131 vard\u0131 ama art\u0131k onu bo\u011fmuyordu. Yaln\u0131zca ger\u00e7e\u011fi daha net g\u00f6rmesini sa\u011fl\u0131yordu.\n\n\u201c\u00d6demeler tekrar ba\u015flamayacak,\u201d dedi net bir sesle.\n\nDerya\u2019n\u0131n y\u00fcz\u00fc an\u0131nda de\u011fi\u015fti.\n\n\u201cYani bizi kaderimize mi b\u0131rakacaks\u0131n\u0131z?\u201d\n\n\u201cHay\u0131r,\u201d dedi Sevim. \u201cSizi kendi ayaklar\u0131n\u0131z\u0131n \u00fczerinde durmaya b\u0131rak\u0131yorum.\u201d\n\nEmre sinirle koltu\u011fun kenar\u0131n\u0131 s\u0131kt\u0131.\n\n\u201cAnne, biraz ger\u00e7ek\u00e7i ol. Bizim hayat\u0131m\u0131z senin d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn gibi i\u015flemiyor. Krediler, araba masraf\u0131, okul \u00fccretleri, site aidat\u0131, ev personeli\u2026 Bunlar\u0131n hepsi bir anda nas\u0131l duracak?\u201d\n\n\u201cBenim hayat\u0131m da bir anda hastane yata\u011f\u0131nda durdu,\u201d dedi Sevim. \u201cAma siz bunun i\u00e7in tatilinizi bile ertelemediniz.\u201d\n\nArt\u0131k Derya\u2019n\u0131n g\u00f6zlerinde ya\u015f de\u011fil, \u00f6fke vard\u0131.\n\n\u201c\u0130nsan i\u00e7ine nas\u0131l \u00e7\u0131kaca\u011f\u0131z fark\u0131nda m\u0131s\u0131n\u0131z? Arabay\u0131 satmak zorunda kal\u0131rsak, daha k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck eve ta\u015f\u0131n\u0131rsak herkes ne der?\u201d\n\nSevim sakin\u00e7e sordu:\n\n\u201cKay\u0131nvalideniz hastane yata\u011f\u0131nda yaln\u0131z yatarken siz deniz tatiline gitti\u011finizde insanlar ne derdi sizce?\u201d\n\nDerya g\u00f6zlerini ka\u00e7\u0131rd\u0131.\n\nEmre\u2019nin sabr\u0131 ta\u015fmaya ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131.\n\n\u201cBizi cezaland\u0131r\u0131yorsun.\u201d\n\n\u201cHay\u0131r,\u201d dedi Sevim. \u201cSizi, paran\u0131n a\u011fa\u00e7ta yeti\u015fmedi\u011fi ve annenin banka kart\u0131 olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir hayatla tan\u0131\u015ft\u0131r\u0131yorum.\u201d\n\nEmre aya\u011fa kalkt\u0131.\n\n\u201cYani \u015fimdi ne olacak? \u00c7ocuklarla sokakta m\u0131 kalaca\u011f\u0131z?\u201d\n\nSevim\u2019in sesi ilk kez sertle\u015fti.\n\n\u201c\u00c7ocuklar\u0131 bu i\u015fe kar\u0131\u015ft\u0131rma. Okul \u00fccretlerini ben \u00f6dedim. Kitaplar\u0131n\u0131 ben ald\u0131m. Do\u011fum g\u00fcnlerinde tuttu\u011funuz l\u00fcks otelin hesab\u0131n\u0131 bile ben kapatt\u0131m. Torunlar\u0131m\u0131 seviyorum ama sizin sorumsuzlu\u011funuzu finanse etmek sevgi de\u011fil.\u201d\n\nDerya alayc\u0131 bir sesle konu\u015ftu:\n\n\u201cG\u00fczel konu\u015fuyorsunuz. Peki ya ev? Orada ya\u015famaya devam edece\u011fiz de\u011fil mi?\u201d\n\nSevim yan\u0131ndaki dosyay\u0131 a\u00e7t\u0131.\n\nAyn\u0131 zarf.\n\nAyn\u0131 belgeler.\n\n\u201cDairenin tapusu benim \u00fczerime kay\u0131tl\u0131,\u201d dedi. \u201c\u00dc\u00e7 ay boyunca orada kalabilirsiniz. Bu s\u00fcrede i\u015finizi, masraflar\u0131n\u0131z\u0131 ve hayat\u0131n\u0131z\u0131 yeniden d\u00fczenleyin. Sonras\u0131nda ya kira \u00f6dersiniz ya da daha k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir eve ge\u00e7ersiniz. \u00c7ocuklar\u0131n okul \u00fccretlerini ise do\u011frudan okula yat\u0131raca\u011f\u0131m. Art\u0131k sizin hesab\u0131n\u0131za para g\u00f6ndermeyece\u011fim.\u201d\n\nEmre donup kald\u0131.\n\n\u201cKendi o\u011flundan kira m\u0131 alacaks\u0131n?\u201d\n\n\u201cHay\u0131r,\u201d dedi Sevim. \u201cKendi o\u011fluma d\u00fcr\u00fcst ya\u015famay\u0131 \u00f6\u011fretece\u011fim. Belki ge\u00e7 kald\u0131m ama h\u00e2l\u00e2 vakit var.\u201d\n\nEmre uzun s\u00fcre annesine bakt\u0131. G\u00f6zlerinde k\u0131rg\u0131nl\u0131k vard\u0131 ama bu k\u0131rg\u0131nl\u0131k annesine de\u011fil, kaybetti\u011fi rahatl\u0131\u011fa y\u00f6nelikti. Sevim o an son yan\u0131lg\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n da yok oldu\u011funu hissetti.\n\nEmre son kozunu oynad\u0131:\n\n\u201cBabam ya\u015fasayd\u0131 bunu yapmazd\u0131.\u201d\n\nSevim\u2019in g\u00f6zlerinde ilk kez sert bir \u0131\u015f\u0131k parlad\u0131.\n\n\u201cBaban ya\u015fasayd\u0131,\u201d dedi, \u201co gece hastanede \u2018tatil anneden \u00f6nce gelir\u2019 dedi\u011fin anda seni kap\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcne koyard\u0131.\u201d\n\nEmre cevap veremedi.\n\nDerya aya\u011fa kalkt\u0131.\n\n\u201cHadi Emre. Belli ki bizi a\u015fa\u011f\u0131lamak i\u00e7in \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rm\u0131\u015f.\u201d\n\n\u201cHay\u0131r,\u201d dedi Sevim sakinlikle. \u201cBug\u00fcn sizi ilk kez ger\u00e7ekle y\u00fczle\u015ftirmek i\u00e7in \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rd\u0131m.\u201d\n\nAya\u011fa kalkmadan, elini \u00f6pmeden \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131lar. D\u0131\u015far\u0131da araba kap\u0131s\u0131 sert\u00e7e kapand\u0131. Motor sesi sokakta yank\u0131land\u0131 ve ard\u0131ndan sessizlik kald\u0131.\n\nSevim uzun s\u00fcre bo\u015f kap\u0131ya bakt\u0131.\n\nAy\u015fe yan\u0131na sessizce \u00e7ay b\u0131rakt\u0131.\n\n\u201c\u0130yi misiniz?\u201d diye sordu.\n\nSevim fincan\u0131 eline ald\u0131. Eli hafif titriyordu ama sesi sakindi.\n\n\u201cUzun y\u0131llardan sonra ilk kez iyiyim.\u201d\n\nSonraki aylar kolay ge\u00e7medi.\n\nBedenindeki a\u011fr\u0131lar yava\u015f yava\u015f azald\u0131 ama k\u0131r\u0131lan ili\u015fkinin s\u0131z\u0131s\u0131 geceleri bazen yeniden ortaya \u00e7\u0131k\u0131yordu. Fizik tedavi s\u0131ras\u0131nda y\u00fcr\u00fcy\u00fc\u015f aparat\u0131na tutunarak att\u0131\u011f\u0131 her ad\u0131mda, Emre\u2019nin \u00e7ocukken onun parma\u011f\u0131na sar\u0131larak y\u00fcr\u00fcmeyi \u00f6\u011frendi\u011fi g\u00fcnleri hat\u0131rl\u0131yordu.\n\nFark \u015fuydu:\n\nO hi\u00e7bir zaman \u00e7ocu\u011funu rahatl\u0131\u011f\u0131 i\u00e7in yaln\u0131z b\u0131rakmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131.\n\n\u00d6nce Emre \u00f6fkeyle konu\u015fmay\u0131 kesti.\n\nSonra bankadan uyar\u0131lar gelmeye ba\u015flad\u0131.\n\nAraba taksitleri birikti.\n\nDerya baz\u0131 tak\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131 satt\u0131, ard\u0131ndan k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir butik ma\u011fazada yar\u0131 zamanl\u0131 \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmaya ba\u015flad\u0131. Emre eski ba\u011flant\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131 arad\u0131, k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck i\u015fler ald\u0131, gece ge\u00e7 saatlere kadar \u015fantiyelerde \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131.\n\nBirka\u00e7 ay i\u00e7inde l\u00fcks SUV sat\u0131ld\u0131.\n\nKul\u00fcp \u00fcyelikleri iptal edildi.\n\nPahal\u0131 restoran foto\u011fraflar\u0131 sosyal medyadan kayboldu.\n\nSevim bunlar\u0131n \u00e7o\u011funu kom\u015fusu Fatma Han\u0131m\u2019dan ve torunu Elif\u2019in masum c\u00fcmlelerinden \u00f6\u011freniyordu.\n\nElif her pazar babaannesine gelmeye ba\u015flad\u0131. Yan\u0131nda \u00f6devlerini yap\u0131yor, sa\u00e7lar\u0131na bak\u0131m yap\u0131yor ve g\u00fclerek \u015f\u00f6yle diyordu:\n\n\u201cBabaanne, babam art\u0131k kendi \u00e7ay\u0131n\u0131 kendi yap\u0131yor. Eskiden hi\u00e7bir \u015fey yapmazd\u0131.\u201d\n\nSevim g\u00fcl\u00fcmseyerek cevap veriyordu:\n\n\u201c\u0130yi olmu\u015f. Bir insan hem \u00e7ay yapmay\u0131 hem sorumluluk almay\u0131 \u00f6\u011frenmeli.\u201d\n\nZamanla Emre de gelmeye ba\u015flad\u0131.\n\n\u00d6nce \u00e7ekinerek.\n\nSonra sessizce.\n\nBir g\u00fcn verandada uzun s\u00fcre hi\u00e7bir \u015fey s\u00f6ylemeden oturdu. Sevim de onu s\u0131k\u0131\u015ft\u0131rmad\u0131.\n\nEn sonunda Emre ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 e\u011fip konu\u015ftu:\n\n\u201cAnne\u2026 O gece \u00e7ok yanl\u0131\u015f konu\u015ftum.\u201d\n\nSevim ona bakt\u0131. \u0130lk kez s\u00f6zlerinde ihtiya\u00e7 de\u011fil, pi\u015fmanl\u0131k vard\u0131.\n\n\u201cEvet,\u201d dedi yava\u015f\u00e7a. \u201c\u00c7ok yanl\u0131\u015f.\u201d\n\nEmre\u2019nin g\u00f6zleri doldu.\n\n\u201cKorkmu\u015ftum. Bor\u00e7lar\u0131n i\u00e7inde s\u0131k\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. Ama bu yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 hakl\u0131 \u00e7\u0131karmaz. Sen yaral\u0131yd\u0131n ve ben sadece kendi rahat\u0131m\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyordum.\u201d\n\nSevim\u2019in kalbi h\u00e2l\u00e2 bir anneninki gibiydi. K\u0131r\u0131l\u0131yor ama art\u0131k hemen erimiyordu.\n\n\u201c\u00d6z\u00fcr,\u201d dedi, \u201cs\u00f6zle de\u011fil, de\u011fi\u015fen davran\u0131\u015flarla kan\u0131tlan\u0131r.\u201d\n\nEmre ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 sallad\u0131.\n\n\u201cDeniyorum.\u201d\n\n\u201cDenemeye devam et,\u201d dedi Sevim. \u201cKap\u0131m kapanmad\u0131 ama banka hesab\u0131m art\u0131k herkese a\u00e7\u0131k olmayacak.\u201d\n\nO g\u00fcn birlikte \u00e7ay i\u00e7tiler.\n\nB\u00fcy\u00fck sar\u0131lmalar olmad\u0131.\n\nFilm sahnesi gibi g\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131 da yoktu.\n\nSadece k\u0131r\u0131lm\u0131\u015f bir ili\u015fkinin yan\u0131nda oturup ilk kez ger\u00e7e\u011fe yer a\u00e7t\u0131lar.\n\nBir y\u0131l sonra Sevim y\u00fcr\u00fcy\u00fc\u015f aparat\u0131 olmadan yava\u015f yava\u015f y\u00fcr\u00fcmeye ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Tekstil d\u00fckk\u00e2n\u0131n\u0131 tamamen a\u00e7mad\u0131 ama mahalledeki \u00fc\u00e7 dul kad\u0131nla birlikte evden k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir i\u015f kurdu. Pamuklu e\u015farp ve \u015fallar sat\u0131yorlard\u0131.\n\nArt\u0131k para su\u00e7luluk duygusuyla de\u011fil, ihtiya\u00e7la harcan\u0131yordu.\n\nEmre ve Derya daha k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir eve ta\u015f\u0131nd\u0131lar.\n\nDerya \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmaya devam etti.\n\nEmre bor\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fczenli \u00f6demeyi \u00f6\u011frendi.\n\nH\u00e2l\u00e2 aileydiler ama art\u0131k aralar\u0131nda g\u00f6r\u00fcnmez bir kural vard\u0131:\n\nSevgi, birini t\u00fcketip di\u011ferine konfor sa\u011flamak de\u011fildir.\n\nSevim her ay Elif ve k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck Can\u2019\u0131n okul \u00fccretlerini do\u011frudan okula yat\u0131r\u0131yordu. \u00c7ocuklar\u0131n omuzlar\u0131na yeti\u015fkinlerin k\u0131rg\u0131nl\u0131\u011f\u0131 y\u00fcklenmedi. Ama onlara bir \u015fey mutlaka \u00f6\u011fretildi:\n\nYa\u015fl\u0131lara bakmak bir iyilik de\u011fil, karakter meselesidir.\n\nBir ak\u015fam, Ramazan Bayram\u0131 s\u0131ras\u0131nda Emre \u00e7ocuklarla birlikte Sevim\u2019in evine geldi. Bu kez elinde pahal\u0131 bir buket yoktu. Evde yap\u0131lm\u0131\u015f s\u00fctla\u00e7 getirmi\u015fti.\n\nDerya sessizce Sevim\u2019in elini \u00f6pt\u00fc.\n\nSevim dua etti ama g\u00f6zleri h\u00e2l\u00e2 dikkatle onlar\u0131 okuyordu. Derya\u2019n\u0131n bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131nda eskisi kadar hesap yoktu. Belki yorgunluk vard\u0131. Belki \u00f6\u011frenilmi\u015f bir ders.\n\nO gece k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck Elif babaannesine sordu:\n\n\u201cBabaanne, hastanede yaln\u0131z kald\u0131\u011f\u0131nda \u00e7ok korkmu\u015f muydun?\u201d\n\nSevim mumun alevine bakt\u0131.\n\n\u201cKorktum k\u0131z\u0131m,\u201d dedi yava\u015f\u00e7a. \u201cAma bazen yaln\u0131zl\u0131k insan\u0131 korkutmak i\u00e7in de\u011fil, uyand\u0131rmak i\u00e7in gelir.\u201d\n\nEmre bunu duydu\u011funda ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6ne e\u011fdi.\n\nSevim ona bakt\u0131, sonra g\u00f6zlerini Mehmet\u2019in foto\u011fraf\u0131na \u00e7evirdi. \u00d6n\u00fcndeki mum sessizce yan\u0131yordu.\n\nK\u0131r\u0131lan bedeni ona yeniden y\u00fcr\u00fcmeyi \u00f6\u011fretmi\u015fti.\n\nK\u0131r\u0131lan hayalleri ise ya\u015famay\u0131.\n\nO gece telefonundaki eski kay\u0131tlar\u0131 sildi.\n\n87 cevaps\u0131z \u00e7a\u011fr\u0131y\u0131 da\u2026\n\nAma o \u00e7a\u011fr\u0131lar\u0131n \u00f6\u011fretti\u011fi ger\u00e7e\u011fi asla silmedi.\n\n\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc baz\u0131 aramalar h\u00e2linizi sormak i\u00e7in gelmez.\n\nBaz\u0131lar\u0131 sadece \u015funu g\u00f6sterir:\n\n\u0130nsanlar sizi ger\u00e7ekten ne zaman hat\u0131rlar?\n\nAc\u0131 \u00e7ekti\u011finizde mi\u2026\n\nYoksa para ak\u0131\u015f\u0131 durdu\u011funda m\u0131?\n\n\n\t\t\t\t<\/dd><\/dl>\n\t\t\t<br style='clear: both' \/>\n\t\t<\/div>\n\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":7393,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[9],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-7392","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-foto-galeri"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/7392","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=7392"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/7392\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":7395,"href":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/7392\/revisions\/7395"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/7393"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=7392"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=7392"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=7392"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}