{"id":7289,"date":"2026-05-26T20:50:03","date_gmt":"2026-05-26T20:50:03","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/?p=7289"},"modified":"2026-05-26T20:50:03","modified_gmt":"2026-05-26T20:50:03","slug":"uvey-anne-eski-askeri-torende-kizini-alayci-sozlerle-en-arka-siraya-oturtmustu","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/uvey-anne-eski-askeri-torende-kizini-alayci-sozlerle-en-arka-siraya-oturtmustu\/","title":{"rendered":"\u00dcvey anne, eski asker\u00ee t\u00f6rende k\u0131z\u0131n\u0131 alayc\u0131 s\u00f6zlerle en arka s\u0131raya oturtmu\u015ftu"},"content":{"rendered":"\n\t\t<style>\n\t\t\t#gallery-1 {\n\t\t\t\tmargin: auto;\n\t\t\t}\n\t\t\t#gallery-1 .gallery-item {\n\t\t\t\tfloat: left;\n\t\t\t\tmargin-top: 10px;\n\t\t\t\ttext-align: center;\n\t\t\t\twidth: 33%;\n\t\t\t}\n\t\t\t#gallery-1 img {\n\t\t\t\tborder: 2px solid #cfcfcf;\n\t\t\t}\n\t\t\t#gallery-1 .gallery-caption {\n\t\t\t\tmargin-left: 0;\n\t\t\t}\n\t\t\t\/* see gallery_shortcode() in wp-includes\/media.php *\/\n\t\t<\/style>\n\t\t<div id='gallery-1' class='gallery galleryid-7289 gallery-columns-3 gallery-size-thumbnail'><dl class='gallery-item'>\n\t\t\t<dt class='gallery-icon landscape'>\n\t\t\t\t<a href='https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/uvey-anne-eski-askeri-torende-kizini-alayci-sozlerle-en-arka-siraya-oturtmustu\/ty-7\/'><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"150\" height=\"150\" src=\"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/05\/ty-3-150x150.jpg\" class=\"attachment-thumbnail size-thumbnail\" alt=\"\" aria-describedby=\"gallery-1-7290\" srcset=\"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/05\/ty-3-150x150.jpg 150w, https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/05\/ty-3-300x300.jpg 300w, https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/05\/ty-3-768x768.jpg 768w, https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/05\/ty-3.jpg 1024w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 150px) 100vw, 150px\" \/><\/a>\n\t\t\t<\/dt>\n\t\t\t\t<dd class='wp-caption-text gallery-caption' id='gallery-1-7290'>\n\t\t\t\tBabas\u0131n\u0131n anma ve onur t\u00f6reninde Elif Aksoy\u2019u en arka s\u0131raya oturtmadan \u00f6nce \u00fcvey annesi S\u00fcheyla Aksoy, mahalledeki herkesin duyabilece\u011fi bir ses tonuyla g\u00fcl\u00fcmseyerek \u015f\u00f6yle demi\u015fti:\n\n\u201cZavall\u0131 k\u0131z\u2026 Hatta Deniz Kuvvetleri\u2019nden bile ayr\u0131lm\u0131\u015f\u2026 \u015fimdi en iyisi sessizce bir k\u00f6\u015fede oturmas\u0131.\u201d\n\nAnkara\u2019daki eski asker\u00ee lojmanlar\u0131n bulundu\u011fu semtin giri\u015finde ak\u015fam g\u00fcne\u015fi sar\u0131ya \u00e7al\u0131yordu. Kap\u0131da karanfillerden \u00e7elenkler as\u0131l\u0131yd\u0131, i\u00e7eride sandalyeler d\u00fczenli \u015fekilde dizilmi\u015fti ve sahnede Elif\u2019in babas\u0131, emekli K\u0131demli Subay R\u0131za Aksoy\u2019un foto\u011fraf\u0131 T\u00fcrk bayra\u011f\u0131 ve eski birli\u011finin armas\u0131yla birlikte duruyordu.\n\nElif yedi y\u0131l sonra o \u015fehre d\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc. Her sokak onu tan\u0131yor gibiydi ama asl\u0131nda kimse onu ger\u00e7ekten bilmiyordu. \u0130stanbul\u2019dan do\u011frudan gelmi\u015fti. Beyaz sade bir tunik, koyu lacivert bir e\u015farp ve toplu sa\u00e7lar\u0131yla kalabal\u0131\u011fa kar\u0131\u015fmak istiyordu. Tek amac\u0131 babas\u0131n\u0131 onurland\u0131rmak, sessizce bir k\u00f6\u015fede oturmak, alk\u0131\u015flamak ve hi\u00e7bir olay \u00e7\u0131kmadan geri d\u00f6nmekti.\n\nAma S\u00fcheyla Aksoy\u2019un sevdi\u011fi \u015fey \u201csessizlik\u201d de\u011fil, o sessizli\u011fin i\u00e7indeki k\u0131r\u0131lmayd\u0131\u2014\u00f6zellikle de Elif\u2019i k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr\u00fcyorsa.\n\nEve gelir gelmez Elif, verandadan S\u00fcheyla\u2019n\u0131n sesini duymu\u015ftu.\n\n\u2014 Han\u0131mefendi, ne diyeyim\u2026 k\u0131z Deniz Kuvvetleri\u2019ni b\u0131rakm\u0131\u015f. O kadar b\u00fcy\u00fck konu\u015fuyordu; vatan, disiplin, \u00fcniforma\u2026 ama sorumluluk ta\u015f\u0131yamad\u0131.\n\nTelefondaki ki\u015fi bir \u015fey s\u00f6ylemi\u015f olmal\u0131yd\u0131 ki S\u00fcheyla\u2019n\u0131n kahkahas\u0131 daha da y\u00fckseldi.\n\n\u2014 R\u0131za Bey de insanlar\u0131n a\u011fz\u0131 bozulmas\u0131n diye \u201c\u0130stanbul\u2019da masa ba\u015f\u0131 bir i\u015fte\u201d diyor art\u0131k. Her \u015fey s\u00f6ylenmez tabii.\n\nElif kap\u0131y\u0131 \u00e7almad\u0131. Sessizce i\u00e7eri girdi. S\u00fcheyla onu g\u00f6r\u00fcnce y\u00fcz\u00fcne yine o tatl\u0131 ama zehirli g\u00fcl\u00fcmsemeyi tak\u0131nd\u0131.\n\n\u2014 Geldin mi? Demek baban\u0131n varl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 hat\u0131rlad\u0131n.\n\n\u2014 Merhaba S\u00fcheyla teyze.\n\n\u2014 Teyze de\u011fil, anne diyebilirsin asl\u0131nda\u2026 ama neyse, baz\u0131 \u015feyler de\u011fi\u015fmiyor.\n\nMutfaktan tereya\u011f\u0131 ve yemek kokular\u0131 geliyordu. Salonda davetiyeler, \u00e7i\u00e7ekler ve liste k\u00e2\u011f\u0131tlar\u0131 da\u011f\u0131lm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. R\u0131za Aksoy g\u00f6zl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc takm\u0131\u015f, isimleri kontrol ediyordu. Y\u00fcz\u00fc ya\u015flanmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131 ama yorgundu.\n\n\u2014 Baba, merhaba.\n\nR\u0131za ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 kald\u0131rd\u0131. G\u00f6zlerinde bir anl\u0131k bir s\u0131cakl\u0131k belirdi, ard\u0131ndan S\u00fcheyla\u2019n\u0131n varl\u0131\u011f\u0131 o \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131 bast\u0131rd\u0131.\n\n\u2014 Geldin\u2026 iyi yapt\u0131n.\n\nSadece bu kadar.\n\nElif babas\u0131n\u0131n elini \u00f6pt\u00fc. Babas\u0131n\u0131n eli ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 k\u0131sa bir an ok\u015fad\u0131 ama bir baba \u015fefkatiyle de\u011fil; g\u00f6rev gibi, aceleyle.\n\nS\u00fcheyla hemen araya girdi:\n\n\u2014 R\u0131za Bey, \u015fimdiden s\u00f6yleyeyim, bu ak\u015fam hi\u00e7bir sorun \u00e7\u0131kmayacak. Komutanlar, b\u00fcrokratlar gelecek. O arkalarda otursun, dikkat \u00e7ekmesin.\n\nElif sakin bir sesle konu\u015ftu:\n\n\u2014 Ben babam i\u00e7in geldim. Ba\u015fka bir \u015fey i\u00e7in de\u011fil.\n\n\u2014 Sen zaten girdi\u011fin her yerde dikkat \u00e7ekiyorsun.\n\nR\u0131za yava\u015f\u00e7a:\n\n\u2014 S\u00fcheyla, yeter.\n\n\u2014 Hay\u0131r, yeter de\u011fil. Bu evin bir itibar\u0131 var. Deniz Kuvvetleri\u2019ni b\u0131rak\u0131p gelen biri h\u00e2l\u00e2 \u00fcniforma hik\u00e2yesi anlat\u0131rsa insanlar ne der?\n\nElif babas\u0131na bakt\u0131. \u0130\u00e7inden tek bir c\u00fcmle ge\u00e7ti: \u201cBir kere olsun sor\u2026 ne oldu diye.\u201d\n\nAma R\u0131za g\u00f6zlerini ka\u00e7\u0131rd\u0131.\n\nO eski sessizlik.\n\nElif on \u00fc\u00e7 ya\u015f\u0131ndayken annesini kaybetmi\u015fti. S\u00fcheyla o eve girdikten sonra \u00f6nce \u015fefkat g\u00f6stermi\u015f, sonra yava\u015f yava\u015f baba ile k\u0131z aras\u0131na g\u00f6r\u00fcnmez duvarlar \u00f6rm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc. \u201cZor\u201d, \u201cinat\u00e7\u0131\u201d, \u201csayg\u0131s\u0131z\u201d, \u201cba\u015far\u0131s\u0131z olacak\u201d c\u00fcmleleri tekrar edildik\u00e7e R\u0131za bile bir s\u00fcre sonra inanmaya ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131.\n\nElif tart\u0131\u015fmad\u0131. Sadece haz\u0131rl\u0131klara yard\u0131m etti. Misafirlere su haz\u0131rlad\u0131, d\u00fczen kurdu. S\u00fcheyla her f\u0131rsatta onun \u201cba\u015far\u0131s\u0131z evlat\u201d oldu\u011funu hat\u0131rlat\u0131yordu.\n\nAk\u015fam, anma t\u00f6reni i\u00e7in asker\u00ee dernek salonuna geldiklerinde S\u00fcheyla f\u0131s\u0131ldad\u0131:\n\n\u2014 Unutma, bu gece baban\u0131n gecesi. Kendi hik\u00e2yeni kar\u0131\u015ft\u0131rma.\n\nElif sadece:\n\n\u2014 Onun itibar\u0131 benim de itibar\u0131m.\n\nSalon doluydu. Eski askerler dik duru\u015flar\u0131yla oturuyordu. Duvarlarda g\u00f6rev an\u0131lar\u0131, s\u0131n\u0131r operasyonlar\u0131 ve \u015fehit foto\u011fraflar\u0131 vard\u0131. Sahneye R\u0131za Aksoy i\u00e7in \u00f6zel bir sandalye konmu\u015ftu.\n\nElif i\u00e7eri girince f\u0131s\u0131lt\u0131lar ba\u015flad\u0131:\n\n\u2014 Bu mu R\u0131za Bey\u2019in k\u0131z\u0131?\n\n\u2014 Deniz Kuvvetleri\u2019ni b\u0131rakm\u0131\u015f.\n\n\u2014 Bu ya\u015fta geri d\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015f.\n\nS\u00fcheyla herkesin yan\u0131nda \u015fefkatli bir tonla:\n\n\u2014 \u00c7ocuk i\u015fte, olur b\u00f6yle \u015feyler\u2026 biz sahip \u00e7\u0131k\u0131yoruz.\n\nElif en arka duvara ge\u00e7ti ve oraya oturdu. Elleri sakindi ama i\u00e7i y\u0131llard\u0131r kapanmam\u0131\u015f bir yarayla doluydu.\n\nT\u00f6ren ba\u015flad\u0131. Sayg\u0131 duru\u015fu, anma konu\u015fmalar\u0131\u2026 R\u0131za Aksoy\u2019un ad\u0131 okununca alk\u0131\u015flar y\u00fckseldi. Elif ilk alk\u0131\u015f\u0131 yapanlardan biri oldu.\n\nTam o s\u0131rada S\u00fcheyla geldi, elinde tepsiyle:\n\n\u2014 Madem oturuyorsun, bari yard\u0131m et. Misafirlere su da\u011f\u0131t. Zaten sahneye \u00e7\u0131kacak h\u00e2lin kalmad\u0131.\n\nElif tepsiyi ald\u0131.\n\nS\u0131ralar aras\u0131nda su da\u011f\u0131tmaya ba\u015flad\u0131. Baz\u0131lar\u0131 ac\u0131yarak bak\u0131yor, baz\u0131lar\u0131 g\u00f6rmezden geliyordu. Ya\u015fl\u0131 bir kad\u0131n elini tutup sordu:\n\n\u2014 K\u0131z\u0131m, \u015fimdi ne yap\u0131yorsun?\n\n\u2014 G\u00f6revdeyim.\n\nKad\u0131n \u015fa\u015f\u0131rd\u0131:\n\n\u2014 Bize b\u0131rak\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131na g\u00f6re b\u0131rakm\u0131\u015fs\u0131n san\u0131yorduk.\n\nElif cevap veremeden kap\u0131 birden a\u00e7\u0131ld\u0131.\n\n\u0130\u00e7eri beyaz t\u00f6ren \u00fcniformas\u0131yla, y\u00fcksek r\u00fctbeli bir deniz kuvvetleri komutan\u0131 girdi. Omuzlar\u0131ndaki r\u00fctbeler \u0131\u015f\u0131k gibi parl\u0131yordu. Salonda bir anda sessizlik oldu.\n\n\u2014 Amiral Kemal \u015eahin\u2026\n\nS\u00fcheyla hemen toparlan\u0131p sahneye do\u011fru y\u00f6neldi, y\u00fcz\u00fcnde yapay bir g\u00fcl\u00fcmseme vard\u0131. Ama Amiral onu fark etmedi bile.\n\nG\u00f6zleri do\u011frudan salonun arkas\u0131na kilitlendi.\n\nElif oradayd\u0131. Elinde su tepsisiyle, dimdik.\n\nElif\u2019in bedeni refleksle asker\u00ee bir duru\u015fa ge\u00e7ti.\n\nAmiral, kalabal\u0131\u011f\u0131 yararak ona do\u011fru y\u00fcr\u00fcmeye ba\u015flad\u0131.\n\n\n\t\t\t\t<\/dd><\/dl><dl class='gallery-item'>\n\t\t\t<dt class='gallery-icon landscape'>\n\t\t\t\t<a href='https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/uvey-anne-eski-askeri-torende-kizini-alayci-sozlerle-en-arka-siraya-oturtmustu\/ty-8\/'><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"150\" height=\"150\" src=\"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/05\/ty-4-150x150.jpg\" class=\"attachment-thumbnail size-thumbnail\" alt=\"\" aria-describedby=\"gallery-1-7291\" srcset=\"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/05\/ty-4-150x150.jpg 150w, https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/05\/ty-4-300x300.jpg 300w, https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/05\/ty-4-768x768.jpg 768w, https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/05\/ty-4.jpg 1024w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 150px) 100vw, 150px\" \/><\/a>\n\t\t\t<\/dt>\n\t\t\t\t<dd class='wp-caption-text gallery-caption' id='gallery-1-7291'>\n\t\t\t\tSalonda bulunan 300 ki\u015fi nefesini tutmu\u015f izliyordu. S\u00fcheyla Aksoy\u2019un y\u00fcz\u00fcndeki sahte g\u00fcl\u00fcmseme donup kalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. R\u0131za Aksoy sandalyeden yar\u0131 kalkm\u0131\u015ft\u0131; y\u00fcksek r\u00fctbeli bir amiralin neden do\u011frudan Elif\u2019e y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc anlamaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yordu.\n\nAmiral Elif\u2019in \u00f6n\u00fcnde durdu. Elif tepsiyi yan\u0131ndaki masaya b\u0131rakt\u0131 ve tam asker\u00ee selam verdi. Amiral de ayn\u0131 kararl\u0131l\u0131kla selam\u0131n\u0131 iade etti.\n\nSesi net, derin ve t\u00fcm salona yay\u0131lan bir tondayd\u0131:\n\n\u2014 T\u00fcmamiral Elif Aksoy\u2026 sizi burada misafirlere su da\u011f\u0131t\u0131rken g\u00f6rmek beni \u015fa\u015f\u0131rtt\u0131.\n\nBir an i\u00e7in zaman durmu\u015f gibiydi.\n\nSonra salon patlad\u0131. Sandalyeler g\u0131c\u0131rdad\u0131, f\u0131s\u0131lt\u0131lar y\u00fckseldi. \u00d6n s\u0131ralardaki emekli subaylar\u0131n bir k\u0131sm\u0131 aniden aya\u011fa kalkt\u0131. Ard\u0131ndan birer birer eski deniz kuvvetleri personeli, kara kuvvetleri subaylar\u0131 ve gaziler dikkat duru\u015funa ge\u00e7ti.\n\nR\u0131za Aksoy\u2019un y\u00fcz\u00fc bembeyaz oldu.\n\nS\u00fcheyla a\u011fz\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7t\u0131 ama sesi \u00e7\u0131kmad\u0131.\n\nAmiral Elif\u2019le tokala\u015ft\u0131.\n\n\u2014 Savunma Bakanl\u0131\u011f\u0131\u2019ndaki yeni stratejik g\u00f6reviniz bug\u00fcn h\u00e2l\u00e2 konu\u015fuluyor. Bat\u0131 deniz g\u00fcvenli\u011fi raporlar\u0131nda yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z \u00e7al\u0131\u015fma ola\u011fan\u00fcst\u00fcyd\u00fc.\n\nElif sakin bir sesle yan\u0131t verdi:\n\n\u2014 Te\u015fekk\u00fcr ederim komutan\u0131m. Bu bir ekip \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmas\u0131yd\u0131.\n\nAmiral sahneye do\u011fru d\u00f6nd\u00fc.\n\n\u2014 R\u0131za Bey, bug\u00fcn sizi onurland\u0131rmak benim i\u00e7in bir gurur. Ama \u00fclke, k\u0131z\u0131n\u0131zla da ayn\u0131 derecede gurur duymal\u0131.\n\nR\u0131za\u2019n\u0131n dudaklar\u0131 titredi.\n\nS\u00fcheyla toparlan\u0131p \u00f6ne \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131:\n\n\u2014 Komutan\u0131m, Elif sadece k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir b\u00fcro i\u015fi yap\u0131yordu, biz \u00f6yle sanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131k\u2026\n\nAmiralin bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131 sertle\u015fti.\n\n\u2014 Ulusal g\u00fcvenlik i\u00e7eren hi\u00e7bir g\u00f6rev \u201ck\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck\u201d de\u011fildir, Han\u0131mefendi.\n\nBu c\u00fcmle bir tokat gibi salona \u00e7arpt\u0131.\n\nVe o an Elif ilk kez g\u00f6rd\u00fc: babas\u0131n\u0131n g\u00f6zlerinde art\u0131k ink\u00e2r de\u011fil, a\u011f\u0131r bir pi\u015fmanl\u0131k vard\u0131.\n\nB\u00d6L\u00dcM 3\nT\u00f6ren devam etti ama art\u0131k merkez de\u011fi\u015fmi\u015fti. R\u0131za Aksoy\u2019a \u015fal tak\u0131ld\u0131, plaket verildi, konu\u015fmalar yap\u0131ld\u0131, alk\u0131\u015flar y\u00fckseldi; fakat her alk\u0131\u015f aras\u0131nda g\u00f6zler tekrar arka s\u0131ralara, Elif\u2019e kay\u0131yordu.\n\nBiraz \u00f6nce onun hakk\u0131nda f\u0131s\u0131ldayan insanlar \u015fimdi birbirine soruyordu:\n\n\u2014 T\u00fcmamiral mi?\n\n\u2014 Bu kadar \u00fcst d\u00fczey bir g\u00f6revli miymi\u015f?\n\n\u2014 O zaman neden saklanm\u0131\u015f?\n\nS\u00fcheyla sahneye yak\u0131n oturuyordu ama art\u0131k t\u00f6renin par\u00e7as\u0131 gibi g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u00fcyordu. S\u00fcrekli su i\u00e7iyor, \u00e7\u0131k\u0131\u015f kap\u0131lar\u0131na bak\u0131yordu. Biraz \u00f6nce yan\u0131nda g\u00fcl\u00fcmseyen kad\u0131nlar art\u0131k ondan uzakla\u015fm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.\n\nElif bunlar\u0131 izledi ama y\u00fcz\u00fcnde bir zafer ifadesi yoktu. O intikam istemiyordu. Sadece babas\u0131n\u0131n bir kez ger\u00e7e\u011fi duymas\u0131n\u0131 istemi\u015fti.\n\nProgram\u0131n son b\u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcnde Amiral Y\u0131lmaz sahneye \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131. R\u0131za Aksoy\u2019un hizmetlerini, disiplinini ve eski ku\u015fa\u011f\u0131n fedak\u00e2rl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 anlatt\u0131. Ard\u0131ndan k\u0131sa bir sessizlik oldu.\n\n\u2014 Bazen bir askerin miras\u0131 yaln\u0131zca madalyalar\u0131 de\u011fildir\u2026 as\u0131l miras, yeti\u015ftirdi\u011fi neslin cesaretidir.\n\nSalonda sessizlik \u00e7\u00f6kt\u00fc.\n\n\u2014 Baz\u0131 g\u00f6revler vard\u0131r ki ses \u00e7\u0131karmaz, ama y\u00fck\u00fc \u00e7ok a\u011f\u0131rd\u0131r. Bu y\u00fczden baz\u0131 insanlar ailelerine bile ger\u00e7e\u011fin tamam\u0131n\u0131 anlatamaz. Ama sessizli\u011fi ba\u015far\u0131s\u0131zl\u0131k sanmak, hepimizin yapabilece\u011fi bir hatad\u0131r.\n\nR\u0131za ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6ne e\u011fdi.\n\nElif\u2019in g\u00f6zleri ilk kez doldu. Y\u0131llard\u0131r ta\u015f\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131 y\u00fck omuzlar\u0131na daha net oturdu. Y\u0131llar \u00f6nce gizli bir g\u00f6reve atand\u0131\u011f\u0131nda babas\u0131na sadece \u201cg\u00f6rev de\u011fi\u015fti, detay veremem\u201d demi\u015fti. R\u0131za yar\u0131m dinlemi\u015fti. S\u00fcheyla o yar\u0131m\u0131 bir yalanla tamamlam\u0131\u015ft\u0131.\n\n\u201cG\u00f6revden al\u0131nd\u0131.\u201d\n\n\u201cOfiste k\u00e2\u011f\u0131t i\u015fi yap\u0131yor.\u201d\n\n\u201cBa\u015far\u0131s\u0131z oldu.\u201d\n\nBu s\u00f6zler y\u0131llarca akrabalar\u0131n sohbetlerine, kom\u015fu dedikodular\u0131na ve aile toplant\u0131lar\u0131na ta\u015f\u0131nm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Elif hi\u00e7bir \u015fey a\u00e7\u0131klamam\u0131\u015ft\u0131, \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc baz\u0131 ger\u00e7ekler herkesin ortas\u0131nda s\u00f6ylenmezdi. Ama her yalan da sessizce ta\u015f\u0131nacak \u015fey de\u011fildi.\n\nT\u00f6ren sona erdi. \u0130nsanlar R\u0131za\u2019y\u0131 tebrik etmeye geldi, sonra \u00e7ekinerek Elif\u2019e de yakla\u015ft\u0131lar.\n\n\u2014 Bilmiyorduk, k\u0131z\u0131m\u2026\n\nBaz\u0131lar\u0131 utan\u00e7la ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 e\u011fdi.\n\nAz \u00f6nce Elif\u2019e soru soran ya\u015fl\u0131 kad\u0131n onun yan\u0131na gelip f\u0131s\u0131ldad\u0131:\n\n\u2014 Affet beni\u2026 ben de duyduklar\u0131ma inand\u0131m.\n\nElif ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 hafif\u00e7e e\u011fdi:\n\n\u2014 \u00d6nemli de\u011fil, teyze.\n\nAma asl\u0131nda \u00f6nemliydi. \u00c7ok \u00f6nemliydi. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc yalan sadece s\u00f6z de\u011fil; bir insan\u0131n kimli\u011finin \u00fczerine \u00e7\u00f6ken bir g\u00f6lgeydi.\n\nGece \u00e7\u00f6km\u00fc\u015f, hava so\u011fumu\u015ftu. Asker\u00ee derne\u011fin \u00f6n\u00fcndeki otoparkta sar\u0131 sokak lambalar\u0131 yan\u0131yordu. Misafirler yava\u015f yava\u015f da\u011f\u0131l\u0131yordu. S\u00fcheyla Aksoy h\u0131zl\u0131 ad\u0131mlarla arabaya do\u011fru y\u00fcr\u00fcyordu; sanki ne kadar \u00e7abuk evine d\u00f6nerse, olanlar o kadar \u00e7abuk silinecekti.\n\nR\u0131za Aksoy ilk kez onun pe\u015finden gitmedi.\n\n\u2014 Elif\u2026\n\nSesi \u00e7ok al\u00e7akt\u0131.\n\nElif durdu. Geri d\u00f6nd\u00fc. Babas\u0131 kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131ndayd\u0131; omuzlar\u0131 d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f, y\u00fcz\u00fc sahnedeki o \u201conurland\u0131r\u0131lan adam\u201ddan tamamen farkl\u0131yd\u0131. \u015eimdi orada, k\u0131z\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7ok ge\u00e7 g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015f bir baba duruyordu.\n\n\u2014 Bana neden s\u00f6ylemedin?\n\nElif derin bir nefes ald\u0131.\n\n\u2014 S\u00f6yledim baba. Siz dinlemediniz.\n\nR\u0131za sanki i\u00e7inden k\u0131r\u0131ld\u0131.\n\n\u2014 Ben\u2026 S\u00fcheyla dedi ki sen zor durumdayd\u0131n, i\u015ften ayr\u0131lmak \u00fczereydin, b\u0131rakm\u0131\u015fs\u0131n\u2026\n\n\u2014 Peki siz neden bana sormad\u0131n\u0131z?\n\nBu soru y\u00fcksek de\u011fildi. Ama R\u0131za i\u00e7in bir tokattan daha a\u011f\u0131rd\u0131.\n\nG\u00f6zlerini kapatt\u0131.\n\n\u2014 Hata yapt\u0131m.\n\n\u2014 Hata sadece inanman\u0131z de\u011fildi baba. Hata, benim sessizli\u011fimi zay\u0131fl\u0131\u011f\u0131m sanman\u0131zd\u0131.\n\nR\u0131za\u2019n\u0131n elleri titriyordu.\n\n\u2014 Annen gittikten sonra seni koruyaca\u011f\u0131m\u0131 sanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. Sonra S\u00fcheyla geldi\u2026 ev d\u00fczene girdi ama ben baba olmay\u0131 unutmu\u015fum.\n\nElif bir \u015fey demedi. Y\u0131llar\u0131n mesafesi tek bir c\u00fcmleyle kapanmazd\u0131.\n\nTam o s\u0131rada S\u00fcheyla geri d\u00f6nd\u00fc. Y\u00fcz\u00fcnde \u00f6fke ve k\u0131r\u0131lm\u0131\u015f bir gurur vard\u0131.\n\n\u2014 Yeter art\u0131k bu tiyatro. Herkes gitti. Hadi eve d\u00f6nelim. Yar\u0131n hepsi unutulur.\n\nR\u0131za ilk kez ona do\u011frudan bakt\u0131.\n\n\u2014 Hi\u00e7biri unutulmayacak. Ben de unutmayaca\u011f\u0131m.\n\nS\u00fcheyla dondu.\n\n\u2014 Ne demek bu?\n\n\u2014 Demek \u015fu: Y\u0131llard\u0131r evimde k\u0131z\u0131m hakk\u0131nda yalan biriktirilmi\u015f.\n\n\u2014 Ben sadece itibar\u0131n\u0131z\u0131 korudum! \u0130nsanlar soracakt\u0131 k\u0131z\u0131n\u0131z nerede diye\u2014\n\n\u2014 O zaman ben derdim: K\u0131z\u0131m \u00fclkesine hizmet ediyor.\n\n\u2014 Siz nereden bilecektiniz?\n\n\u2014 Bilmem gerekirdi.\n\nS\u00fcheyla\u2019n\u0131n y\u00fcz\u00fc gerildi.\n\n\u2014 Yani su\u00e7lu ben miyim? O da hi\u00e7bir \u015fey anlatmad\u0131!\n\nElif ilk kez net bir sesle konu\u015ftu:\n\n\u2014 Ben anlatmad\u0131m \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc g\u00f6revimin s\u0131n\u0131rlar\u0131 vard\u0131. Ama siz bunu \u201cba\u015far\u0131s\u0131zl\u0131k\u201d yapt\u0131n\u0131z.\n\nS\u00fcheyla sinirle g\u00fcld\u00fc.\n\n\u2014 Bak hele\u2026 r\u00fctbe al\u0131nca bana ders mi veriyorsun? Ben bu evde y\u0131llard\u0131r bu adam\u0131 ayakta tuttum!\n\n\u2014 Ben yok olmad\u0131m. Deniz\u2019deydim, g\u00f6revdeydim, kararg\u00e2htayd\u0131m. Ama her izinimde arad\u0131m. Siz \u201cbaban me\u015fgul\u201d dediniz. Mektup yollad\u0131m, \u201cgelmedi\u201d dediniz. Davet g\u00f6nderdim, \u201cgelemez\u201d dediniz.\n\nR\u0131za aniden S\u00fcheyla\u2019ya d\u00f6nd\u00fc.\n\n\u2014 Hangi mektuplar?\n\nS\u00fcheyla\u2019n\u0131n y\u00fcz\u00fc bir an \u00e7\u00f6kt\u00fc.\n\n\u2014 Eski \u015feyler\u2026 hat\u0131rlam\u0131yorum.\n\n\u2014 Hangi mektuplar, S\u00fcheyla?\n\nElif \u00e7antas\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7t\u0131. Y\u0131llard\u0131r saklad\u0131\u011f\u0131 zarflar\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131. Baz\u0131lar\u0131 geri d\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc, baz\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnde ev adresi vard\u0131, baz\u0131lar\u0131nda S\u00fcheyla\u2019n\u0131n el yaz\u0131s\u0131yla \u201csonra bakar\u0131z\u201d notu.\n\nR\u0131za titreyen ellerle bir zarf\u0131 a\u00e7t\u0131. \u0130\u00e7inde Elif\u2019in mezuniyet t\u00f6reni foto\u011fraf\u0131 vard\u0131. Beyaz \u00fcniformas\u0131yla dimdik duruyordu.\n\nArkas\u0131nda yaz\u0131yordu:\n\n\u201cBaba, ke\u015fke burada olsayd\u0131n.\u201d\n\nR\u0131za dizlerinin \u00fczerine \u00e7\u00f6kt\u00fc.\n\nG\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131 durmad\u0131.\n\n\u2014 Ben gelmedim\u2026 \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc bana gelme demi\u015flerdi.\n\nElif\u2019in bo\u011faz\u0131 d\u00fc\u011f\u00fcmlendi.\n\n\u2014 Ben her seferinde \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rd\u0131m.\n\nS\u00fcheyla sertle\u015fti:\n\n\u2014 Bir kad\u0131n\u0131n i\u015fi, g\u00f6revi, terfisi\u2026 her \u015fey i\u00e7in ev mi b\u0131rak\u0131l\u0131r?\n\nR\u0131za\u2019n\u0131n sesi ilk kez sertle\u015fti:\n\n\u2014 Yeter.\n\nS\u00fcheyla sustu.\n\n\u2014 Bundan sonra k\u0131z\u0131m hakk\u0131nda kimse yalan s\u00f6ylemeyecek. Ne bu evde, ne bu \u015fehirde.\n\n\u2014 Peki ben? Benim eme\u011fim?\n\n\u2014 Emek, ger\u00e7e\u011fi saklamak de\u011fildir.\n\nS\u00fcheyla etrafa bakt\u0131. Uzaktan baz\u0131 misafirler h\u00e2l\u00e2 duruyordu. Her \u015fey duyulmu\u015ftu. Y\u0131llard\u0131r kurdu\u011fu d\u00fczen \u00e7\u00f6km\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc.\n\n\u2014 Ben gidiyorum, dedi so\u011fuk\u00e7a.\n\n\u2014 Git, dedi R\u0131za sakin ama kesin bir sesle. Yar\u0131n konu\u015faca\u011f\u0131z.\n\nS\u00fcheyla gitti. Bu kez ad\u0131mlar\u0131nda g\u00fc\u00e7 yoktu.\n\nR\u0131za Elif\u2019e bakt\u0131.\n\n\u2014 Beni affedebilir misin?\n\nElif hemen cevap vermedi. Gece sessizdi. Uzaktan bir camiden yats\u0131 ezan\u0131 yank\u0131lan\u0131yordu.\n\n\u2014 Affetmek bir emir de\u011fil baba. Zaman ister.\n\nR\u0131za ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 e\u011fdi.\n\n\u2014 Bekleyece\u011fim.\n\n\u2014 Sadece beklemeyin. Ger\u00e7e\u011fi anlat\u0131n. Her yere.\n\n\u2014 Anlataca\u011f\u0131m.\n\n\u2014 Bir daha benim hakk\u0131mda karar vermeden \u00f6nce beni dinleyin.\n\nR\u0131za ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 sallad\u0131, g\u00f6zleri dolu.\n\nSonra yava\u015f\u00e7a elini uzatt\u0131. Elif bir an durdu. O el hem onu b\u00fcy\u00fctm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc hem de y\u0131llarca uzak tutmu\u015ftu.\n\nElif o eli tuttu.\n\nR\u0131za onu sar\u0131ld\u0131. Bu sar\u0131lma ge\u00e7 kalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131, k\u0131r\u0131k par\u00e7al\u0131yd\u0131 ama yalan de\u011fildi. Elif ilk kez i\u00e7indeki buzun tamamen de\u011fil ama yava\u015f\u00e7a eridi\u011fini hissetti.\n\nErtesi sabah R\u0131za Aksoy, Elif\u2019in istedi\u011fini yapt\u0131. Emekli askerler grubuna mesaj att\u0131, eski arkada\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 arad\u0131 ve mahalle toplant\u0131s\u0131nda a\u00e7\u0131k\u00e7a konu\u015ftu:\n\n\u2014 K\u0131z\u0131m Deniz Kuvvetleri\u2019ni b\u0131rakmad\u0131. Ben yanl\u0131\u015f bilgiye inand\u0131m. O, bana gurur duymay\u0131 \u00f6\u011fretti.\n\nBu s\u00f6zler Ankara\u2019n\u0131n eski asker\u00ee semtlerinde h\u0131zla yay\u0131ld\u0131. T\u0131pk\u0131 y\u0131llarca yay\u0131lan yalan gibi\u2026 ama bu kez ger\u00e7e\u011fin a\u011f\u0131rl\u0131\u011f\u0131yla.\n\nS\u00fcheyla birka\u00e7 g\u00fcn evden az \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131. Daha \u00f6nce yan\u0131nda Elif hakk\u0131nda konu\u015fan insanlar \u015fimdi susuyordu. R\u0131za evdeki d\u00fczeni de\u011fi\u015ftirdi. Kararlar\u0131 tekrar kendisi almaya ba\u015flad\u0131. Elif\u2019in odas\u0131 yeniden a\u00e7\u0131ld\u0131. Annesinin foto\u011fraf\u0131 tekrar salona as\u0131ld\u0131.\n\nBir hafta sonra Elif\u2019in \u0130stanbul\u2019a d\u00f6nme vakti geldi. R\u0131za onu tren istasyonuna b\u0131rakt\u0131. Elinde k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir kutu vard\u0131. \u0130\u00e7inde Elif\u2019in annesinin eski g\u00fcm\u00fc\u015f bilekli\u011fi vard\u0131.\n\n\u2014 Annen bunu sana vermemi istemi\u015fti. \u00c7ok geciktim.\n\nElif kutuyu ald\u0131.\n\n\u2014 Te\u015fekk\u00fcr ederim baba.\n\n\u2014 Bir g\u00fcn bir t\u00f6renin olursa\u2026 beni \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r.\n\nElif hafif\u00e7e g\u00fcl\u00fcmsedi.\n\n\u2014 Ben zaten \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m.\n\nR\u0131za\u2019n\u0131n g\u00f6zleri doldu.\n\n\u2014 Bu sefer gelece\u011fim.\n\nTren hareket etti. R\u0131za peronda el sall\u0131yordu.\n\nElif cam\u0131n arkas\u0131ndan bakt\u0131. Kaybolan g\u00fcven bir g\u00fcnde geri gelmezdi. Ama ger\u00e7e\u011fin gecikse bile bo\u015f d\u00f6nmedi\u011fini art\u0131k biliyordu.\n\nO, yan\u0131nda intikam de\u011fil, kimli\u011fini geri g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcyordu.\n\nVe o eski evde, ilk kez Elif Aksoy\u2019un ad\u0131 bir yalanla de\u011fil, sayg\u0131yla an\u0131ld\u0131.\n\n\n\t\t\t\t<\/dd><\/dl>\n\t\t\t<br style='clear: both' \/>\n\t\t<\/div>\n\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":7290,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[9],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-7289","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-foto-galeri"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/7289","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=7289"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/7289\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":7292,"href":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/7289\/revisions\/7292"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/7290"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=7289"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=7289"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=7289"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}