{"id":5626,"date":"2026-04-21T22:02:05","date_gmt":"2026-04-21T22:02:05","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/?p=5626"},"modified":"2026-04-21T22:02:05","modified_gmt":"2026-04-21T22:02:05","slug":"15-yil-once-sirlara-karisan-oglumu-tesadufen-canli-yayinda-gordum","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/15-yil-once-sirlara-karisan-oglumu-tesadufen-canli-yayinda-gordum\/","title":{"rendered":"15 Y\u0131l \u00f6nce s\u0131rlara kar\u0131\u015fan o\u011flumu tesad\u00fcfen canl\u0131 yay\u0131nda g\u00f6rd\u00fcm."},"content":{"rendered":"\n\t\t<style type=\"text\/css\">\n\t\t\t#gallery-1 {\n\t\t\t\tmargin: auto;\n\t\t\t}\n\t\t\t#gallery-1 .gallery-item {\n\t\t\t\tfloat: left;\n\t\t\t\tmargin-top: 10px;\n\t\t\t\ttext-align: center;\n\t\t\t\twidth: 33%;\n\t\t\t}\n\t\t\t#gallery-1 img {\n\t\t\t\tborder: 2px solid #cfcfcf;\n\t\t\t}\n\t\t\t#gallery-1 .gallery-caption {\n\t\t\t\tmargin-left: 0;\n\t\t\t}\n\t\t\t\/* see gallery_shortcode() in wp-includes\/media.php *\/\n\t\t<\/style>\n\t\t<div id='gallery-1' class='gallery galleryid-5626 gallery-columns-3 gallery-size-thumbnail'><dl class='gallery-item'>\n\t\t\t<dt class='gallery-icon landscape'>\n\t\t\t\t<a href='https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/15-yil-once-sirlara-karisan-oglumu-tesadufen-canli-yayinda-gordum\/d-2-47\/'><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"150\" height=\"150\" src=\"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/04\/d-2-11-150x150.jpg\" class=\"attachment-thumbnail size-thumbnail\" alt=\"\" aria-describedby=\"gallery-1-5627\" \/><\/a>\n\t\t\t<\/dt>\n\t\t\t\t<dd class='wp-caption-text gallery-caption' id='gallery-1-5627'>\n\t\t\t\t10 ya\u015f\u0131ndaki o\u011flum Mert&#8217;in okula gidip bir daha d\u00f6nmedi\u011fi o g\u00fcn\u00fc unutmam m\u00fcmk\u00fcn de\u011fil. Ne ertesi g\u00fcn geldi, ne de aradan ge\u00e7en 15 koca y\u0131l\u0131n ard\u0131ndan.\n\nPolis hi\u00e7bir iz bulamad\u0131. \u00c7evredeki t\u00fcm \u015fehirlere gittim ama kimse Mert&#8217;i g\u00f6rmemi\u015fti. Kocam g\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131 i\u00e7inde, &#8220;Elif, l\u00fctfen art\u0131k kabullen, b\u0131rak o\u011flumuz huzur bulsun,&#8221; diye yalvarsa da ben pes etmedim. Onun ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 hep biliyordum.\n\nO gece sosyal medyada \u00f6ylesine gezinirken bir canl\u0131 yay\u0131na denk geldim. Ekrandaki gen\u00e7 adam can\u0131m\u0131 yakacak kadar BEN\u0130M O\u011eLUMA benziyordu! Mert&#8217;in b\u00fcy\u00fcm\u00fc\u015f halinin t\u0131pat\u0131p ayn\u0131s\u0131yd\u0131.\n\n&#8220;Arkada\u015flar,&#8221; dedi gen\u00e7 adam g\u00fclerek, &#8220;R\u00fcyalar\u0131ma s\u00fcrekli giren ama kim oldu\u011funu bilmedi\u011fim bir kad\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7iziyorum.&#8221; Ve o ka\u011f\u0131d\u0131 kameraya do\u011fru kald\u0131rd\u0131.\n\n\u00c7izdi\u011fi ki\u015fi KES\u0130NL\u0130KLE BEND\u0130M. Hem de tam 15 y\u0131l \u00f6nceki, Mert&#8217;in beni son g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc ve hat\u0131rlad\u0131\u011f\u0131 o gen\u00e7 halim! Hi\u00e7 \u015f\u00fcphe yoktu.\n\n&#8220;Uyan! \u00c7abuk uyan!&#8221; diyerek \u00e7\u0131\u011fl\u0131klar at\u0131p kocam\u0131 uyand\u0131rd\u0131m. \u00d6nce akl\u0131m\u0131 ka\u00e7\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 sand\u0131 ama \u00e7izimi ve genci g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnde o da \u015foka girdi.\n\nDelicesine bir cesaretle gencin hesab\u0131na, &#8220;Yay\u0131nda beni \u00e7izdin. San\u0131r\u0131m tan\u0131\u015f\u0131yoruz, l\u00fctfen bulu\u015fal\u0131m,&#8221; yazd\u0131m. Engellemesinden korktu\u011fum i\u00e7in annesi oldu\u011fumu s\u00f6yleyemedim.\n\nCevap gelene kadar g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc bile k\u0131rpmad\u0131m. Sonunda adresi g\u00f6nderdi; evimizden y\u00fczlerce kilometre uzakta, bamba\u015fka bir \u015fehirdeydi.\n\nAyn\u0131 g\u00fcn kalkan ilk u\u00e7a\u011fa atlad\u0131k. Umut ve heyecandan akl\u0131m\u0131 ka\u00e7\u0131rmak \u00fczereydim. Arabayla evinin \u00f6n\u00fcne yana\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z an f\u0131rlay\u0131p kap\u0131y\u0131 \u00e7ald\u0131m.\n\nKap\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131nda, &#8220;Neler oluyor burada?&#8221; diye sordum. Ancak o saniyede, HAYATTA BEKLEYECE\u011e\u0130M EN SON \u015eEYLE KAR\u015eILA\u015eTIM!\n\nY\u0131llard\u0131r arad\u0131\u011f\u0131m o\u011flumun kap\u0131s\u0131nda kar\u015f\u0131la\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131m ve b\u00fct\u00fcn d\u00fcnyam\u0131 alt\u00fcst eden o ak\u0131lalmaz ve t\u00fcyler \u00fcrpertici gizem neydi?\n\nKap\u0131n\u0131n kolu yava\u015f\u00e7a a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 indi ve ah\u015fap kap\u0131 g\u0131c\u0131rt\u0131yla araland\u0131. Kar\u015f\u0131mda, ekranda g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm o gen\u00e7 adam duruyordu. Ela g\u00f6zleri, hafif dalgal\u0131 sa\u00e7lar\u0131, sol yana\u011f\u0131ndaki o tan\u0131d\u0131k k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck gamzesi&#8230; O kadar uzun boylu ve yap\u0131l\u0131yd\u0131 ki, 10 ya\u015f\u0131ndaki o k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck \u00e7ocu\u011fun b\u00f6yle bir adama d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc\u011f\u00fcne inanmak beynimi zorluyordu. Ama anne y\u00fcre\u011fi yan\u0131lmazd\u0131; kokusu bile ayn\u0131yd\u0131.\n\nBana \u015fa\u015fk\u0131nl\u0131kla, biraz da \u00e7ekinerek bakt\u0131. &#8220;Siz&#8230; Bana mesaj atan ki\u015fi olmal\u0131s\u0131n\u0131z,&#8221; dedi. Sesi kal\u0131nd\u0131 ama vurgular\u0131 t\u0131pk\u0131 kocam\u0131nkilere benziyordu.\n\nG\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131m yanaklar\u0131mdan s\u00fcz\u00fcl\u00fcrken titreyen ellerimi ona do\u011fru uzatt\u0131m. &#8220;Mert&#8230;&#8221; diye f\u0131s\u0131ldad\u0131m. &#8220;O\u011flum&#8230; Anneci\u011fim, seni buldum.&#8221;\n\nGen\u00e7 adam\u0131n y\u00fcz\u00fcndeki \u015fa\u015fk\u0131nl\u0131k yerini derin bir kafa kar\u0131\u015f\u0131kl\u0131\u011f\u0131na b\u0131rakt\u0131. Geriye do\u011fru bir ad\u0131m atarak, &#8220;Han\u0131mefendi, san\u0131r\u0131m bir yanl\u0131\u015f anla\u015f\u0131lma var. Benim ad\u0131m Mert de\u011fil, ad\u0131m Burak,&#8221; dedi. &#8220;\u0130\u00e7eri buyurun isterseniz, annemle babam evde.&#8221;\n\n&#8220;Annenle baban m\u0131?&#8221; diye tekrarlad\u0131 kocam arkamdan, sesi \u00f6fke ve korkuyla titriyordu.\n\n\u0130\u015fte tam o an, evin i\u00e7inden, koridorun sonundaki odadan tok bir erkek sesi duyuldu: &#8220;Kim gelmi\u015f o\u011flum?&#8221;\n\nKoridorda beliren o sil\u00fceti, o y\u00fcz\u00fc, o y\u00fcr\u00fcy\u00fc\u015f\u00fc g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm an nefesim tamamen kesildi. Dizlerimin ba\u011f\u0131 \u00e7\u00f6z\u00fcld\u00fc ve kocam kollar\u0131mdan tutmasa orac\u0131kta yere y\u0131\u011f\u0131lacakt\u0131m. Kar\u015f\u0131mdaki adam\u0131 tan\u0131yordum. Hem de \u00e7ok iyi tan\u0131yordum!\n\nBu adam, 15 y\u0131l \u00f6nce o\u011flumuz kayboldu\u011funda dosyam\u0131za bakan, haftalarca evimizden \u00e7\u0131kmayan, benimle birlikte g\u00f6zya\u015f\u0131 d\u00f6ken ve aylar sonra bana bakarak, &#8220;\u00dczg\u00fcn\u00fcm Elif Han\u0131m, dosya kapand\u0131, hi\u00e7bir iz yok&#8221; diyen Ba\u015fkomiser Kemal&#8217;in ta kendisiydi!\n\nKemal bizi kap\u0131da g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc an y\u00fcz\u00fcndeki b\u00fct\u00fcn kan \u00e7ekildi. Elindeki kahve fincan\u0131 b\u00fcy\u00fck bir g\u00fcr\u00fclt\u00fcyle parke zemine d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcp parampar\u00e7a oldu.\n\n&#8220;Kemal?&#8221; diye ba\u011f\u0131rd\u0131 kocam, sesi t\u00fcm mahallede yank\u0131lanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. &#8220;Senin&#8230; Senin ne i\u015fin var burada? Mert neden senin evinde?!&#8221;\n\nMert, ya da onun bildi\u011fi ad\u0131yla Burak, panik i\u00e7inde ikimizin ve Kemal&#8217;in aras\u0131nda gidip gelen bak\u0131\u015flarla kalakalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. &#8220;Baba? Ne oluyor? Bu insanlar kim?&#8221; diye sordu.\n\nKemal&#8217;in g\u00f6zleri dolmu\u015ftu. Omuzlar\u0131 \u00e7\u00f6kt\u00fc, y\u0131llard\u0131r ta\u015f\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131 o devasa, i\u011fren\u00e7 s\u0131rr\u0131n y\u00fck\u00fc nihayet omuzlar\u0131ndan yere d\u00f6k\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f gibiydi. Titreyen ellerini havaya kald\u0131r\u0131p, &#8220;\u0130\u00e7eri ge\u00e7in&#8230; L\u00fctfen,&#8221; diyebildi bo\u011fuk bir sesle. &#8220;Her \u015feyi anlataca\u011f\u0131m.&#8221;\n\nY\u0131llar Sonra Gelen \u0130tiraf\nSalondaki kanepeye oturdu\u011fumuzda benim g\u00f6zlerim bir saniye bile Mert&#8217;ten ayr\u0131lm\u0131yordu. O ise korkuyla elindeki \u00e7izim defterini s\u0131k\u0131yordu. Kemal, ba\u015f\u0131 \u00f6nde, adeta bir mahkum gibi kar\u015f\u0131m\u0131zdaki tekli koltu\u011fa ili\u015fti. E\u015fi ortalarda yoktu.\n\n&#8220;Mert&#8217;i ben ka\u00e7\u0131rmad\u0131m,&#8221; diye ba\u015flad\u0131 s\u00f6zlerine, sesi su\u00e7lulukla titriyordu. &#8220;Yemin ederim Elif. O g\u00fcn, Mert okuldan \u00e7\u0131k\u0131p eve d\u00f6nerken pe\u015fine tak\u0131lan bir sokak k\u00f6pe\u011finden korkup ormanl\u0131k alana do\u011fru ko\u015fmu\u015f. Orada u\u00e7urumdan yuvarlan\u0131p ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7ok sert bir kayaya \u00e7arpm\u0131\u015f.&#8221;\n\nG\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131 i\u00e7inde nefesimi tuttum. Kocam elimi s\u0131ms\u0131k\u0131 kavram\u0131\u015ft\u0131.\n\n&#8220;Biz onu ararken,&#8221; diye devam etti Kemal, &#8220;Onu orman\u0131n kilometrelerce uza\u011f\u0131nda, bir tren istasyonunun yak\u0131nlar\u0131nda \u015fok halinde buldum. Ba\u015f\u0131na ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 darbe y\u00fcz\u00fcnden hi\u00e7bir \u015fey hat\u0131rlam\u0131yordu. Ad\u0131n\u0131, sizi, evini&#8230; Her \u015feyi unutmu\u015ftu. Tam onu hastaneye g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcp size haber verecektim ki&#8230;&#8221;\n\nS\u00f6zc\u00fckler bo\u011faz\u0131na d\u00fc\u011f\u00fcmlendi. Yutkundu ve ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 kald\u0131rmadan devam etti: &#8220;Benim e\u015fim o sabah, on y\u0131ll\u0131k tedavinin ard\u0131ndan nihayet hamile kald\u0131\u011f\u0131 bebe\u011fimizi kaybetmi\u015fti. Doktorlar bir daha asla anne olamayaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 s\u00f6ylemi\u015fti. E\u015fim o g\u00fcn hastane odas\u0131nda can\u0131na k\u0131ymaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Ben&#8230; Ben \u00e7ok bencil bir adamd\u0131m Elif. O k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck, haf\u0131zas\u0131n\u0131 kaybetmi\u015f \u00e7ocu\u011fu buldu\u011fumda, e\u015fime ya\u015fayacak bir sebep vermek istedim.&#8221;\n\nKocam yerinden f\u0131rlay\u0131p Kemal&#8217;in yakas\u0131na yap\u0131\u015ft\u0131. &#8220;Sen ne diyorsun lan! Sen kendi kar\u0131n ya\u015fas\u0131n diye bizim 15 y\u0131l\u0131m\u0131z\u0131, bizim hayat\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 m\u0131 \u00e7ald\u0131n?&#8221; diye k\u00fckredi&#8230;\n\t\t\t\t<\/dd><\/dl><dl class='gallery-item'>\n\t\t\t<dt class='gallery-icon landscape'>\n\t\t\t\t<a href='https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/15-yil-once-sirlara-karisan-oglumu-tesadufen-canli-yayinda-gordum\/lll\/'><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"150\" height=\"150\" src=\"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/04\/lll-150x150.jpg\" class=\"attachment-thumbnail size-thumbnail\" alt=\"\" aria-describedby=\"gallery-1-5628\" \/><\/a>\n\t\t\t<\/dt>\n\t\t\t\t<dd class='wp-caption-text gallery-caption' id='gallery-1-5628'>\n\t\t\t\tMert araya girip kocam\u0131 zar zor uzakla\u015ft\u0131rd\u0131 ama Kemal itiraz etmedi, sadece a\u011fl\u0131yordu.\n\n&#8220;Raporlar\u0131 de\u011fi\u015ftirdim,&#8221; diye itiraf etti Kemal. &#8220;Mert&#8217;i buldu\u011fumu herkesten saklad\u0131m. Onu sahte evraklarla ba\u015fka bir \u015fehre, e\u015fimin yan\u0131na g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fcm. E\u015fim, onun yetimhaneden evlat edindi\u011fimiz bir \u00e7ocuk oldu\u011funa inand\u0131. O kadar mutluydu ki, ger\u00e7e\u011fi ona asla s\u00f6yleyemedim. Sonra da tayinimi bu \u015fehre istedim ve bir daha geri d\u00f6nmedim. Onu bir su\u00e7lu gibi de\u011fil, kendi \u00f6z o\u011flum gibi b\u00fcy\u00fctt\u00fcm. Ama her gece vicdan azab\u0131ndan k\u0131vrand\u0131m.&#8221;\n\nOda buz gibi bir sessizli\u011fe b\u00fcr\u00fcnm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc. Y\u0131llarca karanl\u0131k sokaklarda, organ mafyalar\u0131n\u0131n elinde ya da bir sap\u0131\u011f\u0131n kurban\u0131 olarak hayal etti\u011fim o\u011flum, asl\u0131nda dosyas\u0131na bakan polisin \u015fefkatli ama bir o kadar da hastal\u0131kl\u0131 yalan\u0131n\u0131n i\u00e7inde b\u00fcy\u00fcm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc. Ortada kanl\u0131 bir cinayet yoktu, sadece bencilce bir dram ve \u00e7aresizlik vard\u0131.\n\nMert elindeki \u00e7izim defterini bana do\u011fru uzatt\u0131. Elleri titriyordu. Sayfada, kara kalemle \u00e7izilmi\u015f 25 ya\u015f\u0131ndaki o gen\u00e7 kad\u0131n y\u00fcz\u00fcm duruyordu.\n\n&#8220;Ben&#8230;&#8221; dedi Mert k\u0131s\u0131k bir sesle. &#8220;\u00c7ocuklu\u011fuma dair hi\u00e7bir \u015fey hat\u0131rlam\u0131yordum. Sadece her gece r\u00fcyamda bu y\u00fcz\u00fc g\u00f6r\u00fcyordum. Bana g\u00fcl\u00fcmseyen, &#8216;Seni \u00e7ok seviyorum&#8217; diyen bu y\u00fcz\u00fc. Kemal babam hep bunun hayal g\u00fcc\u00fcm oldu\u011funu s\u00f6ylerdi. Ama demek ki beynim seni unutsa da, kalbim seni hi\u00e7 unutmam\u0131\u015f anne.&#8221;\n\n&#8220;Anne&#8221; kelimesi dudaklar\u0131ndan d\u00f6k\u00fcld\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnde, i\u00e7imde 15 y\u0131ld\u0131r tuttu\u011fum o devasa baraj y\u0131k\u0131ld\u0131. Mert bana do\u011fru e\u011fildi ve kollar\u0131n\u0131 boynuma dolad\u0131. Kocam da ikimize birden sar\u0131larak h\u0131\u00e7k\u0131r\u0131klara bo\u011fuldu. 15 y\u0131ll\u0131k o karanl\u0131k kabus, koca bir yalan\u0131n ard\u0131nda saklanan bu mucizevi kucakla\u015fmayla tamamen sona ermi\u015fti.\n\nKemal o g\u00fcn kendi iste\u011fiyle gidip meslekta\u015flar\u0131na teslim oldu. Yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131 o bencilce se\u00e7imin bedelini hapiste \u00f6demeye ba\u015flad\u0131. Biz ise art\u0131k eskisi gibi k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir \u00e7ocuk olmayan ama kalbi hala bizimle atan o\u011flumuz Mert&#8217;i al\u0131p, 15 y\u0131l sonra eksik kalan ailemizi yeniden tamamlamak \u00fczere evimize d\u00f6nd\u00fck. Art\u0131k r\u00fcyalar\u0131nda beni \u00e7izmesine gerek kalmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131; \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc ben art\u0131k tam onun yan\u0131ndayd\u0131m.\n\n\n\t\t\t\t<\/dd><\/dl>\n\t\t\t<br style='clear: both' \/>\n\t\t<\/div>\n\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":5627,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[9],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-5626","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-foto-galeri"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5626","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=5626"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5626\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":5629,"href":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5626\/revisions\/5629"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/5627"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=5626"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=5626"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=5626"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}