{"id":4496,"date":"2026-03-04T22:04:57","date_gmt":"2026-03-04T22:04:57","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/?p=4496"},"modified":"2026-03-04T22:04:57","modified_gmt":"2026-03-04T22:04:57","slug":"dugunumde-buyukannemin-gelinligini-giymek-istedim","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/dugunumde-buyukannemin-gelinligini-giymek-istedim\/","title":{"rendered":"D\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fcmde B\u00fcy\u00fckannemin Gelinli\u011fini Giymek \u0130stedim"},"content":{"rendered":"\n\t\t<style type=\"text\/css\">\n\t\t\t#gallery-1 {\n\t\t\t\tmargin: auto;\n\t\t\t}\n\t\t\t#gallery-1 .gallery-item {\n\t\t\t\tfloat: left;\n\t\t\t\tmargin-top: 10px;\n\t\t\t\ttext-align: center;\n\t\t\t\twidth: 33%;\n\t\t\t}\n\t\t\t#gallery-1 img {\n\t\t\t\tborder: 2px solid #cfcfcf;\n\t\t\t}\n\t\t\t#gallery-1 .gallery-caption {\n\t\t\t\tmargin-left: 0;\n\t\t\t}\n\t\t\t\/* see gallery_shortcode() in wp-includes\/media.php *\/\n\t\t<\/style>\n\t\t<div id='gallery-1' class='gallery galleryid-4496 gallery-columns-3 gallery-size-thumbnail'><dl class='gallery-item'>\n\t\t\t<dt class='gallery-icon landscape'>\n\t\t\t\t<a href='https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/dugunumde-buyukannemin-gelinligini-giymek-istedim\/ff-34\/'><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"150\" height=\"150\" src=\"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/03\/ff-3-150x150.webp\" class=\"attachment-thumbnail size-thumbnail\" alt=\"\" aria-describedby=\"gallery-1-4497\" \/><\/a>\n\t\t\t<\/dt>\n\t\t\t\t<dd class='wp-caption-text gallery-caption' id='gallery-1-4497'>\n\t\t\t\tBeni b\u00fcy\u00fcten ki\u015fi b\u00fcy\u00fckannemdi. Annemi be\u015f ya\u015f\u0131ndayken kaybettim. Babam\u0131 ise hi\u00e7 tan\u0131mad\u0131m. Bana anlat\u0131lan hik\u00e2yeye g\u00f6re, annem bana hamileyken babam onlar\u0131 terk etmi\u015f ve bir daha geri d\u00f6nmemi\u015fti. B\u00fcy\u00fckannem bu konuyu her a\u00e7t\u0131\u011f\u0131mda g\u00f6zlerini ka\u00e7\u0131r\u0131r, \u201cBaz\u0131 insanlar sorumluluktan ka\u00e7ar, derdi. Ben de daha fazla kurcalamazd\u0131m.\n\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc hayat\u0131mda eksik olan bir \u015fey yoktu. B\u00fcy\u00fckannem vard\u0131.\nHem anne hem baba oldu bana. Okul g\u00f6sterilerimde en \u00f6n s\u0131rada oturdu, hastaland\u0131\u011f\u0131mda ba\u015fucumda sabahlad\u0131, \u00fcniversiteyi kazand\u0131\u011f\u0131m g\u00fcn g\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 gizlemeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131. B\u00fcy\u00fcy\u00fcp ba\u015fka bir \u015fehre ta\u015f\u0131nd\u0131\u011f\u0131mda bile her hafta sonu yan\u0131na gittim. K\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck mutfa\u011f\u0131nda \u00e7ay i\u00e7er, ge\u00e7mi\u015ften konu\u015furduk.\nErkek arkada\u015f\u0131m evlenme teklif etti\u011finde ilk arad\u0131\u011f\u0131m ki\u015fi oydu. Telefonda a\u011flad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 h\u00e2l\u00e2 hat\u0131rl\u0131yorum. \u201cDedeni bug\u00fcn daha \u00e7ok \u00f6zledim,\u201d demi\u015fti. \u201cSen gelin olurken yan\u0131nda olmay\u0131 \u00e7ok istiyorduk.\u201d\nAma o g\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6remedi. D\u00fc\u011f\u00fcne birka\u00e7 ay kala kalp yetmezli\u011finden vefat etti. Hayat\u0131mda ilk kez ger\u00e7ekten yaln\u0131z hissettim. Sanki k\u00f6klerim s\u00f6k\u00fclm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc.\nCenazeden sonra evini toplamak i\u00e7in tekrar gittim. Dolab\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7t\u0131\u011f\u0131mda naftalin kokusu y\u00fcz\u00fcme \u00e7arpt\u0131. En arka k\u00f6\u015fede \u00f6zenle saklanm\u0131\u015f bir boh\u00e7a vard\u0131. A\u00e7t\u0131\u011f\u0131mda gelinli\u011fini g\u00f6rd\u00fcm. Dantelleri sararm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 ama h\u00e1l\u00e1 zarifti. Parmaklar\u0131m\u0131 kuma\u015f\u0131n \u00fczerinde gezdirirken onu gen\u00e7 bir gelin olarak hayal ettim.\nO an karar verdim. D\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fcmde onun gelinli\u011fini giyecektim.\nTerziye g\u00f6t\u00fcrmek yerine k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck d\u00fczeltmeleri kendim yapmaya niyetlendim. Onunla aramdaki ba\u011f\u0131 hissetmek istiyordum. Salondaki masaya gelinli\u011fi serdim, astar\u0131n\u0131 dikkatlice incelemeye ba\u015flad\u0131m. Tam \u0130\u011fneyi ge\u00e7irecekken parma\u011f\u0131ma sert bir \u00e7\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131 tak\u0131ld\u0131. Kuma\u015f\u0131n i\u00e7inde bir \u015fey vard\u0131.\nKalbim h\u0131zland\u0131.\nAstar\u0131n i\u00e7 k\u0131sm\u0131nda neredeyse g\u00f6r\u00fcnmeyecek kadar ustaca dikilmi\u015f k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir cep fark ettim. \u0130nce makasia \u0130pli\u011fi s\u00f6kt\u00fcm. \u0130\u00e7inden katlanm\u0131\u015f bir k\u00e2\u011f\u0131t \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131. El yaz\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcr g\u00f6rmez dizlerim titredi. Bu onun yaz\u0131s\u0131yd\u0131. Derin bir nefes al\u0131p mektubu a\u00e7t\u0131m.\n\u201cSevgili torunum,\u201d diye ba\u015fl\u0131yordu. \u201cBu mektubu bir g\u00fcn bulaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 biliyordum. Sana y\u0131llarca saklad\u0131\u011f\u0131m bir s\u0131r var. Ger\u00e7e\u011fi \u00f6\u011frenmeye hakk\u0131n var. S\u00f6yledi\u011fim yalan i\u00e7in beni affet-sand\u0131\u011f\u0131n ki\u015fi de\u011filim.\u201d\nG\u00f6zlerim sat\u0131rlar\u0131n \u00fczerinde kayd\u0131.\nB\u00fcy\u00fckannem, annemin \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcn\u00fcn bana anlat\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131 gibi olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 yaz\u0131yordu. Annem bir trafik kazas\u0131nda de\u011fil, uzun s\u00fcredir m\u00fccadele etti\u011fi bir hastal\u0131k nedeniyle hayat\u0131n\u0131 kaybetmi\u015fti. Hastal\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 benden saklam\u0131\u015flard\u0131 \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc \u00e7ocuk kalbimin bunu kald\u0131ramayaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u00fc\u015flerdi.\n\t\t\t\t<\/dd><\/dl><dl class='gallery-item'>\n\t\t\t<dt class='gallery-icon landscape'>\n\t\t\t\t<a href='https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/dugunumde-buyukannemin-gelinligini-giymek-istedim\/ttyy\/'><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"150\" height=\"150\" src=\"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/03\/ttyy-150x150.jpg\" class=\"attachment-thumbnail size-thumbnail\" alt=\"\" aria-describedby=\"gallery-1-4498\" \/><\/a>\n\t\t\t<\/dt>\n\t\t\t\t<dd class='wp-caption-text gallery-caption' id='gallery-1-4498'>\n\t\t\t\tAma asi sars\u0131 olan babamla ligilyd\nBabam annermi turkeimm\u00e4i\nTam torsino, annom hastaland\u0131\u011f\u0131nda yar\u0131nda kal\u0131r\u0131m, hastane koridorlar\u0131nda satahlar\u0131\u015f\u0131. Bon do\u011fduktan sonra da buimle ya\u015far\u0131n\u0131. Ancak annemin \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcnden sonra b\u00fcy\u00fck bir y\u0131lkem ya\u015fam\u0131s puikolojik olarak \u00e7\u00f6km\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc. B\u00fcy\u00fckannem, beni istikranu bir hayat\u0131n i\u00e7ine \u00e7ekmemek i\u00e7in bataam\u0131 uzakla\u015f\u0131maya karar vermi\u015fti. Onu k\u00f6t\u00fc tari olarale anlatmas\u0131n\u0131n sebebi buydu\n\u201cBaban seni hic Lork elned\u201d diyordu mektupita \u201cOnu uzakla\u015ft\u0131ran bendien. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc soni konurmiak istedins Belki hala yapt\u0131m. Ama u seni her zaman seedi\nMektubun sonunda bir adres ve bir nim vard\n<\nBabam\u0131n oc\nG\u00f6zya\u015flanm k\u00e4\u011f\u00f3n \u00fczerine damlad\u0131. Allarca i\u00e7imde Layd\u0131\u011f\u0131m bo\u015fluk bir anda yoki de\u011fi\u015ftirmi\u015f \u00d6fke sagluntil \u00f6zlem. Hepsi birbirine katl\u0131 B\u00fcy\u00fckannemo kumali muyden? Yokia ben\u00ed korumak i\u00e7in yapl\u0131\u011f\u0131 fedakarl\u0131\u011f\u0131 mi g\u00f6rmeliydim?\nO gece uyuyarriadim. Sabah oldu\u011funda karanmi vermi\u015fdim.\nAdmse gittim.\nKapy urla yasi, yorgun bak\u0131\u015fl\u0131 tor adam ad\u0131 G\u00f6zden gozlen bonmiklerle aynmyd\u0131 kamu de bir an konu\u015famadik Sonta librok bir seste adirne s\u00f6yledim\nAdam\u0131n yur\u00fc \u00e7\u00f6z\u00fcld\u00fc G\u00f6zleri doldu\nVillandir bu ani bekledim\u201d dedi.\nSaallerce konu\u015ftuk. Foto\u011fraflar g\u00f6sterdi. Annenin hamilelik d\u00f6nemine ail g\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fclet do\u011fdu\u011fum g\u00fcn pokilmi\u015f bir kans. Kuca\u011f\u0131r\u0131da ben luluyordu. Terk edilmi\u015f bir \u00e7ocuk de\u011fildim. Sevilmi\u015ftim\nB\u00fcy\u00fckan\u0131n\u0131n yalan s\u00f6ylermi\u015fli, evel. Ama a yalan\u0131n i\u00e7inde karku ve koruma vara. Yanl\u0131\u015f bir katar vermi\u015fli betki ama niyeti sevgiydi\nD\u00fcg\u00fcn g\u00fcn\u00fc geldi\u011finde b\u00fcy\u00fckannemin gelinli\u011fini gyd\u0131m. Aynaya bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131mda yaln\u0131z olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 hinellim Yan\u0131mda coum halrasu kalbimde annemin sevgisi ve salonda suracia oturan babam vardi\nNikah memunu soruyu sordu\u011funda g\u00f6zlerim doldu. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc art\u0131k ge\u00e7meyen be sur de\u011fildi. Ekuk bar hikaye de\u011fildi\nT\u00f6nem bitinco babas yan\u0131ma geid Annen seni b\u00f6yle g\u00f6rmek isterdi, dedi\nO an anlad\u0131m\nBazen bui korumak i\u00e7in s\u00f6ylenen yalanlar y\u0131llar sonra ger\u00e7e\u011fin kap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7ar \u00d6nemli olan o kap\u0131y\u0131 cesaretle aralarnakl\u0131n\nBen o kapyra\u00e7t\u0131m\nVo o g\u00fcn sadece evlenmedim-alert\u0131n yan\u0131m kalan hikayesini  tamamlad\u0131m    ka\u011f\u0131d\u0131n \u00fczerine damlad\u0131 Villarca i\u00e7imde tapdi\u011fen bo\u015fluk bir anda \u015fekil de\u011fi\u015ftirmi\u015fli \u00d6lku, \u015fa\u015funl\u00fck Olem. Hepsi birbirine kans\u0131. B\u00fcy\u00fckannerme hizrtsali mayd\u0131m? Yaksa beni korumak i\u00e7in yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131 fedakarl\u0131\u011f\u0131m g\u00f6rm\u0259liyden?\nO gece uyuyamad\u0131m. 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