{"id":4026,"date":"2025-07-31T23:51:20","date_gmt":"2025-07-31T23:51:20","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/?p=4026"},"modified":"2025-07-31T23:51:20","modified_gmt":"2025-07-31T23:51:20","slug":"buyuk-hata","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/buyuk-hata\/","title":{"rendered":"B\u00fcy\u00fck hata"},"content":{"rendered":"\n\t\t<style type=\"text\/css\">\n\t\t\t#gallery-1 {\n\t\t\t\tmargin: auto;\n\t\t\t}\n\t\t\t#gallery-1 .gallery-item {\n\t\t\t\tfloat: left;\n\t\t\t\tmargin-top: 10px;\n\t\t\t\ttext-align: center;\n\t\t\t\twidth: 33%;\n\t\t\t}\n\t\t\t#gallery-1 img {\n\t\t\t\tborder: 2px solid #cfcfcf;\n\t\t\t}\n\t\t\t#gallery-1 .gallery-caption {\n\t\t\t\tmargin-left: 0;\n\t\t\t}\n\t\t\t\/* see gallery_shortcode() in wp-includes\/media.php *\/\n\t\t<\/style>\n\t\t<div id='gallery-1' class='gallery galleryid-4026 gallery-columns-3 gallery-size-thumbnail'><dl class='gallery-item'>\n\t\t\t<dt class='gallery-icon landscape'>\n\t\t\t\t<a href='https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/buyuk-hata\/ff-24\/'><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"150\" height=\"150\" src=\"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/07\/ff-11-150x150.webp\" class=\"attachment-thumbnail size-thumbnail\" alt=\"\" aria-describedby=\"gallery-1-4027\" \/><\/a>\n\t\t\t<\/dt>\n\t\t\t\t<dd class='wp-caption-text gallery-caption' id='gallery-1-4027'>\n\t\t\t\tBenim ad\u0131m Cemile. 45 ya\u015f\u0131mday\u0131m., Y\u0131llar \u00f6nce e\u015fimi kaybettim. O\u011flum da evlenip \u0130stanbul\u2019a gidince, K\u00f6yde, koca evde tek ba\u015f\u0131ma kal\u0131verdim. Genelde Kom\u015fular\u0131mla vakit ge\u00e7iririm, \u00e7o\u011fu zamanda yaln\u0131z\u0131m evde.. Baz\u0131 internet sitelerine girmi\u015ftim meraktan, bir ka\u00e7g\u00fcn sonra Telefonumun ekran\u0131na bir bildirim d\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc: \u201cMerhaba, tan\u0131\u015fabilir miyiz?\u201d Ad\u0131 Mert\u2019ti. Profilinde gencecik, yak\u0131\u015f\u0131kl\u0131 bir gen\u00e7ti\u2026 \u0130lk ba\u015fta yanl\u0131\u015fl\u0131kla yazd\u0131 sand\u0131m. Ama yok\u2026 beni bilerek bulmu\u015f. \u201c\u00c7ok zarif ve asil g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcyorsunuz\u201d dedi. Ne yalan s\u00f6yleyeyim\u2026Bu s\u00f6zler \u00e7ok ho\u015fuma gitti.. dayanamad\u0131m bende cevap verdim.\u2014 G\u00fcnler ge\u00e7ti. Konu\u015fmalar ilerledi. Geceler boyu hert\u00fcrl\u00fc sohbet ettik. Sabahlar\u0131 \u201cg\u00fcnayd\u0131n g\u00fczel kad\u0131n\u201d Ak\u015famlar\u0131 \u201ciyi geceler mele\u011fim\u201d derdi. \u015eiirler yazd\u0131. Sesimi duymak i\u00e7in arad\u0131. Ay\u0131pt\u0131r s\u00f6ylemesi ama\u2026 benimde her s\u00f6yled\u011fi ho\u015fuma gidiyordu etkileniyordum. Sonra bir g\u00fcn,\u2026 Ayten\u2019im olur musun?\u201d dedi. \u00e7ok heycanland\u0131m\u2026 Beni yan\u0131na \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rd\u0131 \u2014 \u0130stanbul\u2019a gittim. Beni kar\u015f\u0131lad\u0131 \u00dc\u00e7 g\u00fcnl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcne bir otelde kald\u0131k. Sanki y\u0131llard\u0131r birbirimizi tan\u0131yorduk. Ve evet\u2026 Her \u015feyi ya\u015fad\u0131m onunla. d\u0130bine kadar kad\u0131n oldu\u011fumu hissettirdi bana. Bana kalsa daha fazla kal\u0131rd\u0131m ama art\u0131k geri d\u00f6nmem gerekti\u011fini s\u00f6yledi bana i\u015flerim var daha \u00e7ok g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fece\u011fiz seninle dedi. Ama sanki bi so\u011fukluk vard\u0131 sesinde, ayr\u0131l\u0131rken ben ona s\u0131ms\u0131k\u0131 sar\u0131ld\u0131m ama o bana benim gibi sar\u0131lmad\u0131 sanki beni \u00e7abucak g\u00f6ndermek istiyordu. Otob\u00fcse bindim yerime oturdum camdan tam ona bakacakt\u0131mki \u00e7oktan arkas\u0131n\u0131 d\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015f gidiyordu bile\u2026 Yaar\u0131m saat sonra telefonumun ekran\u0131 titredi. Bir mesaj: \u201cAyten, sana s\u00f6ylemem gereken bir \u015fey var.\u201d G\u00fcl\u00fcmsedim. Ne s\u00f6yleyecek ki daha? Belki \u201c\u00f6zledim\u201d diyecek. Belki yeniden g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fmek isteyecek. Derken bir resim att\u0131. Ellerim titredi\u2026 A\u00e7maya korktum ama a\u00e7t\u0131m, Etraf karard\u0131. O an \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc gelen benim resmimdi. otelde \u00e7ekmi\u015f. sonra bir mesaj daha geldi. \u201dsen as\u0131l \u015fimdi ataca\u011f\u0131m videoyu izle\u201d yaz\u0131yordu\u2026 hemen ard\u0131ndan video geldi \u2026.\n\n\n\t\t\t\t<\/dd><\/dl><dl class='gallery-item'>\n\t\t\t<dt class='gallery-icon portrait'>\n\t\t\t\t<a href='https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/buyuk-hata\/buyuk-hata\/'><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"150\" height=\"150\" src=\"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/07\/buyuk-hata-150x150.jpg\" class=\"attachment-thumbnail size-thumbnail\" alt=\"\" aria-describedby=\"gallery-1-4028\" \/><\/a>\n\t\t\t<\/dt>\n\t\t\t\t<dd class='wp-caption-text gallery-caption' id='gallery-1-4028'>\n\t\t\t\tG\u00f6zlerim dondu kald\u0131. Ellerim titriyor, kalbim k\u00fct k\u00fct de\u011fil\u2026 Yere \u00e7ak\u0131l\u0131rcas\u0131na at\u0131yordu. Sanki i\u00e7ime bir buz k\u00fctlesi oturdu. Bacaklar\u0131m uyu\u015ftu, bo\u011faz\u0131ma koca bir ta\u015f d\u00fc\u011f\u00fcmlendi. G\u00f6zya\u015f\u0131m bile akamad\u0131 o an. O resme bir daha bakt\u0131m. Bendim. Benim mahremim, Benim en k\u0131r\u0131lgan halim\u2026 Ve alt\u0131na yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131 o c\u00fcmle: \u201cSenin gibi asil bir kad\u0131n\u0131n b\u00f6yle g\u00f6r\u00fcnmesini ister misin, Ayten?\u201d K\u0131rk y\u0131ll\u0131k \u00f6mr\u00fcmde kimse b\u00f6yle a\u015fa\u011f\u0131lamam\u0131\u015ft\u0131 beni. Ben ona kalbimi verdim\u2026 O ise kameras\u0131n\u0131. \u2014 O g\u00fcn ne uyuyabildim ne yiyebildim. Sabaha kadar ekran\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131k tuttum. Ve mesajlar ard\u0131 ard\u0131na geldi: \u2014 \u201c\u015eimdi iyi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn Ayten. Bu g\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fcler o\u011fluna gitmesin istiyorsan\u2026\u201d \u2014 \u201cDestek olacaks\u0131n bana. Az bir \u015fey de\u011fil\u2026\u201d \u2014 \u201cSenin gibi dul bir kad\u0131n\u0131n internette neler yapabilece\u011fini bir bilsen\u2026\u201d Ba\u015fta anlamad\u0131m. Ama g\u00fcnler ge\u00e7tik\u00e7e \u00f6\u011frendim ne demek istedi\u011fini: Para. Tehdit. Susturma. S\u00f6m\u00fcrme. \u2014 \u0130lk ba\u015fta banka hesab\u0131mdaki \u00fc\u00e7 be\u015f kuru\u015fla kurtulurum sand\u0131m. O da onu bekliyordu zaten. Havale ettim. Arkas\u0131ndan bir daha istedi\u2026 Sonra alt\u0131nlar\u0131m\u2026 Sonra o\u011flumun bana b\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131 emanet hesap bile. T\u00fcm ya\u015fanm\u0131\u015fl\u0131klar\u0131m, An\u0131lar\u0131m\u0131n de\u011fdi\u011fi her emanet, Bir bir elimden kayd\u0131 gitti\u2026 Ama i\u00e7imde daha ac\u0131 veren bir \u015fey vard\u0131: Kendimden utanmam. Ben Ayten\u2026 Bir telefon ekran\u0131na sevdam\u0131 koydum, Bir yabanc\u0131ya inand\u0131m. Gen\u00e7li\u011fime de\u011fil, Kad\u0131nl\u0131\u011f\u0131ma duydu\u011fum hasrete yenildim\u2026 \u2014 En sonunda ne mi oldu? Bir sabah kap\u0131m \u00e7ald\u0131. O\u011flum gelmi\u015fti. Elinde bankadan gelen dekontlarla. Telefon konu\u015fmalar\u0131m\u0131 kaydetmi\u015f. Kay\u0131tlara ula\u015fm\u0131\u015f. Her \u015feyi \u00f6\u011frenmi\u015f\u2026 Evin ortas\u0131nda a\u011flamaya ba\u015flad\u0131m. Kendimi yere att\u0131m. \u201cBana k\u0131zma o\u011flum\u2026 ben sadece biriyle konu\u015fmak istemi\u015ftim\u2026 s\u0131cak bir \u2018g\u00fcnayd\u0131n\u2019 i\u00e7in verdim her \u015feyimi\u2026\u201d dedim. O\u011flum sustu. Ne ba\u011f\u0131rd\u0131, ne \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rd\u0131. Sadece yakla\u015ft\u0131, oturdu yan\u0131ma. Bir mendil uzatt\u0131. Ve dedi ki: \u201cAnne\u2026 sen su\u00e7lu de\u011filsin. \u0130nsan olmak su\u00e7 de\u011fil. Ama bunu yapan herif, cezas\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7ekecek.\u201d \u2014 Sonras\u0131 m\u0131? Karakol, savc\u0131l\u0131k, mahkeme\u2026 Mert denen o adam ba\u015fka isimlerle onlarca kad\u0131n\u0131 doland\u0131rm\u0131\u015f. Kimini mahvetmi\u015f, kimini susturmu\u015f. Ben \u015fikayet\u00e7i oldum. O\u011flum yan\u0131mdayd\u0131. \u0130lk defa bu kadar g\u00fc\u00e7l\u00fc hissettim. O resimler mi? Art\u0131k umurumda de\u011fil. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc art\u0131k utanm\u0131yorum. Ben a\u015f\u0131k oldum, Ben kand\u0131m\u2026 Ama bir su\u00e7luya de\u011fil, bir duyguma inand\u0131m. Ve biliyor musun? Bug\u00fcn yine aynaya bak\u0131yorum. Yine g\u00f6zlerimin i\u00e7i g\u00fcl\u00fcyor. Ama art\u0131k bir farkla: Kendime daha s\u0131k\u0131 sar\u0131l\u0131yorum. \u2014 SON (Ayten\u2019in hik\u00e2yesi ger\u00e7ek bir\u00e7ok kad\u0131n\u0131n sesi olabilir. Bu ya\u015fta da, bu \u00e7a\u011fda da kand\u0131r\u0131lmak de\u011fil; utan\u0131lacak olan susturulmak ve yaln\u0131z b\u0131rak\u0131lmakt\u0131r. Ayten susmad\u0131. 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