{"id":3062,"date":"2025-06-09T21:26:05","date_gmt":"2025-06-09T21:26:05","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/?p=3062"},"modified":"2025-06-09T21:26:05","modified_gmt":"2025-06-09T21:26:05","slug":"cigdemin-hikayesi","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/cigdemin-hikayesi\/","title":{"rendered":"\u00c7i\u011fdemin Hikayesi"},"content":{"rendered":"\n\t\t<style type=\"text\/css\">\n\t\t\t#gallery-1 {\n\t\t\t\tmargin: auto;\n\t\t\t}\n\t\t\t#gallery-1 .gallery-item {\n\t\t\t\tfloat: left;\n\t\t\t\tmargin-top: 10px;\n\t\t\t\ttext-align: center;\n\t\t\t\twidth: 33%;\n\t\t\t}\n\t\t\t#gallery-1 img {\n\t\t\t\tborder: 2px solid #cfcfcf;\n\t\t\t}\n\t\t\t#gallery-1 .gallery-caption {\n\t\t\t\tmargin-left: 0;\n\t\t\t}\n\t\t\t\/* see gallery_shortcode() in wp-includes\/media.php *\/\n\t\t<\/style>\n\t\t<div id='gallery-1' class='gallery galleryid-3062 gallery-columns-3 gallery-size-thumbnail'><dl class='gallery-item'>\n\t\t\t<dt class='gallery-icon landscape'>\n\t\t\t\t<a href='https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/cigdemin-hikayesi\/cvcv-5\/'><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"150\" height=\"124\" src=\"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/06\/cvcv-2-150x124.jpeg\" class=\"attachment-thumbnail size-thumbnail\" alt=\"\" aria-describedby=\"gallery-1-3063\" \/><\/a>\n\t\t\t<\/dt>\n\t\t\t\t<dd class='wp-caption-text gallery-caption' id='gallery-1-3063'>\n\t\t\t\tMerhabalar ben \u00e7i\u011fdem 37 yas\u0131nday\u0131m kuzenime a\u015f\u0131kt\u0131m ama onun haberi yoktu her g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcmde kalbim deli gibi at\u0131yordu ne yapsam nas\u0131l yapsam ki ona sevgimi g\u00f6stersem diye d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyordum birden bir fikir geldi akl\u0131ma kad\u0131nl\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 kullanay\u0131m dedim bir akrabam\u0131z\u0131n d\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fcnde biriyle haber yollad\u0131m k\u00f6\u015fe ba\u015f\u0131na gel diye haberi al\u0131r almaz geldi oda her\u015fey planlad\u0131\u011f\u0131m gibi gitti kars\u0131 kars\u0131ya geldi\u011fimizde iyice yana\u015ft\u0131m yan\u0131na \u00f6nce yana\u011f-\u0131ndan sonra dud2aktan \u00f6p-me\u2019ye ba\u015flad\u0131m oda hi\u00e7 bozuntuya vermedi..\n\t\t\t\t<\/dd><\/dl><dl class='gallery-item'>\n\t\t\t<dt class='gallery-icon portrait'>\n\t\t\t\t<a href='https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/cigdemin-hikayesi\/cigdem\/'><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"150\" height=\"150\" src=\"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/06\/cigdem-150x150.jpg\" class=\"attachment-thumbnail size-thumbnail\" alt=\"\" aria-describedby=\"gallery-1-3064\" \/><\/a>\n\t\t\t<\/dt>\n\t\t\t\t<dd class='wp-caption-text gallery-caption' id='gallery-1-3064'>\n\t\t\t\tK\u00f6\u015fe ba\u015f\u0131nda onunla kar\u015f\u0131 kar\u015f\u0131ya geldi\u011fimizde kalbim yerinden \u00e7\u0131kacak gibi at\u0131yordu. G\u00f6z g\u00f6ze geldik ve bir an i\u00e7in her \u015feyi unutmu\u015f gibiydim. O ise \u015fa\u015fk\u0131nl\u0131kla bak\u0131yordu, y\u00fcz\u00fcndeki ifade her \u015feyi ele veriyordu. Ne s\u00f6yleyece\u011fini bilemeden biraz duraksad\u0131, sonra hafif\u00e7e g\u00fcl\u00fcmsedi.\n\n\u201cNe oldu, hay\u0131rd\u0131r? Bir \u015fey mi oldu?\u201d diye sordu. Sesindeki s\u0131cakl\u0131k beni daha da cesaretlendirdi. G\u00f6zlerimi ondan ka\u00e7\u0131rmadan hafif bir ad\u0131m daha att\u0131m ona do\u011fru.\n\n\u201cBir \u015fey de\u011fil asl\u0131nda\u2026 sadece konu\u015fmak istedim. Yani\u2026 uzun zamand\u0131r bunu i\u00e7imde tutuyorum, ama art\u0131k daha fazla dayanamayaca\u011f\u0131m,\u201d dedim. S\u00f6zlerim dudaklar\u0131mdan d\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fcrken bir anda daha fazla d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmeyi b\u0131rakt\u0131m. Kalbimin sesini dinlemeye karar vermi\u015ftim.\n\nO an, hafif\u00e7e ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 e\u011fip g\u00f6zlerime bakarken bir \u015fey demedi. Sessizli\u011fini yanl\u0131\u015f m\u0131 anl\u0131yorum diye d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmeye ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131m ki, birden duda\u011f\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131kan birka\u00e7 kelimeyle d\u00fcnyam de\u011fi\u015fti:\n\n\u201cNe demek istiyorsun? \u00c7i\u011fdem, senin b\u00f6yle hissetti\u011fini\u2026 hi\u00e7 fark etmedim. Bunu neden \u015fimdi s\u00f6yl\u00fcyorsun?\u201d\n\nSesi bir yandan \u015fa\u015fk\u0131n, bir yandan da tuhaf bir s\u0131cakl\u0131k ta\u015f\u0131yordu. B\u00fct\u00fcn cesaretimi toplay\u0131p ona do\u011fru bir ad\u0131m daha att\u0131m. Art\u0131k aram\u0131zda birka\u00e7 santim kalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. G\u00f6zlerimi bir an bile ondan ay\u0131rmadan \u201c\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc seni seviyorum,\u201d dedim. \u201cBunu daha fazla saklayamazd\u0131m. Kalbimde bir s\u0131r gibi tutmak istemedim art\u0131k.\u201d\n\nS\u00f6zlerim bo\u015flu\u011fa as\u0131l\u0131 kald\u0131 sanki. Onun y\u00fcz\u00fcndeki ifadeyi okumaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rken nefes bile alam\u0131yordum. Birka\u00e7 saniye bana bakt\u0131, sonra g\u00f6zlerini yere indirdi.\n\n\u201c\u00c7i\u011fdem,\u201d dedi yava\u015f\u00e7a. \u201cBu \u00e7ok\u2026 beklenmedik bir \u015fey. Seni \u00e7ok seviyorum, ama hep bir kuzen gibi\u2026\u201d\n\nO an, kalbimde bir \u015fey k\u0131r\u0131ld\u0131. Ama ayn\u0131 zamanda y\u00fcz\u00fcmde beliren k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir tebess\u00fcmle fark ettim ki, her \u015feyin istedi\u011fim gibi gitmeyece\u011fini ba\u015ftan biliyordum. Kendimi toparlayarak ona g\u00fcl\u00fcmsedim.\n\n\u201cAnl\u0131yorum,\u201d dedim. \u201cBunu s\u00f6ylemek zorundayd\u0131m. Belki de sadece i\u00e7imde tutmak beni yoruyordu.\u201d\n\nBiraz duraksad\u0131 ve sonra omzuma dokunarak, \u201cSen benim i\u00e7in \u00e7ok de\u011ferlisin. Bu hislerini dile getirdi\u011fin i\u00e7in sana minnettar\u0131m, ama\u2026 san\u0131r\u0131m farkl\u0131 y\u00f6nlere bak\u0131yoruz,\u201d dedi.\n\nBu cevab\u0131 bekliyordum. Belki de onun y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc bir kez daha g\u00f6rmek, hissettiklerimi s\u00f6yleyip rahatlamak istemi\u015ftim. G\u00f6zlerimi ka\u00e7\u0131rmadan ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 sallad\u0131m ve derin bir nefes ald\u0131m.\n\n\u201cO zaman arkada\u015f olarak kalal\u0131m,\u201d dedim, bu kez sesimde hafif bir ne\u015fe tonuyla. \u201cAma art\u0131k i\u00e7imde bir s\u0131r ta\u015f\u0131mak zorunda olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131m i\u00e7in mutluyum.\u201d\n\nO da g\u00fcl\u00fcmseyerek ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 sallad\u0131. \u201cSeninle her zaman arkada\u015f olmay\u0131 isterim, \u00c7i\u011fdem. Bunu de\u011fi\u015ftirmek istemem.\u201d\n\nO an ikimiz de bir y\u00fckten kurtulmu\u015f gibiydik. O g\u00fcn, d\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fcn kalabal\u0131\u011f\u0131na geri d\u00f6nd\u00fck, ama i\u00e7imde bir \u015feylerin de\u011fi\u015fti\u011fini hissediyordum. Hayat bazen beklenmedik y\u00f6nlere gider, ama en \u00f6nemlisi, kendimize kar\u015f\u0131 d\u00fcr\u00fcst olmam\u0131zd\u0131r.\n\n\n\t\t\t\t<\/dd><\/dl>\n\t\t\t<br style='clear: both' \/>\n\t\t<\/div>\n\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":3064,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[9],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-3062","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-foto-galeri"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3062","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=3062"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3062\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":3065,"href":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3062\/revisions\/3065"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/3064"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=3062"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=3062"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=3062"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}