{"id":7410,"date":"2026-06-03T09:49:21","date_gmt":"2026-06-03T09:49:21","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/06\/dfs.jpg"},"modified":"2026-06-03T09:49:39","modified_gmt":"2026-06-03T09:49:39","slug":"dfs-8","status":"inherit","type":"attachment","link":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/lise-askiyla-kizim\/dfs-8\/","title":{"rendered":"Lise A\u015fk\u0131yla K\u0131z\u0131m"},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","template":"","meta":[],"class_list":["post-7410","attachment","type-attachment","status-inherit","hentry"],"description":{"rendered":"

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K\u0131z\u0131m yeni kocas\u0131n\u0131 sanki hayat\u0131n s\u0131radan bir d\u00f6n\u00fcm noktas\u0131ym\u0131\u015f gibi tan\u0131\u015ft\u0131rd\u0131. Oysa kap\u0131y\u0131 a\u00e7t\u0131\u011f\u0131m an, t\u00fcm ge\u00e7mi\u015fim sanki do\u011fruca oturma odama dalm\u0131\u015f gibi hissettim. D\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnlerinde ise beni kenara \u00e7ekip, onlarca y\u0131ld\u0131r ta\u015f\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir ger\u00e7ek oldu\u011funu s\u00f6yledi. Elif’i 20 ya\u015f\u0131mda kuca\u011f\u0131ma ald\u0131m. Babas\u0131yla alelacele bir nikah k\u0131y\u0131p 21 y\u0131l evli kald\u0131k. \u0130ki y\u0131l \u00f6nce kanser onu bizden ald\u0131. Ondan sonra yine sadece Elif ve ben kald\u0131k; faturalar, evrak i\u015fleri ve fazla sessiz gelen bir ev… \u00dcniversiteyi bitirdi, bir i\u015fe girdi ve kendi evine ta\u015f\u0131nd\u0131. Onu fazla bo\u011fmamaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yordum. Sonra bir ak\u015fam heyecanla arad\u0131. “Anne, biriyle tan\u0131\u015ft\u0131m.” “G\u00fczel,” dedim. “Anlat bakal\u0131m.” “Benden ya\u015f\u00e7a b\u00fcy\u00fck. Hemen itiraz etme.” “Ne kadar b\u00fcy\u00fck?” “\u00d6nce bir tan\u0131\u015f,” dedi. “Bir rakama tak\u0131lman\u0131 istemiyorum.” Sonraki birka\u00e7 hafta boyunca s\u00fcrekli “duygusal zekas\u0131 y\u00fcksek”, “beni g\u00fcvende hissettiriyor” gibi \u015feyler duydum, o kadar. Ne zaman detay sorsam laf\u0131 \u00e7evirdi. Beni “yak\u0131nda” tan\u0131\u015ft\u0131raca\u011f\u0131na s\u00f6z verip durdu, sonra hep erteledi. Sonunda: “Cuma ak\u015fam\u0131 yemekteyiz. L\u00fctfen nazik ol.” Evi sanki bir s\u0131navdaym\u0131\u015f\u0131m gibi temizledim. En sevdi\u011fi makarnay\u0131 pi\u015firdim. Elbisemi giydim. Karn\u0131ma a\u011fr\u0131lar giriyordu. Kap\u0131 \u00e7al\u0131nd\u0131. A\u00e7t\u0131m ve ge\u00e7mi\u015fim tam y\u00fcz\u00fcm\u00fcn ortas\u0131na bir yumruk gibi indi. Elif orada g\u00fcl\u00fcmseyerek duruyordu, arkas\u0131ndaki bir adam\u0131n elini tutuyordu. Adam \u00f6ne \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131 ve zihnim durma noktas\u0131na geldi. Ayn\u0131 kahverengi g\u00f6zler. Ayn\u0131 \u00e7ene yap\u0131s\u0131. Ya\u015flanm\u0131\u015f ama kesinlikle oydu. “Murat?” diye f\u0131s\u0131ldad\u0131m. G\u00f6zleri fal ta\u015f\u0131 gibi a\u00e7\u0131ld\u0131. “Leyla?” Elif ikimize bakt\u0131. “Bir dakika. Siz tan\u0131\u015f\u0131yor musunuz?” “\u00d6yle de denebilir,” dedim gergin bir sesle. “Elif, beyefendinin ceketini al. Murat, mutfa\u011fa. Hemen.” Onu mutfa\u011fa \u00e7ektim. “Bu ne demek oluyor?” diye t\u0131slad\u0131m. “Benim ya\u015f\u0131ndas\u0131n. K\u0131z\u0131mdan 20 ya\u015f b\u00fcy\u00fcks\u00fcn. Ve sen benim eski sevgilimsin.” Ellerini kald\u0131rd\u0131. “Leyla yemin ederim, ba\u015fta onun senin k\u0131z\u0131n oldu\u011funu bilmiyordum.” “Ba\u015fta,” diye tekrarlad\u0131m. “Yani sonra anlad\u0131n.” Yutkundum. “Evet. Ama onu seviyorum.” Daha ona patlayamadan Elif i\u00e7eri girdi, kollar\u0131n\u0131 kavu\u015fturmu\u015ftu. “Erkek arkada\u015f\u0131m\u0131 m\u0131 sorguya \u00e7ekiyorsun?” “Elif,” dedim, “bu lisedeki Murat. Bir y\u0131ldan fazla beraber olmu\u015ftuk.” Y\u00fcz\u00fc ifadesizle\u015fti. “Bana bundan hi\u00e7 bahsetmedin.<\/p>\n"},"alt_text":"","media_type":"image","mime_type":"image\/jpeg","media_details":{"width":853,"height":1024,"file":"2026\/06\/dfs.jpg","filesize":180578,"sizes":{"medium":{"file":"dfs-250x300.jpg","width":250,"height":300,"filesize":20471,"mime_type":"image\/jpeg","source_url":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/06\/dfs-250x300.jpg"},"thumbnail":{"file":"dfs-150x150.jpg","width":150,"height":150,"filesize":8269,"mime_type":"image\/jpeg","source_url":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/06\/dfs-150x150.jpg"},"medium_large":{"file":"dfs-768x922.jpg","width":768,"height":922,"filesize":118988,"mime_type":"image\/jpeg","source_url":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/06\/dfs-768x922.jpg"},"full":{"file":"dfs.jpg","width":853,"height":1024,"mime_type":"image\/jpeg","source_url":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/06\/dfs.jpg"}},"image_meta":{"aperture":"0","credit":"","camera":"","caption":"","created_timestamp":"0","copyright":"","focal_length":"0","iso":"0","shutter_speed":"0","title":"","orientation":"0","keywords":[],"alt":""}},"post":7409,"source_url":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/06\/dfs.jpg","filename":"dfs.jpg","filesize":180578,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/7410","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/attachment"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=7410"}],"wp:attached-to":[{"embeddable":true,"post_type":"post","id":7409,"href":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/7409"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}