{"id":7358,"date":"2026-05-30T19:41:52","date_gmt":"2026-05-30T19:41:52","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/05\/sa-1.jpeg"},"modified":"2026-05-30T19:42:19","modified_gmt":"2026-05-30T19:42:19","slug":"sa-4","status":"inherit","type":"attachment","link":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/kocam-otuz-bes-yil-boyunca-her-sabah-saat-4te-kendini-banyoya-kilitledi\/sa-4\/","title":{"rendered":"Kocam otuz be\u015f y\u0131l boyunca her sabah saat 4\u2019te kendini banyoya kilitledi.."},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","template":"","meta":[],"class_list":["post-7358","attachment","type-attachment","status-inherit","hentry"],"description":{"rendered":"<p class=\"attachment\"><a href='https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/05\/sa-1.jpeg'><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"167\" height=\"300\" src=\"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/05\/sa-1-167x300.jpeg\" class=\"attachment-medium size-medium\" alt=\"\" srcset=\"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/05\/sa-1-167x300.jpeg 167w, https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/05\/sa-1-572x1024.jpeg 572w, https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/05\/sa-1.jpeg 768w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 167px) 100vw, 167px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n"},"caption":{"rendered":"<p>B\u00d6L\u00dcM 2<\/p>\n<p>O kadar titriyordum ki ayakta durmakta bile zorlan\u0131yordum, tekrar yukar\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131m.<\/p>\n<p>Battaniyenin alt\u0131na girdim ve g\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131m yast\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 \u0131slat\u0131rken uyuyormu\u015f gibi yapt\u0131m.<\/p>\n<p>Richard sonunda yata\u011fa d\u00f6nd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnde, sanki yatmak bile can\u0131n\u0131 ac\u0131t\u0131yormu\u015f gibi dikkatlice yan\u0131ma uzand\u0131. \u0130kimiz de tek kelime etmedik.<\/p>\n<p>O sessizlikte, ikimizin de on y\u0131llarca rol yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 fark ettim.<\/p>\n<p>Ac\u0131 \u00e7ekmiyormu\u015f gibi yapt\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>Ve ben de sonunda ger\u00e7e\u011fi g\u00f6rmemi\u015f gibi davrand\u0131m.<\/p>\n<p>Ertesi sabah, her zamanki gibi kahvalt\u0131 haz\u0131rlad\u0131m. Kahve. Tost. Yumurta. Taze re\u00e7el.<\/p>\n<p>Ama Richard mutfa\u011fa yakas\u0131na kadar d\u00fc\u011fmelenmi\u015f uzun kollu bir g\u00f6mlek daha giyerek girdi\u011finde, ona art\u0131k ayn\u0131 g\u00f6zle bakam\u0131yordum.<\/p>\n<p>\u201c\u0130yi uyudun mu?\u201d diye sordu sessizce.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cTam olarak de\u011fil.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Bir \u015feylerin de\u011fi\u015fti\u011fini hissetmi\u015f gibi g\u00f6zlerini a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 indirdi.<\/p>\n<p>O i\u015fe gittikten sonra yatak odas\u0131n\u0131n dolab\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7t\u0131m.<\/p>\n<p>G\u00f6mle\u011finin arkas\u0131na eczane po\u015fetini saklam\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>\u0130\u00e7erisinde yan\u0131k kremleri, a\u011fr\u0131 kesiciler, t\u0131bbi bant, gazl\u0131 bezler ve eski kan lekeleriyle koyu renkli bandajlar vard\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>Elimde o malzemelerle yata\u011f\u0131n kenar\u0131na oturdum ve birden kendimden utand\u0131m.<\/p>\n<p>Y\u0131llarca aldatma olaylar\u0131, yalanlar, gizli ihanetler hayal ettim.<\/p>\n<p>Bu s\u0131rada kocam, kimsenin g\u00f6rmesini istemedi\u011fi yaralar\u0131n\u0131 sessizce tedavi ediyordu.<\/p>\n<p>O ak\u015fam, ge\u00e7mi\u015fi dikkatlice g\u00fcndeme getirmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131m.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cTan\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131zdan sonraki y\u0131llar\u0131 hat\u0131rl\u0131yor musun?\u201d diye sordum ak\u015fam yeme\u011finde usulca. \u201cO zamanlar \u015fehir tehlikeli geliyordu.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Richard donakald\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cBa\u015flama.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cSadece anlamak istiyorum.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Aniden elini masaya sert\u00e7e vurdu.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cBaz\u0131 \u015feyler g\u00f6m\u00fcl\u00fc kalsa daha iyi olur.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>O cumartesi g\u00fcn\u00fc, o\u011flumuz Michael tesad\u00fcfen u\u011fram\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>Derin bir i\u00e7 \u00e7ekti. \u201cAnne, l\u00fctfen dur art\u0131k. Babam hep b\u00f6yleydi. Mesafeli. So\u011fuk. De\u011fi\u015fmeyecek.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Richard yava\u015f\u00e7a sandalyesinden kalkt\u0131. \u201cAnlamad\u0131\u011f\u0131n \u015feyler hakk\u0131nda konu\u015fma.\u201d Michael ac\u0131 bir kahkaha att\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cNas\u0131l anlayabilirdim ki? Bize hi\u00e7bir \u015fey s\u00f6ylemedin. B\u00fcy\u00fcrken, d\u00fcr\u00fcst olmak gerekirse, beni sevmedi\u011fini d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyordum. \u2018S\u0131rt\u0131n a\u011fr\u0131yor\u2019 diye beyzbol ma\u00e7lar\u0131ma hi\u00e7 gelmedin. Bize hi\u00e7 sar\u0131lmad\u0131n. Hatta neredeyse hi\u00e7 konu\u015fmad\u0131n bile.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Richard\u2019\u0131n y\u00fcz ifadesinin tamamen de\u011fi\u015fti\u011fini izledim.<\/p>\n<p>Claire yan\u0131mda sessizli\u011fe b\u00fcr\u00fcnd\u00fc.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cMichael, dur,\u201d diye f\u0131s\u0131ldad\u0131m.<\/p>\n<p>Ama o\u011flumun y\u0131llard\u0131r biriktirdi\u011fi ac\u0131lar sonunda d\u0131\u015far\u0131ya s\u0131\u00e7\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cHay\u0131r, anne. Sen onu her zaman savundun. Ama biz de onun sessizli\u011finin i\u00e7inde b\u00fcy\u00fcd\u00fck.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Richard yava\u015f\u00e7a arka kap\u0131ya do\u011fru y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fc.<\/p>\n<p>D\u0131\u015far\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kmadan \u00f6nce, hepimizi derinden sarsan bir \u015fey s\u00f6yledi.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cHakl\u0131s\u0131n. Herkes benim y\u00fcz\u00fcmden ac\u0131 \u00e7ekti.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u0130ki hafta sonra her \u015fey alt\u00fcst oldu.<\/p>\n<p>Cumartesi \u00f6\u011fleden sonrayd\u0131. Richard arka bah\u00e7edeki s\u0131zan bir boruyu tamir ediyordu ki birden beton zemine a\u011f\u0131r bir \u015feyin \u00e7arpt\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 duydum.<\/p>\n<p>D\u0131\u015far\u0131 ko\u015ftum ve onu yerde k\u0131vr\u0131lm\u0131\u015f, s\u0131rt\u0131n\u0131 tutarak ac\u0131 i\u00e7inde k\u0131vran\u0131rken buldum.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cRichard!\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Onu oturtmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131m ama ac\u0131yla ba\u011f\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>G\u00f6mle\u011fi kalkm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 ve belinin alt k\u0131sm\u0131ndaki yaralardan biri a\u00e7\u0131lm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Kan an\u0131nda kuma\u015f\u0131 \u0131slatt\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>Tam o anda Michael, elinde bir alet \u00e7antas\u0131yla yan kap\u0131dan i\u00e7eri girdi.<\/p>\n<p>Hayat\u0131nda ilk kez babas\u0131n\u0131n s\u0131rt\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fc.<\/p>\n<p>Y\u00fcz\u00fc an\u0131nda bembeyaz oldu.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cAman Tanr\u0131m\u2026 sana ne oldu?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Richard g\u00f6mle\u011fini tekrar a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 \u00e7ekmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131 ama ac\u0131 \u00e7ok \u015fiddetliydi.<\/p>\n<p>Yan\u0131na \u00e7\u00f6k\u00fcp a\u011flad\u0131m.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cZaten biliyorum,\u201d diye itiraf ettim. \u201cO gece\u2026 anahtar deli\u011finden bakt\u0131m. \u00d6z\u00fcr dilerim.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Richard, art\u0131k saklanacak g\u00fcc\u00fc kalmam\u0131\u015f bir adam gibi g\u00f6zlerini kapatt\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>Michael geriye do\u011fru bir ad\u0131m att\u0131, y\u00fcz\u00fcnde deh\u015fet ifadesi belirdi.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cBaba\u2026 Bilmiyordum.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Onu dikkatlice yukar\u0131, yatak odas\u0131na \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131k. Claire, telefon g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fmemden sonra \u00e7ok korkmu\u015f bir halde, k\u0131sa s\u00fcre sonra geldi.<\/p>\n<p>D\u00f6rd\u00fcm\u00fcz yata\u011f\u0131n etraf\u0131na oturmu\u015f, hayat\u0131m\u0131z boyunca duygusal olarak dokunulmaz g\u00f6r\u00fcnen adama bak\u0131yorduk.<\/p>\n<p>\u015eimdi korkmu\u015f k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir \u00e7ocuk gibi titriyordu.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cBunu sana kim yapt\u0131?\u201d diye f\u0131s\u0131ldad\u0131 Claire.<\/p>\n<p>Richard sessiz kald\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>Elini nazik\u00e7e uzatt\u0131m.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cArt\u0131k bunu tek ba\u015f\u0131na ta\u015f\u0131mak zorunda de\u011filsin.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>G\u00f6zlerinden sessizce ya\u015flar s\u00fcz\u00fcld\u00fc.<\/p>\n<p>Son olarak, \u00e7ocuklar\u0131m\u0131za bakt\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cSize do\u011fruyu s\u00f6ylersem,\u201d diye f\u0131s\u0131ldad\u0131, \u201ceskiden oldu\u011fum adamdan nefret edebilirsiniz.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Michael yata\u011f\u0131n yan\u0131na diz \u00e7\u00f6kt\u00fc.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cSizi anlamadan yarg\u0131lad\u0131\u011f\u0131m i\u00e7in kendimden zaten nefret ediyordum,\u201d dedi. \u201cL\u00fctfen\u2026 bize anlat\u0131n.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Richard yutkunmakta zorland\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>Ve sonra, sesi titreyerek, ailemizi sonsuza dek de\u011fi\u015ftiren o s\u00f6zleri s\u00f6yledi.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cHer \u015fey 1972\u2019de ba\u015flad\u0131\u2026 beni ba\u015fka biriyle kar\u0131\u015ft\u0131rd\u0131lar.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>B\u00d6L\u00dcM 3<\/p>\n<p>Richard, konu\u015fmas\u0131na devam etmeden \u00f6nce birka\u00e7 dakika sessizce oturdu.<\/p>\n<p>D\u0131\u015far\u0131da d\u00fcnya normal seyrinde devam ediyordu. Arabalar ge\u00e7iyor, k\u00f6pekler havl\u0131yor, kom\u015fular \u00e7imlerini bi\u00e7iyordu.<\/p>\n<p>Ama o yatak odas\u0131n\u0131n i\u00e7inde, t\u00fcm aile tarihimiz ortaya seriliyordu.<\/p>\n<p>Richard, \u201cO zamanlar kilise arac\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131yla g\u00f6n\u00fcll\u00fc \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yordum,\u201d dedi usulca. \u201cZor durumdaki ailelere yiyecek g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcyorduk. G\u00f6\u00e7men \u00e7ocuklar\u0131n \u0130ngilizce \u00f6\u011frenmesine yard\u0131mc\u0131 oluyorduk. Tedaviye g\u00fcc\u00fc yetmeyenler i\u00e7in ila\u00e7 topluyorduk.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Her birimize dikkatlice bakt\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cAma o y\u0131llarda\u2026 yanl\u0131\u015f insanlara yard\u0131m etmek sizi \u015f\u00fcpheli g\u00f6sterebilirdi.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u00c7elik fabrikas\u0131ndan ayr\u0131ld\u0131ktan sonra bir ak\u015fam yan\u0131na siyah bir sedan araba yana\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 anlatt\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>\u0130ki adam onu \u200b\u200bzorla i\u00e7eri soktu.<\/p>\n<p>G\u00f6zlerini ba\u011flad\u0131lar, ellerini ba\u011flad\u0131lar ve penceresiz bir yere g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fcler.<\/p>\n<p>\u0130simleri istediler.<\/p>\n<p>Toplant\u0131lar. Siyasi organizat\u00f6rler. Yeralt\u0131 gruplar\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>Ama Richard hi\u00e7bir \u015fey bilmiyordu.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cOnlara yanl\u0131\u015f adam\u0131 yakalad\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131 s\u00f6yleyip durdum,\u201d diye f\u0131s\u0131ldad\u0131. \u201cBen sadece kilise arac\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131yla yard\u0131m eden bir fabrika i\u015f\u00e7isiydim. Ama bana inanmay\u0131 reddettiler.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Claire sessizce a\u011flamaya ba\u015flad\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>Richard, kendisine yap\u0131lan her \u015feyi asla anlatmad\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>Buna ihtiyac\u0131 yoktu.<\/p>\n<p>V\u00fccudu zaten ger\u00e7e\u011fi ortaya \u00e7\u0131karm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>Yan\u0131klar. Yara izleri. Sinir hasar\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cD\u00f6rt g\u00fcn,\u201d dedi. \u201cBeni orada d\u00f6rt g\u00fcn tuttular. Sonunda beni, asl\u0131nda siyasi aktivizmle ilgilenen G\u00fcney Yakas\u0131\u2019ndan ba\u015fka bir Richard Mitchell ile kar\u0131\u015ft\u0131rd\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131 fark ettiler.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Michael y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc iki eliyle kapatt\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cNeden bunu bildirmediniz?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Richard yapmac\u0131k bir kahkaha att\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cBeni serbest b\u0131rakmadan \u00f6nce, e\u011fer bu konuda konu\u015fursam ni\u015fanl\u0131m\u0131n pe\u015fine d\u00fc\u015feceklerini s\u00f6ylediler.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Bana dayan\u0131lmaz bir h\u00fcz\u00fcnle bakt\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cEleanor, o k\u0131\u015f evlenecektik. Onlara inand\u0131m.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Birdenbire her \u015fey nihayet anlam kazand\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>Korku.<\/p>\n<p>Sessizlik.<\/p>\n<p>Kilitli banyo.<\/p>\n<p>Yak\u0131nla\u015fma s\u0131ras\u0131nda karanl\u0131k.<\/p>\n<p>Duygusal mesafe.<\/p>\n<p>\u201c\u0130\u015fte bu y\u00fczden saklad\u0131m,\u201d diye f\u0131s\u0131ldad\u0131. \u201cUtan\u00e7 duydum. Onlardan durmalar\u0131n\u0131 yalvard\u0131\u011f\u0131m i\u00e7in kendimi zay\u0131f hissettim. Hayatta kald\u0131\u011f\u0131m i\u00e7in kendimi zay\u0131f hissettim.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Kollar\u0131m\u0131 dikkatlice onun etraf\u0131na sard\u0131m.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cZay\u0131f de\u011fildin,\u201d dedim g\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131m\u0131n aras\u0131ndan. \u201cKorkun\u00e7 bir \u015feyden sa\u011f kurtuldun.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Michael yakla\u015ft\u0131 ve babas\u0131n\u0131n titreyen elini \u00f6pt\u00fc.<\/p>\n<p>\u201c\u00d6z\u00fcr dilerim baba.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Richard sonunda tamamen \u00e7\u00f6kt\u00fc.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cSizi kucaklamak istedim \u00e7ocuklar,\u201d diye h\u0131\u00e7k\u0131ra h\u0131\u00e7k\u0131ra. \u201cAma bazen kollar\u0131m\u0131 kald\u0131rmak \u00e7ok ac\u0131 veriyordu. Ve bazen hepinizi o kadar \u00e7ok seviyordum ki, benim y\u00fcz\u00fcmden size bir \u015fey olaca\u011f\u0131ndan \u00e7ok korkuyordum.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>O g\u00fcn hi\u00e7birimiz yeme\u011fimize dokunmad\u0131k.<\/p>\n<p>Hep birlikte oturup a\u011flad\u0131k, konu\u015ftuk ve sonunda ailemizin on y\u0131llarca kimsenin ad\u0131n\u0131 koyamad\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir yaran\u0131n etraf\u0131nda d\u00f6n\u00fcp durdu\u011funu anlad\u0131k.<\/p>\n<p>O geceden sonra Richard banyo kap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 kilitlemeyi b\u0131rakt\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>Her sabah saat d\u00f6rtte, o yaralar\u0131n\u0131 temizlerken ve bandajlar\u0131n\u0131 de\u011fi\u015ftirirken yan\u0131nda oturuyordum. Ba\u015flarda utan\u0131yordu. Sonra, ben ona yard\u0131m ederken elimi tutmaya ba\u015flad\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>Kronik a\u011fr\u0131lar\u0131 i\u00e7in bir uzman bulduk. Sonra da bir travma terapisti.<\/p>\n<p>\u0130yile\u015fme yava\u015f ger\u00e7ekle\u015fti.<\/p>\n<p>Yara izleri asla ge\u00e7medi.<\/p>\n<p>Kabuslar hi\u00e7bir zaman tamamen ortadan kaybolmad\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>Ama art\u0131k onlar\u0131 tek ba\u015f\u0131na ta\u015f\u0131m\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n<p>Michael onunla tekrar yak\u0131nla\u015ft\u0131. Claire her hafta sonu onu ziyaret etmeye ba\u015flad\u0131. On y\u0131llar \u00f6nce payla\u015fmam\u0131z gereken konu\u015fmalar nihayet ger\u00e7ekle\u015fti.<\/p>\n<p>Richard, bize ger\u00e7e\u011fi s\u00f6yledikten sonra on be\u015f y\u0131l daha ya\u015fad\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>Ve bu y\u0131llar evlili\u011fimizin en d\u00fcr\u00fcst y\u0131llar\u0131 oldu.<\/p>\n<p>2019\u2019da vefat\u0131ndan birka\u00e7 g\u00fcn \u00f6nce, hastane yata\u011f\u0131ndan elimi s\u0131kt\u0131 ve f\u0131s\u0131ldad\u0131:<\/p>\n<p>\u201cBeni utanc\u0131mla yaln\u0131z b\u0131rakmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z i\u00e7in te\u015fekk\u00fcr ederim.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Aln\u0131ndan \u00f6pt\u00fcm ve \u015f\u00f6yle cevap verdim:<\/p>\n<p>\u201cBu asla utan\u00e7 de\u011fildi. Bu ac\u0131yd\u0131. Ve birisi ac\u0131y\u0131 ta\u015f\u0131man\u0131za yard\u0131m etti\u011finde ac\u0131 hafifler.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Bu hik\u00e2yeyi \u015fimdi anlat\u0131yorum \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc bir\u00e7ok aile travmay\u0131 so\u011fuklukla, sessizli\u011fi zul\u00fcmle, mesafeyi ise sevgisizlikle kar\u0131\u015ft\u0131r\u0131yor.<\/p>\n<p>Bazen babalar \u201c\u00c7ok \u00fcz\u00fcld\u00fcm\u201d demeyi bilemezler.<\/p>\n<p>Bazen e\u015fler, ger\u00e7ekte ac\u0131 ya\u015fan\u0131rken ihanetten \u015f\u00fcphelenirler.<\/p>\n<p>\u00c7ocuklar bazen g\u00f6remedikleri yaralar\u0131 yarg\u0131layabilirler.<\/p>\n<p>Her s\u0131r ihanet de\u011fildir.<\/p>\n<p>Bazen kilitli bir kap\u0131n\u0131n ard\u0131nda, hayatta kalmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015fan bir insan vard\u0131r.<\/p>\n"},"alt_text":"","media_type":"image","mime_type":"image\/jpeg","media_details":{"width":768,"height":1376,"file":"2026\/05\/sa-1.jpeg","filesize":713630,"sizes":{"medium":{"file":"sa-1-167x300.jpeg","width":167,"height":300,"filesize":10608,"mime_type":"image\/jpeg","source_url":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/05\/sa-1-167x300.jpeg"},"large":{"file":"sa-1-572x1024.jpeg","width":572,"height":1024,"filesize":77493,"mime_type":"image\/jpeg","source_url":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/05\/sa-1-572x1024.jpeg"},"thumbnail":{"file":"sa-1-150x150.jpeg","width":150,"height":150,"filesize":5784,"mime_type":"image\/jpeg","source_url":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/05\/sa-1-150x150.jpeg"},"full":{"file":"sa-1.jpeg","width":768,"height":1376,"mime_type":"image\/jpeg","source_url":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/05\/sa-1.jpeg"}},"image_meta":{"aperture":"0","credit":"","camera":"","caption":"","created_timestamp":"0","copyright":"","focal_length":"0","iso":"0","shutter_speed":"0","title":"","orientation":"0","keywords":[],"alt":""}},"post":7356,"source_url":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/05\/sa-1.jpeg","filename":"sa-1.jpeg","filesize":713630,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/7358","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/attachment"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=7358"}],"wp:attached-to":[{"embeddable":true,"post_type":"post","id":7356,"href":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/7356"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}