{"id":727,"date":"2025-02-15T21:06:04","date_gmt":"2025-02-15T21:06:04","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/02\/esim.png"},"modified":"2025-02-15T21:06:07","modified_gmt":"2025-02-15T21:06:07","slug":"esim","status":"inherit","type":"attachment","link":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/esim-cok-fazla-yakisikliydi\/esim\/","title":{"rendered":"esim"},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","template":"","meta":[],"class_list":["post-727","attachment","type-attachment","status-inherit","hentry"],"description":{"rendered":"<p class=\"attachment\"><a href='https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/02\/esim.png'><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"300\" height=\"188\" src=\"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/02\/esim-300x188.png\" class=\"attachment-medium size-medium\" alt=\"\" srcset=\"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/02\/esim-300x188.png 300w, https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/02\/esim.png 603w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 300px) 100vw, 300px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n"},"caption":{"rendered":"<p>O an kalbim deli gibi \u00e7arpmaya ba\u015flad\u0131, elim titredi ama mesaj\u0131g\u00f6rmeden duramazd\u0131m. Telefonu a\u00e7t\u0131m, mesaj\u0131 okudum\u2026 \u201cCan\u0131m, bu gece \u00e7ok g\u00fczeldi, seni \u015fuandan \u00f6zledim.\u201d Ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 d\u00f6nd\u00fcren bir \u015fok dalgas\u0131 sard\u0131 bedenimi, g\u00f6zlerim doldu ama g\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131m akm\u0131yordu, sanki donmu\u015f gibiydim. \u0130\u00e7imde hem hiddet hem de korku vard\u0131. O mesaj\u0131n anlam\u0131n\u0131 kabul etmek istemedim, belki bir hatal\u0131 anla\u015f\u0131lma, belki bir oyun, ama i\u00e7imde bir ses bunun ger\u00e7ek oldu\u011funu f\u0131s\u0131ld\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n<p>Bir an durdum, ne yapmal\u0131y\u0131m diye d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm. Uyand\u0131r\u0131p hesap sormal\u0131 m\u0131yd\u0131m, yoksa sessiz sedas\u0131z sabah\u0131 m\u0131 beklemeliydim? Kafamda binbir fikir dola\u015f\u0131rken, g\u00f6z\u00fcm telefona tak\u0131ld\u0131. Mesaj kimden gelmi\u015fti? Ad\u0131n\u0131 bilmiyordum, yaln\u0131zca kalp emojisiyle kaydedilmi\u015f bir isimdi. O an mideme bir yumruk yemi\u015f gibi hissettim. Bu, d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcmden de k\u00f6t\u00fcyd\u00fc.<\/p>\n<p>Telefonu yerine koydum ve yata\u011fa gittim. Yan\u0131nda yatmak bile dayan\u0131lmazd\u0131 bundan sonra. G\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131m yava\u015f yava\u015f akmaya ba\u015flad\u0131, sessiz sedas\u0131z a\u011flad\u0131m, solukim d\u00fc\u011f\u00fcmlendi, ama sesimi \u00e7\u0131karmad\u0131m. O ise derin bir uykudayd\u0131, sanki hi\u00e7bir \u015fey olmam\u0131\u015f gibi. Kafam karmakar\u0131\u015f\u0131kt\u0131; kalbim k\u0131r\u0131lm\u0131\u015f, g\u00fcvenim yerle bir olmu\u015ftu.<\/p>\n<p>Sabah ne yapaca\u011f\u0131m\u0131 bilmiyordum. T\u00fcm hayat\u0131m g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcn \u00f6n\u00fcnden ge\u00e7iyordu. \u00c7ocuklar\u0131m\u0131n y\u00fczlerini d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm, onlar\u0131 bu hale nas\u0131l sokacakt\u0131m? Ya annem, karde\u015fim? Hepsini akl\u0131mdan ge\u00e7irirken, i\u00e7imde artan bir g\u00fc\u00e7 hissettim. Bir \u015fey yapmal\u0131yd\u0131m. Ama ne?Sabah olur olmaz e\u015fim kalkt\u0131, hi\u00e7bir \u015fey olmam\u0131\u015f gibi telefonunu ald\u0131 ve banyoya gitti. Ben de derin bir soluk ald\u0131m ve karar\u0131m\u0131 verdim.<\/p>\n"},"alt_text":"","media_type":"image","mime_type":"image\/png","media_details":{"width":603,"height":377,"file":"2025\/02\/esim.png","filesize":374515,"sizes":{"medium":{"file":"esim-300x188.png","width":300,"height":188,"filesize":67033,"mime_type":"image\/png","source_url":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/02\/esim-300x188.png"},"thumbnail":{"file":"esim-150x150.png","width":150,"height":150,"filesize":34224,"mime_type":"image\/png","source_url":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/02\/esim-150x150.png"},"full":{"file":"esim.png","width":603,"height":377,"mime_type":"image\/png","source_url":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/02\/esim.png"}},"image_meta":{"aperture":"0","credit":"","camera":"","caption":"","created_timestamp":"0","copyright":"","focal_length":"0","iso":"0","shutter_speed":"0","title":"","orientation":"0","keywords":[]}},"post":725,"source_url":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/02\/esim.png","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/727","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/attachment"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=727"}],"wp:attached-to":[{"embeddable":true,"post_type":"post","id":725,"href":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/725"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}