{"id":5993,"date":"2026-04-28T19:58:15","date_gmt":"2026-04-28T19:58:15","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/04\/on.jpg"},"modified":"2026-04-28T19:58:24","modified_gmt":"2026-04-28T19:58:24","slug":"on","status":"inherit","type":"attachment","link":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/on-yil-sonra-gelen-itiraf\/on\/","title":{"rendered":"On Y\u0131l Sonra Gelen \u0130tiraf"},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","template":"","meta":[],"class_list":["post-5993","attachment","type-attachment","status-inherit","hentry"],"description":{"rendered":"

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On y\u0131l \u00f6nce, g\u00f6rev yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131m itfaiye istasyonundaki “G\u00fcvenli Bebek Kutusu”nu a\u00e7t\u0131\u011f\u0131mda, onu i\u00e7eri ta\u015f\u0131yaca\u011f\u0131m\u0131 sanki zaten biliyormu\u015f gibi bana bakan, terk edilmi\u015f bir yenido\u011fan buldum. E\u015fimle onu evlat edindik. Ge\u00e7en hafta, bebe\u011fi oraya b\u0131rakan kad\u0131n kap\u0131ma geldi ve o geceden \u00e7ok daha \u00f6nce beni se\u00e7mi\u015f oldu\u011funu s\u00f6yledi.<\/p>\n

Gece saat 03:07’ydi; bebek kutusunun alarm\u0131 istasyonda yank\u0131land\u0131\u011f\u0131nda sesi, odadaki herkesin ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 kald\u0131racak kadar keskindi. Orta\u011f\u0131m anonsu bitirmeden ben \u00e7oktan harekete ge\u00e7mi\u015ftim.<\/p>\n

“Bebek kutusu sinyali geldi!”<\/p>\n

Duvardaki k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck durum \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131 ye\u015fil yan\u0131yor, i\u00e7erideki \u0131s\u0131t\u0131c\u0131n\u0131n d\u00fczenli u\u011fultusu duyuluyordu. Mandal\u0131 tutup kapa\u011f\u0131 a\u00e7t\u0131m.<\/p>\n

\u0130\u00e7eride, a\u00e7\u0131k renkli ka\u015fmir bir battaniyeye sar\u0131lm\u0131\u015f, yeni do\u011fmu\u015f bir k\u0131z bebek vard\u0131.<\/p>\n

A\u011flam\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n

Bu kutulara b\u0131rak\u0131lan bebeklerin \u00e7o\u011fu peri\u015fan halde gelirdi. Bu k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck k\u0131z ise orada \u00f6ylece yat\u0131yor, minik g\u00f6\u011fs\u00fc sakin ve d\u00fczenli nefeslerle inip kalk\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n

E\u011fildi\u011fimde g\u00f6zlerini a\u00e7t\u0131 ve nefesimi kesecek bir durgunlukla do\u011frudan bana bakt\u0131.<\/p>\n

“A\u011flam\u0131yor,” diye f\u0131s\u0131ldad\u0131m.<\/p>\n

Orta\u011f\u0131m yan\u0131ma geldi. “Evet dostum, a\u011flam\u0131yor.”<\/p>\n

Uzan\u0131p onu kuca\u011f\u0131ma ald\u0131m. T\u00fcy gibi hafifti ve parmaklar\u0131, sanki tutunuyormu\u015f gibi ceketimin koluna kenetlendi.<\/p>\n

Orta\u011f\u0131m bana bak\u0131p, “Selin’i ara,” dedi.<\/p>\n

“Gecenin \u00fc\u00e7 bu\u00e7u\u011funda m\u0131?”<\/p>\n

Omuz silkti. “Zaten arayaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 biliyorsun.”<\/p>\n

Hakl\u0131yd\u0131. Selin telefonu a\u00e7t\u0131\u011f\u0131nda sesi uykulu geliyordu, ona her \u015feyi anlatt\u0131m. O kadar h\u0131zl\u0131 do\u011fruldu ki \u00e7ar\u015faflar\u0131n h\u0131\u015f\u0131rt\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 telefondan duyabiliyordum.<\/p>\n

“Gelip onu g\u00f6rmen gerekti\u011fini d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyorum,” diye ekledim. E\u011fer i\u015fler umdu\u011fumuz gibi gitmezse bu c\u00fcmlenin ikimize de neye mal olaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 zaten biliyordum.<\/p>\n

Selin geldi\u011finde \u015fafak vakti yeni s\u00f6k\u00fcyordu. Bir \u00e7ocuk sahibi olmak i\u00e7in yedi y\u0131l\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 harcam\u0131\u015ft\u0131k.<\/p>\n

Yedi y\u0131l s\u00fcren doktor randevular\u0131 ve k\u00f6t\u00fc haberler… Sonras\u0131nda otoparklarda ge\u00e7en yedi y\u0131l; \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc Selin araban\u0131n kap\u0131lar\u0131 kapanana kadar a\u011flamamak i\u00e7in kendini zor tutard\u0131.<\/p>\n

Sa\u011fl\u0131k odas\u0131na girdi ve kuca\u011f\u0131mdaki bebe\u011fi g\u00f6r\u00fcnce duraksad\u0131.<\/p>\n

“Aman Allah’\u0131m,” diye f\u0131s\u0131ldad\u0131. “Tutabilir miyim?”<\/p>\n

Ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 sallad\u0131m ve bebe\u011fi kuca\u011f\u0131na b\u0131rakt\u0131m.<\/p>\n

Selin a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131nda g\u00f6zleri doldu. Battaniyeyi d\u00fczeltirken parmaklar\u0131ndaki \u015fefkat, y\u0131llard\u0131r yas tutan bir kalpten geliyordu.<\/p>\n

Elleri titremeye ba\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131nda ne oldu\u011funu \u00e7ok iyi biliyordum.<\/p>\n

“\u00c7ok k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck,” diye m\u0131r\u0131ldand\u0131 Selin. Sonra ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 kald\u0131r\u0131p bana bakt\u0131. “Adnan, onu tutabilir miyiz? Bizim olabilir mi?”<\/p>\n

Sandalyesinin yan\u0131na \u00e7\u00f6meldim ve mini\u011fe tekrar bakt\u0131m. Bebe\u011fin bir eli yana\u011f\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131ndayd\u0131. S\u0131cak ve g\u00fcvende g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcyordu.<\/p>\n

“Sanki sana aitmi\u015f gibi duruyor,” diye cevap verdim, g\u00f6zlerim bu\u011fulanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n

Selin’i o bebekle g\u00f6rmek… G\u00f6\u011fs\u00fcm yar\u0131lacakm\u0131\u015f gibi hissettiriyordu ama en g\u00fczel anlamda. “Onu alamayabilece\u011fimizi biliyorum. Ama en k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir \u015fans bile varsa, o \u015fans\u0131 kullanaca\u011f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 s\u00f6ylemeni istiyorum.”<\/p>\n

“O \u015fans\u0131 kullan\u0131yoruz,” dedim ve o an evrak i\u015fleri sadece birer k\u00e2\u011f\u0131t olmaktan \u00e7\u0131k\u0131p hayat\u0131m\u0131z olmaya ba\u015flad\u0131.<\/p>\n

Kimse ba\u015fvurmad\u0131. Kimse aramad\u0131. G\u00fcnler haftalara d\u00f6nd\u00fc ve bebe\u011fin bizim olup olmayaca\u011f\u0131 sorusu, zaten bizim oldu\u011fu ger\u00e7e\u011fine evrildi. Birka\u00e7 ay sonra onu resmen evlat edindik.<\/p>\n

Ad\u0131n\u0131 Buse koyduk.<\/p>\n

K\u0131z\u0131m\u0131z, sadece varl\u0131\u011f\u0131yla evi \u00e7ekip \u00e7eviren t\u00fcrden bir \u00e7ocuk oldu. Daha ayakkab\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131 ba\u011flamay\u0131 \u00f6\u011frenmeden kahvalt\u0131 hakk\u0131nda fikirleri vard\u0131. Gitti\u011fimiz her parktan ta\u015f toplard\u0131.<\/p>\n"},"alt_text":"","media_type":"image","mime_type":"image\/jpeg","media_details":{"width":912,"height":1136,"file":"2026\/04\/on.jpg","filesize":313660,"sizes":{"medium":{"file":"on-241x300.jpg","width":241,"height":300,"filesize":17894,"mime_type":"image\/jpeg","source_url":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/04\/on-241x300.jpg"},"large":{"file":"on-822x1024.jpg","width":822,"height":1024,"filesize":120980,"mime_type":"image\/jpeg","source_url":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/04\/on-822x1024.jpg"},"thumbnail":{"file":"on-150x150.jpg","width":150,"height":150,"filesize":7474,"mime_type":"image\/jpeg","source_url":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/04\/on-150x150.jpg"},"medium_large":{"file":"on-768x957.jpg","width":768,"height":957,"filesize":108562,"mime_type":"image\/jpeg","source_url":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/04\/on-768x957.jpg"},"full":{"file":"on.jpg","width":912,"height":1136,"mime_type":"image\/jpeg","source_url":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/04\/on.jpg"}},"image_meta":{"aperture":"0","credit":"","camera":"","caption":"","created_timestamp":"0","copyright":"","focal_length":"0","iso":"0","shutter_speed":"0","title":"","orientation":"0","keywords":[]}},"post":5992,"source_url":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/04\/on.jpg","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/5993","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/attachment"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=5993"}],"wp:attached-to":[{"embeddable":true,"post_type":"post","id":5992,"href":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5992"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}