{"id":5984,"date":"2026-04-28T19:49:11","date_gmt":"2026-04-28T19:49:11","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/04\/gf.jpg"},"modified":"2026-04-28T19:49:25","modified_gmt":"2026-04-28T19:49:25","slug":"gf-2","status":"inherit","type":"attachment","link":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/annemin-her-yilbasi-yemek-goturdugu-evsiz-adami-bu-yil-karsimda-gordugumde-gozlerime-inanamadim\/gf-2\/","title":{"rendered":"Annemin Her Y\u0131lba\u015f\u0131 Yemek G\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc Evsiz Adam\u0131 Bu Y\u0131l Kar\u015f\u0131mda G\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcmde G\u00f6zlerime \u0130nanamad\u0131m"},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","template":"","meta":[],"class_list":["post-5984","attachment","type-attachment","status-inherit","hentry"],"description":{"rendered":"

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Annem her y\u0131lba\u015f\u0131 ak\u015fam\u0131 muazzam bir sofra kurard\u0131. F\u0131r\u0131nda nar gibi k\u0131zarm\u0131\u015f tavuk, patates p\u00fcresi, mis kokulu po\u011fa\u00e7alar… Ve kendi hayat\u0131m\u0131zda ne kadar b\u00fcy\u00fck krizler ya\u015farsak ya\u015fayal\u0131m, annem her zaman o sofradan \u0130K\u0130NC\u0130 B\u0130R TABAK ay\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

Bu tabak, mahallemizdeki \u00e7ama\u015f\u0131rhanede yat\u0131p kalkan Eren ad\u0131ndaki gen\u00e7 bir adam i\u00e7indi. Annem onu asla g\u00f6r\u00fcnmezmi\u015f gibi hissettirmez, her y\u0131lba\u015f\u0131 ona \u015fefkatle yakla\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. Zamanla ailesini kaybetti\u011fini \u00f6\u011frenince ona yeme\u011fin yan\u0131nda kal\u0131n bir mont, eldiven ya da market kart\u0131 da vermeye ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Y\u0131llar ge\u00e7ti, ben evden ayr\u0131ld\u0131m, kendi d\u00fczenimi kurdum.<\/p>\n

Ve sonra… ANNEM HASTALANDI. Hastal\u0131k, odadaki en iyi kalpli insan olup olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131zla ilgilenmiyor. O zorlu s\u00fcrece sadece bir y\u0131l dayanabildi ve onu Ekim ay\u0131nda kaybettim.<\/p>\n

Aral\u0131k ay\u0131 geldi\u011finde sadece nefes al\u0131yor, ya\u015fam\u0131yordum. Y\u0131lba\u015f\u0131 gecesi mutfakta annemin eski tenceresine bo\u015f bo\u015f bakarken zihnimde onun o yumu\u015fak ama kararl\u0131 sesini duydum: “Eren’in o s\u0131cak yeme\u011fe ihtiyac\u0131 var. Bu bizim gelene\u011fimiz.”<\/p>\n

A\u011flayarak yeme\u011fi haz\u0131rlad\u0131m. T\u0131pk\u0131 annemin y\u0131llarca yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131 gibi \u00f6zenle sard\u0131m ve ellerim titreyerek \u00e7ama\u015f\u0131rhaneye do\u011fru yola \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131m. Kap\u0131dan girip o tan\u0131d\u0131k k\u00f6\u015feye do\u011fru y\u00fcr\u00fcrken ad\u0131mlar\u0131m aniden durdu. Oldu\u011fum yerde donakald\u0131m.<\/p>\n

\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc Eren oradayd\u0131. Ama hat\u0131rlad\u0131\u011f\u0131m o incecik battaniyenin alt\u0131na saklanan, d\u00fcnyada daha az yer kaplamaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015fan o \u00e7aresiz adam de\u011fildi.<\/p>\n

Ayaktayd\u0131. \u00dcZER\u0130NDE J\u0130LET G\u0130B\u0130 B\u0130R TAKIM ELB\u0130SE VARDI.<\/p>\n

Sa\u00e7lar\u0131 \u00f6zenle kesilmi\u015f, sakallar\u0131 tamamen t\u0131ra\u015f edilmi\u015fti. Elinde ise B\u0130R BUKET BEYAZ ZAMBAK tutuyordu. Beni g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc an g\u00f6zleri doldu. P\u00fcr\u00fczl\u00fc, titreyen bir sesle, “Geldin…” dedi.<\/p>\n

Bo\u011faz\u0131m kilitlenmi\u015fti. Kalbim heyecanla \u00e7arparken, “Eren… Neler oluyor?” diye f\u0131s\u0131ldayabildim sadece.<\/p>\n

G\u00f6zlerini g\u00f6zlerime dikti. Derin bir nefes ald\u0131 ve b\u00fct\u00fcn d\u00fcnyam\u0131 alt\u00fcst eden o c\u00fcmleyi kurdu:<\/p>\n

“Annen senden bir \u015fey saklad\u0131. \u00d6lmeden \u00f6nce de GER\u00c7E\u011e\u0130 SANA ASLA A\u00c7IKLAMAMAM \u0130\u00c7\u0130N benden s\u00f6z alm\u0131\u015ft\u0131…”<\/p>\n

Odan\u0131n etraf\u0131mda d\u00f6nd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc hissettim. Annemin benden bunca y\u0131l saklad\u0131\u011f\u0131 o b\u00fcy\u00fck s\u0131r neydi? Ve bu adam\u0131n asl\u0131nda annemle olan ba\u011flant\u0131s\u0131 neydi?<\/p>\n

Odan\u0131n etraf\u0131mda d\u00f6nd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc, ayaklar\u0131m\u0131n alt\u0131ndaki o eski, y\u0131pranm\u0131\u015f \u00e7ama\u015f\u0131rhane zemininin kay\u0131p gitti\u011fini hissettim. Annemin benden bunca y\u0131l saklad\u0131\u011f\u0131 o b\u00fcy\u00fck s\u0131r neydi? Ve y\u0131llarca k\u00f6\u015fede titreyerek oturan bu adam\u0131n asl\u0131nda annemle olan ba\u011flant\u0131s\u0131 ne olabilirdi?<\/p>\n

Elimdeki s\u0131cak yemek dolu tencereyi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrmemek i\u00e7in plastik masalardan birine tutundum. \u00c7ama\u015f\u0131rhanenin soluk, beyaz floresan \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131 alt\u0131nda duran Eren\u2019e bak\u0131yordum. \u00dczerindeki o \u015f\u0131k, lacivert tak\u0131m elbise, kusursuz taranm\u0131\u015f sa\u00e7lar\u0131 ve elindeki o zarif beyaz zambaklar… O, yard\u0131ma muhta\u00e7 bir evsizden \u00e7ok, ba\u015far\u0131l\u0131 bir i\u015f adam\u0131na benziyordu.<\/p>\n

“L\u00fctfen, otur,” dedi yava\u015f\u00e7a, sesindeki o eski titrek, \u00fcrkek ton tamamen kaybolmu\u015ftu. Yerini kendinden emin ama bir o kadar da kederli bir ses tonu alm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Kar\u015f\u0131mdaki plastik sandalyeye yava\u015f\u00e7a \u00e7\u00f6kt\u00fcm. G\u00f6zlerimi ondan alam\u0131yordum.<\/p>\n

“Sen… Sen sokakta ya\u015fam\u0131yor muydun? Yani bunca y\u0131l…” diye kekeledim.<\/p>\n

Eren elindeki zambaklar\u0131 nazik\u00e7e masan\u0131n \u00fczerine, annemin eski tenceresinin yan\u0131na b\u0131rakt\u0131. Derin bir i\u00e7 \u00e7ekti. “Be\u015f y\u0131l \u00f6ncesine kadar evet, sokaktayd\u0131m,” diyerek s\u00f6ze ba\u015flad\u0131. “Ailemi, e\u015fimi ve k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck k\u0131z\u0131m\u0131 korkun\u00e7 bir yang\u0131nda kaybettim. Hayat\u0131m\u0131 kaybetmedim belki ama ruhum o yang\u0131nda onlarla beraber k\u00fcl oldu. Ya\u015famak istemedim. D\u00fcnyan\u0131n en dibine, bu \u00e7ama\u015f\u0131rhanenin o karanl\u0131k k\u00f6\u015fesine saklan\u0131p \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fc bekledim. Ta ki annenle tan\u0131\u015fana kadar.”<\/p>\n

G\u00f6zlerim dolmu\u015ftu. Annemin ona yemek getirdi\u011fini biliyordum ama hikayenin bu kadar derin oldu\u011funu hi\u00e7 tahmin etmemi\u015ftim.<\/p>\n

Eren hafif\u00e7e g\u00fcl\u00fcmsedi, g\u00f6zleri uzaklara dald\u0131. “Annen bana sadece yemek getirmedi. Bana her y\u0131lba\u015f\u0131 ak\u015fam\u0131 insan oldu\u011fumu hat\u0131rlatt\u0131. Bana ad\u0131mla hitap eden, g\u00f6zlerimin i\u00e7ine bakarak konu\u015fan tek ki\u015fiydi. \u00dc\u00e7 y\u0131l \u00f6nce, bana o market kartlar\u0131n\u0131 ve k\u0131yafetleri verdi\u011fi bir ak\u015fam yan\u0131ma oturdu. Bana, ‘Bu k\u00f6\u015fede \u00e7\u00fcr\u00fcy\u00fcp gitmene izin vermeyece\u011fim, senin i\u00e7inde hala ya\u015famak isteyen bir adam var’ dedi. Annen gizlice benim i\u00e7in bir rehabilitasyon merkezi ayarlam\u0131\u015f. Kendi birikiminden benim tedavi masraflar\u0131m\u0131 kar\u015f\u0131lad\u0131.”<\/p>\n

Nefesim kesilmi\u015fti. “Annem… Kendi birikimini mi harcad\u0131?”<\/p>\n

“Evet,” dedi ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 sallayarak. “Tedavim bittikten sonra bana eski bir dostunun \u015firketinde i\u015f buldu. Hayata yeniden tutundum. \u00c7ok \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131m, terfi ettim ve \u015fu an o \u015firketin ortaklar\u0131ndan biriyim. Kendi evim, kendi hayat\u0131m var. Ama annen, b\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar\u0131 senden kesinlikle saklamam\u0131 istedi…<\/p>\n"},"alt_text":"","media_type":"image","mime_type":"image\/jpeg","media_details":{"width":1024,"height":1536,"file":"2026\/04\/gf.jpg","filesize":199465,"sizes":{"medium":{"file":"gf-200x300.jpg","width":200,"height":300,"filesize":16105,"mime_type":"image\/jpeg","source_url":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/04\/gf-200x300.jpg"},"large":{"file":"gf-683x1024.jpg","width":683,"height":1024,"filesize":114969,"mime_type":"image\/jpeg","source_url":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/04\/gf-683x1024.jpg"},"thumbnail":{"file":"gf-150x150.jpg","width":150,"height":150,"filesize":6785,"mime_type":"image\/jpeg","source_url":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/04\/gf-150x150.jpg"},"medium_large":{"file":"gf-768x1152.jpg","width":768,"height":1152,"filesize":138246,"mime_type":"image\/jpeg","source_url":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/04\/gf-768x1152.jpg"},"full":{"file":"gf.jpg","width":1024,"height":1536,"mime_type":"image\/jpeg","source_url":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/04\/gf.jpg"}},"image_meta":{"aperture":"0","credit":"","camera":"","caption":"","created_timestamp":"0","copyright":"","focal_length":"0","iso":"0","shutter_speed":"0","title":"","orientation":"0","keywords":[]}},"post":5983,"source_url":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/04\/gf.jpg","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/5984","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/attachment"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=5984"}],"wp:attached-to":[{"embeddable":true,"post_type":"post","id":5983,"href":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5983"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}