{"id":5623,"date":"2026-04-21T21:57:55","date_gmt":"2026-04-21T21:57:55","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/04\/bbs-18.jpg"},"modified":"2026-04-21T21:58:04","modified_gmt":"2026-04-21T21:58:04","slug":"bbs-64","status":"inherit","type":"attachment","link":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/torunumun-burnundaki-dogum-lekesini-gorunce-kalbim-duracak-gibi-oldu\/bbs-64\/","title":{"rendered":"Torunumun Burnundaki do\u011fum lekesini g\u00f6r\u00fcnce kalbim duracak gibi oldu"},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","template":"","meta":[],"class_list":["post-5623","attachment","type-attachment","status-inherit","hentry"],"description":{"rendered":"<p class=\"attachment\"><a href='https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/04\/bbs-18.jpg'><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"300\" height=\"163\" src=\"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/04\/bbs-18-300x163.jpg\" class=\"attachment-medium size-medium\" alt=\"\" srcset=\"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/04\/bbs-18-300x163.jpg 300w, https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/04\/bbs-18.jpg 696w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 300px) 100vw, 300px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n"},"caption":{"rendered":"<p>Otuz y\u0131l \u00f6nce, burnunda nadir bulunan mart\u0131 kanad\u0131 \u015feklinde bir do\u011fum lekesiyle do\u011fan bebe\u011fini kaybeden Leyla, bu ac\u0131y\u0131 kalbinin en derinlerine g\u00f6mer. Ancak y\u0131llar sonra torunu do\u011fdu\u011funda, bebe\u011fin y\u00fcz\u00fcndeki o birebir ayn\u0131 lekeyi g\u00f6rmesiyle d\u00fcnyas\u0131 alt\u00fcst olur. Bu benzerlik sadece bir genetik tesad\u00fcf m\u00fcd\u00fcr, yoksa hayat\u0131n gidenlerin ard\u0131ndan sundu\u011fu sessiz bir telafi mi? Leyla\u2019n\u0131n \u015fa\u015fk\u0131nl\u0131k, korku ve nihayetinde huzurla \u00f6r\u00fcl\u00fc i\u00e7sel yolculu\u011fu, torunuyla kurdu\u011fu ba\u011fda anlam bulacakt\u0131r.<\/p>\n<p>Hastanenin steril koridorlar\u0131nda yank\u0131lanan o ilk a\u011flama sesi, normalde bir anneanne i\u00e7in d\u00fcnyan\u0131n en g\u00fczel melodisi olmal\u0131yd\u0131. Ancak benim i\u00e7in o ses, otuz y\u0131ld\u0131r kilitli tuttu\u011fum a\u011f\u0131r bir kap\u0131n\u0131n g\u0131c\u0131rt\u0131s\u0131 gibiydi. K\u0131z\u0131m Meltem, bitkin ama mutlu bir g\u00fcl\u00fcmsemeyle kuca\u011f\u0131ndaki minik paketi bana do\u011fru uzatt\u0131\u011f\u0131nda dizlerimin ba\u011f\u0131 \u00e7\u00f6z\u00fcld\u00fc. &#8220;Bak anne,&#8221; dedi f\u0131s\u0131lt\u0131yla, &#8220;t\u0131pk\u0131 sana benziyor.&#8221; E\u011filip o k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fcc\u00fck y\u00fcze bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131m an, zaman\u0131n durdu\u011funu hissettim. G\u00f6\u011fs\u00fcmde tarif edilemez bir s\u0131z\u0131, bo\u011faz\u0131mda d\u00fc\u011f\u00fcmlenen bir h\u0131\u00e7k\u0131r\u0131k&#8230; Bebe\u011fin burnunun tam \u00fczerinde, iki ka\u015f\u0131n\u0131n hemen alt\u0131ndan ba\u015flay\u0131p sa\u011f yana\u011f\u0131na do\u011fru ince bir kavis \u00e7izen o leke&#8230; Mart\u0131 kanad\u0131 \u015feklindeki o morumsu iz. Bu sadece bir do\u011fum lekesi de\u011fildi; bu, 1996 y\u0131l\u0131n\u0131n ya\u011fmurlu bir kas\u0131m sabah\u0131nda, kollar\u0131m\u0131n aras\u0131ndan kay\u0131p giden ilk bebe\u011fim, o\u011flum Ali\u2019nin m\u00fchr\u00fcyd\u00fc. Kalbim duracak gibi oldu, nefesim kesildi. Otuz y\u0131l boyunca her gece r\u00fcyamda g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm o i\u015faret, \u015fimdi ba\u015fka bir bedende, ba\u015fka bir nesilde yeniden kar\u015f\u0131mdayd\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>Hastanenin o kalabal\u0131k odas\u0131 bir anda silindi. Kendimi yeniden o eski, so\u011fuk ko\u011fu\u015fta, kuca\u011f\u0131mda nefesi kesilmi\u015f minik Ali ile otururken buldum. Doktorlar &#8220;nadir bir kalp yetmezli\u011fi&#8221; demi\u015flerdi. O g\u00fcn, o k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck lekeyi son kez \u00f6p\u00fcp onu topra\u011fa verdi\u011fimde, hayat\u0131m\u0131n bir par\u00e7as\u0131n\u0131n da onunla gitti\u011fine inanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. \u015eimdi ise kar\u015f\u0131mda duran bu bebek, sanki o g\u00fcn yar\u0131m kalan bir c\u00fcmleyi tamamlamak i\u00e7in gelmi\u015fti. &#8220;Anne, iyi misin? Rengin soldu,&#8221; diyen Meltem\u2019in sesiyle kendime geldim. Bir \u015fey diyemedim. Sadece titreyen parmaklar\u0131mla o izin \u00fczerinden hayalet gibi ge\u00e7tim. Ten ayn\u0131 ten, i\u015faret ayn\u0131 i\u015faretti. Eve d\u00f6nd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm\u00fczde i\u00e7imdeki f\u0131rt\u0131na dinmek bilmedi. Bu bir tesad\u00fcf olamazd\u0131. T\u0131pta geneti\u011fin g\u00fcc\u00fcn\u00fc biliyordum ama bu kadar spesifik, bu kadar e\u015fsiz bir i\u015faretin otuz y\u0131l sonra geri d\u00f6nmesi mucizeden ba\u015fka neyle a\u00e7\u0131klan\u0131rd\u0131? Gece boyu eski alb\u00fcmleri kar\u0131\u015ft\u0131rd\u0131m. Ali\u2019nin sadece birka\u00e7 saatlik \u00f6mr\u00fcnden kalan o tek siyah beyaz foto\u011fraf\u0131 buldum. Foto\u011fraf y\u0131pranm\u0131\u015f olsa da leke oradayd\u0131; gururla ta\u015f\u0131nan bir ni\u015fan gibi. Yan yana koydu\u011fumda, torunum Umut ile Ali aras\u0131ndaki benzerlik \u00fcrpertici boyuttayd\u0131. Korkuyordum. Ayn\u0131 i\u015faretin ayn\u0131 kaderi getirip getirmedi\u011fi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncesi beynimi kemiriyordu <\/p>\n"},"alt_text":"","media_type":"image","mime_type":"image\/jpeg","media_details":{"width":696,"height":377,"file":"2026\/04\/bbs-18.jpg","filesize":22061,"sizes":{"medium":{"file":"bbs-18-300x163.jpg","width":300,"height":163,"filesize":5316,"mime_type":"image\/jpeg","source_url":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/04\/bbs-18-300x163.jpg"},"thumbnail":{"file":"bbs-18-150x150.jpg","width":150,"height":150,"filesize":4162,"mime_type":"image\/jpeg","source_url":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/04\/bbs-18-150x150.jpg"},"full":{"file":"bbs-18.jpg","width":696,"height":377,"mime_type":"image\/jpeg","source_url":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/04\/bbs-18.jpg"}},"image_meta":{"aperture":"0","credit":"","camera":"","caption":"","created_timestamp":"0","copyright":"","focal_length":"0","iso":"0","shutter_speed":"0","title":"","orientation":"0","keywords":[]}},"post":5622,"source_url":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/04\/bbs-18.jpg","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/5623","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/attachment"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=5623"}],"wp:attached-to":[{"embeddable":true,"post_type":"post","id":5622,"href":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5622"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}