{"id":5525,"date":"2026-04-19T20:03:48","date_gmt":"2026-04-19T20:03:48","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/04\/B-5.jpg"},"modified":"2026-04-19T20:03:54","modified_gmt":"2026-04-19T20:03:54","slug":"b-39","status":"inherit","type":"attachment","link":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/kaderin-ders-verdigi-baba\/b-39\/","title":{"rendered":"Kaderin Ders Verdi\u011fi Baba"},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","template":"","meta":[],"class_list":["post-5525","attachment","type-attachment","status-inherit","hentry"],"description":{"rendered":"

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Evlili\u011fimin her zorlu\u011fun \u00fcstesinden gelebilece\u011fine inanarak do\u011fum yapt\u0131m. Yan\u0131lm\u0131\u015f\u0131m. Kocam, o\u011flumuzun do\u011fdu\u011fu g\u00fcn bizi terk etti ve ben o \u00e7ocu\u011fu sonraki her zorlu y\u0131lda tek ba\u015f\u0131ma b\u00fcy\u00fctt\u00fcm. Yirmi be\u015f y\u0131l sonra, halka a\u00e7\u0131k tek bir an, bizi b\u0131rakan adam\u0131n ke\u015fke hi\u00e7 geri d\u00f6nmeseydim demesine sebep oldu. Kocam\u0131n beni terk etti\u011fi g\u00fcn, kap\u0131lar \u00e7arp\u0131lmad\u0131. Bence b\u00f6ylesi daha kolay olurdu. Annem hep, “\u00c7arp\u0131lan bir kap\u0131 \u00f6fkedir, \u00f6fke ise canl\u0131d\u0131r,” derdi. “\u00d6fkeyle sava\u015fabilirsin Leyla. Onun arkas\u0131ndaki sebebi anlayabilirsin.” Oysa Volkan\u2019\u0131n bana verdi\u011fi \u015fey; yeni do\u011fan o\u011flumuza bir bak\u0131\u015f, n\u00f6rolo\u011fa bir bak\u0131\u015f ve keskin bir b\u0131\u00e7ak gibi hissettiren temiz bir sessizlikti. Mert hen\u00fcz \u00fc\u00e7 saatlikti. Kolumda h\u00e2l\u00e2 serum vard\u0131. V\u00fccudumun parampar\u00e7a oldu\u011funu hissediyordum ve o\u011flum, bir eli hastane \u00f6nl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcme dolanm\u0131\u015f halde g\u00f6\u011fs\u00fcme sokulmu\u015ftu. N\u00f6rolog nazik\u00e7e konu\u015ftu; bunun hayat\u0131n\u0131z\u0131n “\u00f6ncesi” ve “sonras\u0131” olarak ikiye ayr\u0131lmak \u00fczere oldu\u011funun ilk i\u015fareti oldu\u011funu sonradan \u00f6\u011frenecektim. “Motor geli\u015fim bozuklu\u011fu var,” dedi. “Tablonun tamam\u0131n\u0131 bug\u00fcn bilemeyiz. Mert’in \u00f6n\u00fcm\u00fczdeki aylarda tedaviye, deste\u011fe ve yak\u0131n takibe ihtiyac\u0131 olacak.” Sanki bana bir eczanenin adresini tarif ediyormu\u015f gibi ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 sallad\u0131m. Mert hen\u00fcz \u00fc\u00e7 saatlikti. “Senin su\u00e7un de\u011fil k\u0131z\u0131m,” dedi doktor. “Hamilelik \u00f6ng\u00f6r\u00fclemez bir s\u00fcre\u00e7tir. \u00d6nemli olan bunun hayati bir tehlike ta\u015f\u0131mamas\u0131. Destekle, o\u011flun h\u00e2l\u00e2 dolu dolu bir hayat s\u00fcrebilir.” Elimi s\u0131kt\u0131. “Bir telefon uza\u011f\u0131nday\u0131m.” “Te\u015fekk\u00fcr ederim,” diye f\u0131s\u0131ldad\u0131m. Sonra Volkan anahtarlar\u0131na uzand\u0131. \u0130lk ba\u015fta kocam\u0131n biraz hava almaya ihtiyac\u0131 oldu\u011funu sand\u0131m. \u00d6nemli bilgileri sindirmek i\u00e7in genellikle y\u00fcr\u00fcy\u00fc\u015fe \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131. “Can\u0131m,” dedim. “\u015eu su barda\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bana uzat\u0131r m\u0131s\u0131n?” K\u0131p\u0131rdamad\u0131. Bunun yerine Mert\u2019e, baz\u0131 adamlar\u0131n y\u0131k\u0131lm\u0131\u015f bir duvara bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131 gibi bakt\u0131. Keder yoktu, korku yoktu… Sadece bir de\u011ferlendirme.<\/p>\n"},"alt_text":"","media_type":"image","mime_type":"image\/jpeg","media_details":{"width":1280,"height":687,"file":"2026\/04\/B-5.jpg","filesize":122471,"sizes":{"medium":{"file":"B-5-300x161.jpg","width":300,"height":161,"filesize":12286,"mime_type":"image\/jpeg","source_url":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/04\/B-5-300x161.jpg"},"large":{"file":"B-5-1024x550.jpg","width":1024,"height":550,"filesize":63728,"mime_type":"image\/jpeg","source_url":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/04\/B-5-1024x550.jpg"},"thumbnail":{"file":"B-5-150x150.jpg","width":150,"height":150,"filesize":6844,"mime_type":"image\/jpeg","source_url":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/04\/B-5-150x150.jpg"},"medium_large":{"file":"B-5-768x412.jpg","width":768,"height":412,"filesize":43223,"mime_type":"image\/jpeg","source_url":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/04\/B-5-768x412.jpg"},"full":{"file":"B-5.jpg","width":1280,"height":687,"mime_type":"image\/jpeg","source_url":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/04\/B-5.jpg"}},"image_meta":{"aperture":"0","credit":"","camera":"","caption":"","created_timestamp":"0","copyright":"(c) Bakhtiarzein | Dreamstime.com","focal_length":"0","iso":"0","shutter_speed":"0","title":"","orientation":"0","keywords":[]}},"post":5524,"source_url":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/04\/B-5.jpg","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/5525","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/attachment"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=5525"}],"wp:attached-to":[{"embeddable":true,"post_type":"post","id":5524,"href":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5524"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}