{"id":4611,"date":"2026-03-06T23:21:14","date_gmt":"2026-03-06T23:21:14","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/03\/mm-7.jpg"},"modified":"2026-03-06T23:21:26","modified_gmt":"2026-03-06T23:21:26","slug":"mm-41","status":"inherit","type":"attachment","link":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/babamin-anisina-onun-gomleklerinden-bir-elbise-diktim\/mm-41\/","title":{"rendered":"Babam\u0131n an\u0131s\u0131na, onun g\u00f6mleklerinden bir elbise diktim"},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","template":"","meta":[],"class_list":["post-4611","attachment","type-attachment","status-inherit","hentry"],"description":{"rendered":"

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Babam\u0131n an\u0131s\u0131na, onun g\u00f6mleklerinden bir elbise diktim mezuniyet balosu i\u00e7in. S\u0131n\u0131f arkada\u015flar\u0131m \u00f6nce g\u00fcld\u00fc\u2026<\/p>\n

Annem beni do\u011fururken hayat\u0131n\u0131 kaybetmi\u015f. O g\u00fcnden sonra d\u00fcnyada sadece babam ve ben kalm\u0131\u015f\u0131z. Babam benim hem annem hem babam olmu\u015ftu. Sabahlar\u0131 erkenden kalkar, i\u015fe gitmeden \u00f6nce bana kahvalt\u0131 haz\u0131rlar, \u00f6\u011fle yeme\u011fimi paketlerdi. Her pazar mutfaktan krep kokusu yay\u0131l\u0131rd\u0131. Hatta sa\u00e7\u0131m\u0131 g\u00fczel yapabilmek i\u00e7in YouTube videolar\u0131 izleyerek sa\u00e7 \u00f6rmeyi bile \u00f6\u011frenmi\u015fti. Bazen \u00f6rg\u00fcleri yamuk olurdu ama ben yine de aynaya bak\u0131p g\u00fcl\u00fcmserdim. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc biliyordum ki o bunu benim i\u00e7in \u00f6\u011frenmi\u015fti.<\/p>\n

Babam\u0131n en b\u00fcy\u00fck hayallerinden biri benim liseden mezun oldu\u011fumu g\u00f6rmekti. \u201cO g\u00fcn geldi\u011finde en \u00f6n s\u0131rada ben olaca\u011f\u0131m,\u201d derdi. Ama hayat bazen hayalleri yar\u0131m b\u0131rak\u0131yor.<\/p>\n

Ge\u00e7en y\u0131l babama kanser te\u015fhisi kondu.<\/p>\n

Hastane koridorlar\u0131nda ge\u00e7en aylar boyunca g\u00fc\u00e7l\u00fc g\u00f6r\u00fcnmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. O da g\u00fc\u00e7l\u00fc g\u00f6r\u00fcnmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yordu. Bana her zaman g\u00fcl\u00fcmseyerek \u201cBen iyiyim, sen derslerine bak,\u201d derdi. Ama g\u00f6zlerindeki yorgunlu\u011fu g\u00f6rmemek imk\u00e2ns\u0131zd\u0131.<\/p>\n

Mezuniyet balosuna sadece birka\u00e7 ay kala babam\u0131 kaybettim.<\/p>\n

Cenazeden sonra d\u00fcnya sessizle\u015fmi\u015f gibiydi. Evdeki her e\u015fya onu hat\u0131rlat\u0131yordu. Koltu\u011fun \u00fczerindeki eski battaniyesi, mutfaktaki kahve kupas\u0131, kap\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131ndaki ayakkab\u0131lar\u0131\u2026 Hepsi oradayd\u0131 ama o yoktu.<\/p>\n

Sonra teyzemin yan\u0131na ta\u015f\u0131nd\u0131m.<\/p>\n

Aylar ge\u00e7ti. Okuldaki herkes mezuniyet balosundan konu\u015fuyordu. K\u0131zlar pahal\u0131 ma\u011fazalardan ald\u0131klar\u0131 elbiseleri g\u00f6steriyor, erkekler smokin kiralama planlar\u0131 yap\u0131yordu. Ben ise her konu\u015fmada biraz daha sessizle\u015fiyordum.<\/p>\n

Bir ak\u015fam teyzemin evindeki k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck odada otururken babam\u0131n e\u015fyalar\u0131n\u0131n oldu\u011fu kutuyu a\u00e7t\u0131m. \u0130\u00e7inde neatly katlanm\u0131\u015f g\u00f6mlekleri vard\u0131. Mavi \u00e7izgili olan\u0131\u2026 Beyaz pamuklu olan\u0131\u2026 Ve en sevdi\u011fi a\u00e7\u0131k gri g\u00f6mlek.<\/p>\n

Babam her g\u00fcn i\u015fe giderken g\u00f6mlek giyerdi. Dolab\u0131n\u0131n neredeyse tamam\u0131 g\u00f6mleklerle doluydu. Biz de bununla dalga ge\u00e7erdik.<\/p>\n

O g\u00f6mleklere bakarken akl\u0131ma bir fikir geldi.<\/p>\n

Birdenbire i\u00e7imde tuhaf bir kararl\u0131l\u0131k olu\u015ftu.<\/p>\n

Mezuniyet balosuna babamla birlikte gidecektim\u2026 bir \u015fekilde.<\/p>\n

O gece masaya oturdum, eski diki\u015f makinesini \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131m ve g\u00f6mlekleri tek tek kesmeye ba\u015flad\u0131m. \u0130lk ba\u015fta ellerim titriyordu. Ama sonra par\u00e7alar birle\u015fmeye ba\u015flad\u0131. G\u00fcnlerce \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. Teyzem bazen gelip \u00f6l\u00e7\u00fc almama yard\u0131m etti.<\/p>\n

Sonunda elbise haz\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

Mavi ve beyaz par\u00e7alar\u0131n birle\u015fti\u011fi, g\u00f6mlek d\u00fc\u011fmelerinin h\u00e2l\u00e2 \u00fczerinde durdu\u011fu bir elbise.<\/p>\n

Aynaya bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131mda bo\u011faz\u0131m d\u00fc\u011f\u00fcmlendi.<\/p>\n

Sanki babam yan\u0131mda duruyormu\u015f gibi hissettim.<\/p>\n

Mezuniyet balosu gecesi geldi\u011finde elbiseyi giydim ve salona do\u011fru y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fcm.<\/p>\n

Kap\u0131lar a\u00e7\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131nda i\u00e7eride m\u00fczik \u00e7al\u0131yordu. I\u015f\u0131klar dans pistinin \u00fczerinde d\u00f6n\u00fcyordu. Ama ben i\u00e7eri ad\u0131m atar atmaz f\u0131s\u0131lt\u0131lar ba\u015flad\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u201cBu ne giymi\u015f?\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cCiddi olamaz\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n

Bir k\u0131z alayc\u0131 bir \u015fekilde y\u00fcksek sesle ba\u011f\u0131rd\u0131:
\n\u201cBu elbiseyi eski masa \u00f6rt\u00fclerinden mi yapt\u0131n?\u201d<\/p>\n"},"alt_text":"","media_type":"image","mime_type":"image\/jpeg","media_details":{"width":1633,"height":980,"file":"2026\/03\/mm-7.jpg","filesize":25009,"sizes":{"medium":{"file":"mm-7-300x180.jpg","width":300,"height":180,"filesize":3234,"mime_type":"image\/jpeg","source_url":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/03\/mm-7-300x180.jpg"},"large":{"file":"mm-7-1024x615.jpg","width":1024,"height":615,"filesize":16931,"mime_type":"image\/jpeg","source_url":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/03\/mm-7-1024x615.jpg"},"thumbnail":{"file":"mm-7-150x150.jpg","width":150,"height":150,"filesize":2497,"mime_type":"image\/jpeg","source_url":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/03\/mm-7-150x150.jpg"},"medium_large":{"file":"mm-7-768x461.jpg","width":768,"height":461,"filesize":11415,"mime_type":"image\/jpeg","source_url":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/03\/mm-7-768x461.jpg"},"1536x1536":{"file":"mm-7-1536x922.jpg","width":1536,"height":922,"filesize":30113,"mime_type":"image\/jpeg","source_url":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/03\/mm-7-1536x922.jpg"},"full":{"file":"mm-7.jpg","width":1633,"height":980,"mime_type":"image\/jpeg","source_url":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/03\/mm-7.jpg"}},"image_meta":{"aperture":"0","credit":"","camera":"","caption":"","created_timestamp":"0","copyright":"","focal_length":"0","iso":"0","shutter_speed":"0","title":"","orientation":"0","keywords":[]}},"post":4610,"source_url":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/03\/mm-7.jpg","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/4611","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/attachment"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=4611"}],"wp:attached-to":[{"embeddable":true,"post_type":"post","id":4610,"href":"https:\/\/bilgitarif.com\/yeni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4610"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}